Another Fallen Transman: Matt Kailey

In effort to continue documenting transition related deaths of trans females, here is yet another former self hating dyke gone gay/popular blogger/transgender activist who's died of a testosterone related early death.


Jennifer Kathleen Kailey, better known to her transgender readers as Matt, died "suddenly" May last year of "heart failure" at only 59 years of age. Jennifer transitioned, like many post queer theory dykes in the 90's (1997) at a much older age than lesbians today. Jennifer began her transition at age 42. It is unknown specifically (at least to the public) when she began injecting testosterone. From her own writings, particularly her writing on Menopause, Jennifer-for some years at least was using a low dose of testosterone since she was experiencing Peri-menopausal hot flashes at 50, as her female body fought to regulate itself and was apparently winning still.

Along with her trans-activism, Jennifer ran a question and answer website and about a year before her own death, Jennifer was asked by a reader this:

 “I have a pretty scary question. I’m a trans man, and pretty early in everything, so I used to like looking accomplished trans men up online to have some celebrities to feel some sort of connection to.
“But then I noticed than trans men seem to die pretty young – at least the ones mentioned in ‘famous trans men’ lists all around. So many died before they were even fifty or sixty. And now I just saw another memorial post on Facebook for a guy who died, also before his 50th birthday.
“I know that it’s probably a coincidence, and that all the trans men who live long, happy lives are probably never heard of. But I just have this nagging fear inside that it might have something to do with medical conditions that aren’t being noticed because of bias in the medical system, or something to do with testosterone or … you get the picture.
“My doctor doesn’t know anything about anything, so now I ask you. Maybe you and your readers know something. Do you know if there is any kind of medical study of how trans men in general do medically after transitioning?”

Jennifer answers vaguely: 
 
"The one thing I do know is that you will never get out of this life alive. I’m not trying to be snarky. You will die of something, and my philosophy has always been that I would rather die after having lived a full and authentic life than after having lived as someone I am not.
There are some health risks associated with testosterone, but for most people, these can be mitigated. From what I have read, trans men overall have the same life expectancy as non-trans men, which is slightly shorter than for women.
Some of the guys who you have read about have committed suicide. Lou Sullivan, a very famous trans man who is probably on many of those lists, died from complications related to AIDS. Robert Eads, another very well-known trans man, died from ovarian cancer. Both of these deaths were quite likely complicated by bias in the medical system.
Many of the guys you have probably read about would have died whether they transitioned or not. They might have had some overlooked or undiscovered health problem that would have killed them regardless. They might have developed a terminal illness that had nothing to do with testosterone. The only reason you know about them is because they were trans."
Jennifer then falls back on her own age (57) transition as proof to assuage the reader's fear about testosterone's harm on the female brain/body. I suspect Jennifer minimized the deaths of well known trans females from transition/testosterone in order to alleviate her own worries. Sadly putting her head under a rock or putting her fingers in her ears while la la la-ing cost her her life. 

Like other trans females active in their community, Jennifer was more invested in touting subjective pros rather than providing objective cons. And as an individual, thats her right of course. But when one is a community leader and looked up to for factual information and support, subjectivity isnt limited strictly to self harm it spreads out, harming others.

Jennifer may have had the best of intentions, but we know where the best of intentions pave the way to. The best of transgender intentions may not lead to a fiery hell, but they most definitely lead to a shorter life span on earth.

We're recently seeing the ongoing death toll of 90's trans females, most of whom transitioned in middle age. So now a dozen or more years in transition, their lives are being taken by the secondary means of heart issues, heart valve issues, cardiovascular disease, various cancers(especially brain), diabetes to list a few. Nineties middle age dykes who transitioned while a lot, is a drop in the bucket of Trans Trending females in recent years-females in their teens and early twenties. If 10 to 15 years post testosterone is the norm for middle age transgender female deaths, are we going to see Trans Trenders dying in their late 20's/30's? Will lesbians have our own AIDS type crisis? Will their be enough lesbians left to care or cry?

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When Lesbian Loves Transition-Who can WE turn to? Where is OUR support?

I received this comment on an old post regarding how lesbian partners deal when a lover transitions:
There are literally tens of thousands or programs and support systems ushering lesbians toward and to transition, I dont know of any for the partners, friends or family left behind. I also, like the lesbian above, have yet to a single lesbian relationship survive transition.

If anyone has any information about support groups for the lesbian partners of lesbians who transition, please let us know. I'll work on starting Twitter and FaceBook groups this weekend.

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Transgender Women’s Health Benefits From Transition Surgery-Bogus

Failed music geek turned gay blogger-Zack Ford, recently posted an article in the liberalistic-wet-dream website Think Progress, touting the "health benefits" of "transgender surgery" on trans males. Think Progress's resident band geek's information comes from a "new study" Zack Ford sites here:  Sex reassignment surgery may protect metabolic health of transgender women.

The world according to Zack tells us that
  • "The study compared trans women who were only using hormone therapy to those who had undergone a bilateral orchiectomy — the surgical removal of both their testicles, the body’s testosterone factories. Those who had undergone the surgery were in better health, while those who still had higher levels of testosterone had greater insulin resistance and greater accumulation of fat in the liver."
Zack goes on to say that though
  • "the study was small, it adds to the growing evidence that transgender people can benefit from steps they take to transition their body to match their gender identity. This may help further convince insurance companies that continue to impose exclusions on covering such treatments."
 It is precisely this lack of credible journalism/blogging that misleads the uninformed mind and the uniformed lazy public, who like band geek himself, relies more on a headline that on actual data. And that my be fine if the headline is NO RAIN and although it is cloudy outside and one trusts a weather headline more than their own powers of observation, the worst that can happen is you wind up with a wet head. But when the headline is reporting to trans males the healthy benefits of having your balls cut off, its a tad more serious!

Lets take a moment and do the work of looking behind and beyond the headline and examine the study itself. From the link supplied by Zack Ford, "This is according to new research recently presented at Cardiovascular, Renal and Metabolic Diseases: Physiology and Gender - a conference of the American Physiological Society". Like you, I never heard of the American Physiological Society either. Lets see who the APS is before delving further:
So a private group of academic and medical alumni who are MOSTLY PHDs, whom for whatever reason are interested in experimental biology. What does it take to be a member of this Schutzstaffel
elite guard? "Regular membership is for individuals conducting original research in physiology. Affiliate membership is for individuals interested in physiology but without the evidence of scholarly work." In other words, anyone who shells out the $185 bucks for the membership dues.

Under the APS's "featured news" from their website is this:
As you can see above, sandwiched between two fatuous articles lies the equally cockamamied article regarding the healthy benefits of butchered balls for the transgendered. Little can be gleaned from the information or to be more exact, lack of information provided by the APS's website upon entering their link to this article. They do give us who rendered the article..."lead researcher Michael Nelson, PhD (notice-no MD)...will present “A pilot study exploring metabolic dysfunction in trans-sexual women: Novel insight from magnetic resonance spectroscopy” as part of the poster session “Metabolism and Diabetes” on Wednesday, Nov. 18, from 1:30 PM to 2:30 PM EST in Rhode/Severn Room of the Crowne Plaza Annapolis Hotel. What a minute, PILOT study? Is that a REAL study?
More interesting from the APS's webpage on the PILOT study, is this: NOTE TO JOURNALISTS: To read the full abstract or to schedule an interview with a member of the research team, please contact the APS Communications Office or 301-634-7209. The APS isnt making information about this PILOT study easy to discredit, because it isnt making the PILOT study accessible.

The PILOT study's LEAD researcher Michael D Nelson seems equally inaccessible. Music aficionado Zack Ford and other websites tossed around the PILOT study's research crew at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center giving credibility to the PILOT study. But I had to scour Cedars-Sinai's website before I could locate Michael D Nelson. I found him under one of Cedars-Sinai's Expert Teams, further under Other Participating Team Members-last on that list as Postdoctoral Researcher.

While not gaining FULL access to this new brilliant PILOT study that is ready to neuter the estrogen perfumed saggy sacks of the transgendered, wait one minute before you snip snip. Notes from the APS's conference where the PILOT study was presented gives us not much, but much more than anyone needs to completely discredit this dangerous, illogic farce.

The researchers who made up the PILOT study: Michael Nelson, Deborah Clegg, Lidia Szczepaniak, Josiane Broussard, Richard Bergman and C. Noel Bairey Merz, not a single one outside of this PILOT study has any experience in transgender bodies/health. Not one.

From conference notes:

  • "Trans-sexual women (male to female- MTF) experience significant changes in adipose fat distribution after sex re-assignment surgery, suffer from increased metabolic risk and premature mortality. The exact mechanism by which sex re-assignment surgery and/or female hormone treatment leads to metabolic impairment remains incompletely understood."
  • "To begin to address this question, we recruited 12 trans-sexual women, who had undergone bi-lateral orchiectomy (n = 4-had balls removed) or had not (n = 8 still had their balls). Both groups were using female hormones." 
Abstract from conference:
Twelve males, less than half of whom theoretically prove the PILOT's main point arent a study, they're the last supper sans Jesus. Only unlike the Last Supper the picture painted here isnt beautiful, its tragic! In all likelihood this PILOT offers no new information, and proves nothing. There are tens of thousands of trans males whom have had bottom surgery in the last fifty years, having their testicles removed didnt halt their premature deaths. This PILOT ignores these men's deaths, and further gives no information on the men in the study. How old are these men? What color are these men? What sexual orientation are these men? Were any of these men over weight? Did these men regularly exercise? Did any of these men drink alcohol? Did any have drug issues past or present? Did any have diabetic issues previous to the study? There is an endless list of questions pertinent to control studies that are exempt from this PILOT! The faux study and its faux findings are blatantly obvious when we look past the cocksure headline of Zack Ford the other lookbeforeyouleapers.

I'm not an Adele fan, but I know many a gay man is, I'm surprise Zack failed to take into account Rumour Has it.

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Transition-When it is Too Hard to be Pretty

What happens when feminist lungs have been drain of all oxygen, then refilled with MANufactured FUN feminism
What happens when women are shamed out of their RIGHTful anger?
 
What happens when women arent allowed to be angry?
 
What happens when women's anger is ONLY acceptably allowed under the the category Male?
 
What happens when the category Female becomes so extreme, no female can find a comfortable place to lay her head?
 
What happens when the category Female becomes so extreme, female no longer recognize themselves as female?
 
What happens when Female becomes a category rather than a biological reality?
 
What happens when women's fears of not fitting into the category of Female supersede all common sense?
 
 What happens when lesbianism becomes unrecognizable? 
 
What happens when lesbianism has been purposely blurred to ensure it is unrecognizable? 
 
What happens when lesbians cease to recognize themselves?

This is a sample  from a typical trans female forum of what happens, and it is happening all over the known world:

Girl A...I thought if I could be a pretty girl then I could forget how I felt inside, I thought If I could be a pretty girl I could actually be a girl, I thought I could push everything aside and force all this on myself, I wanted to be like my friends, I wanted to have crushes on boys, and get excited about makeup and talk about the hottest boys in school but I couldn't, I forced myself to get boyfriends and kiss them, I forced this all on myself and convinced myself I was happy, but I wasn't, I couldn't push who I was away, I knew these feelings would never leave and that's when I realised why I was so depressed and suicidal, I thought I would never be able to express who I really was and that's when the Suicide attempts happened, I've attempted suicide 4 times in my life and self harmed everyday for like 5 years

Girl B...When I initially started puberty I was quite excited to get breasts and a more feminine figure. I knew I liked boys so I guess I felt I needed to look a certain way or I wouldn't get a boyfriend. I felt pretty crappy about myself and every time I tried to be more feminine I felt more awkward.

Girl C...I thought if I forced myself to be a pretty girl I'd be happy too. I looked fine, but I still felt so unhappy and ugly.

Girl D... it's the worst when you managed to look like a "pretty girl" because then it's so much more difficult to take the steps to change. I was obsessed with making myself look perfect, unless the whole act was perfect I would feel so disgusted with myself.

Girl E...Being a "pretty girl" never really suit me and I was a literal bitch BC I was so unhappy

Girl F...I did the long girly hair and make up for years! trying to be a girly girl - didn't work as I was far too 'tomboy' and so made me miserable. 

Girl G...Yeah I had so many tiny fixations with my appearance and ended up with an eating disorder which I haven't entirely recovered from.

Girl H...I had a similar period a few months back to try and be what all my friends were, a pretty girl. Made my nana happy too that she got the granddaughter she wanted. 

Girl I...When I initially started puberty I was quite excited to get breasts and a more feminine figure. I knew I liked boys so I guess I felt I needed to look a certain way or I wouldn't get a boyfriend. I felt pretty crappy about myself and every time I tried to be more feminine I felt more awkward.
 
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Correction

In accordance with a recent (post statute of Limitations) legal request, the former speculative article originally posted here on 11/18/2015 has been (in the spirit of good will) removed.

For legal reasons ALL names and mentions of said former post shall remain nameless. This post merely exists to "correct" speculations speculated in the former speculative post.

For readers with an IQ above 65 (less than legal mental retardation and beyond) I can see your furrowed brows begging the question how can you correct a speculation? The common sense answer dear readers is, I cannot.

IF however the lawyer who requested the removal of the now unnamed post is able to/chooses to supply me with adequate proof the speculation/s made in the former post were right/wrong, I will edit to add here. Until proof arrives I leave you with my mascot instead of a post.


Drop the T or Kill the LG? THAT is the Question!

In the last week or so there has been a flurry of ado about a petition titled Drop the T, the T being transgender from the LGb. While I support and share some of the sentiments behind the petition, I cannot get beyond its ANONYMOUS "clayton" petitioner. I have expressed these same grievances and many others for no less than a decade to little or no avail, so have many other lesbians and Radical Feminists, all to similar silence.

I think its great that MR Anon has been able to rouse some of the Gays and Lesbians who've been asleep at the wheel for some time now. But I as a political lesbian blogger who receives regular threats of violence from transgenders, regular efforts by transgenders to have this blog shut down and all its critical information removed, and regular crusades by transgenders to find my personal whereabouts, signing a petition with my location information accessed by an unknown person or persons causes me more than a little trepidation. Its like walking down a dark street past an unknown male who is wearing an I Heart Lesbians T shirt-friend or foe? My growing up a female in a patriarchal world, screams FOE! 

The Drop the T petition could be a much needed fire in whats become a Gay and Lesbian political frozen tundra or a convenient hit list for the easy elimination of critical thinkers, feminists or any voices of dissent toward transgender ideology. Any group that would use or harm children in their warped campaign toward bulletproof rights isnt above starting a pro LGb petition to gain access to addresses of Gay and Lesbian heretics to stalk, harass and kill us. Harvey Milk didnt die peacefully in his sleep as an old age pensioner, he was murdered from a bullet released by a trigger from the hand of hysteric, historic, homophobia!

I personally hold a healthy suspicion of the Drop the T petitioner, but regardless of its authenticity, it has unequivocally showed us in glaring uncertainty where LGBTorganizations lie:
  • "GLAAD stands firmly with the transgender community"
  • Human Rights Campaign "This is unequivocally wrong"
And the silence and cold shoulders from former Gay and Lesbian publications like OUT magazine, the Advocate and HuffPost Gay Voices reads loud and clear. Human Rights Campaign mentioned the hate that murdered Matthew Shepard but fails to take into account that were Shepard a young, insecure homosexual man today, his gayness would get him strapped with a Gender Dysphoria label and he'd be transitioned (drugged/mutilated) into a faux woman. The men that murdered Shepard didnt slight of hand their homosexual hatred, but countless lgbT orgs/associations are doing just that, including passing school policies to ferret out Gays and Lesbians at ever earlier ages. I wont quibble over what is worse, being pistol whipped to death as an obvious homosexual or carved and narcotized into an unrecognizable characterization of a man or women for conformity's sake. What I will say is before the T, and despite the times, we (Gays and Lesbians) lived, loved and died homosexuals, be it on our feet or on our knees. We werent liberally reduced through medical jurisprudence.

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Point 5cc-Binding the Ruthless and Remorseless


Point 5cc is a FOR PROFIT online pro transgender (female) T shirt venture of Aydian AMY and Jenilee Dowling. Their website is aimed at Trans Trenders like Aydian Amy Dowling herself, using "trans pride" to separate desperate Trans Trenders or their parents from some of their credit line. Besides clothing items, Point 5cc offers harmful breast binders, including a free used/slightly soiled breast binder to anyone who makes any over priced T shirt purchase.
The Dowling Sisters scrounge used breast binders in the form of donations from Trans Trenders who are no longer in need of them due to having had unnecessary double mastectomies. The not exactly "free" breast binders are used as an obvious incentive to sell merchandise under the ruse of helping/servicing fellow Trans Trenders.

While the Dowling Sister's site casually warns against breast binding too tight or for too long, it does nothing to dissuade breast binding, despite the overwhelming evidence of breast binding dangers from Trans Trenders themselves. These comments come directly from groups that Aydian AMY is an active member of and bear in mind they are the tiniest drop in the biggest bucket of girls suffering/dying from breast binding:
The Dowling Sisters using misogyny to promote and then profit off the chests of Trans Trenders who are rightfully uncomfortable with the Male Gaze upon their breasts, is precisely why the Drop the T petition is so important for the Gay and Lesbian Community. Selling/supplying breast binders to Trans Trenders would be the equivalent of Gay leaders supplying HIV infected needles or condoms riddled with holes to young gay men during the AIDS crisis! Or Lesbians passing out dental dams plastered with HPV to vulnerable dyke youth!

Profiting from your own misery is sad, profiting from the misery of others by increasing misery in order to increase profit, is fucking foul, nauseating and revolting!

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Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning


Matt-Age 19

Jess-Age 18

Albie-Age 16

Oli-Age 16

Haydin-Age 19

Shae-Age 19

Tamas-Age 17

Frank-Age 18

Tyler-Age 20

This blog received a comment last night to a past post that needed comment approval. Because its lazy assumptions and lack of critical thinking figure greatly in the tidal wave of continued Trans Trenders, I'm releasing it here:
Lets see what assumptions this blog can make based on HER comment:
  • She's a she, as her trans name implies (ethan) and the fact she's commenting here.
  • A teacher or professor just discussed the Sapir-Whorf hypothesis which she failed to understand. Ethan honey, you'd do better to read your Barthes and filter transgenderism through Barthes myths, utilizing the gay/lesbian history/philology/narratives etc transgenderism stole, then drained the blood and guts from-."Myth is a second-order semiotic system. It takes an already constituted sign and turns it into a signifier"...."Myth is a metalanguage. It turns language into a means to speak about itself. However, it does this in a repressive way, concealing the construction of signs"...."Myths differ from other kinds of signifiers.  For one thing, they are never arbitrary.  They always contain some kind of analogy which motivates them.  In contrast to ideas of false consciousness, myths don’t hide anything.  Instead, myths inflect or distort particular images or signs to carry a particular meaningMyth doesn’t hide things, it distorts them.  It alienates the history of the sign".
  • She's lazy. Two minutes on here (30 seconds if actively seeking) and my female sex would be determined. 
  • She's REALLY lazy, 2 seconds and without even fully typing my name and she could have determined my name:
    She hasnt even read the most current post, which would have (if looking) told her this:
My mother who died when I was 6, named me lynn marie and my father who died when I was 36 gave me his last name. I ashamed of neither, and no foe in the universe would EVER cause me hide nor change anything my parents gave me, from flesh to name. But it is precisely this bored lazy fear filled conformist youthful female woe that seeks the quick fix, the quick high, the quick buy to an edited social media reality of scarred bare chested throat bearded selfies that comprise the entire lezbophobic femalephobic woman hating Trans Trending tribe.

When fear deafens you to the voice of reason till your ears bleed, turning knowledge into your enemy and truth your foe, the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.

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Smith College Illegally Enforces Public Pronouns

It has come to my attention that Smith (an all women's school) College dorms (houses) have "verbally expressed" students declare their "preferred" pronouns posted outside their rooms. Pronoun proclamations outside rooms in all houses are conveniently both "mandatory" and without written documentation from Smith officials or in ANY Smith policies.

A little about Smith from their webpage:

  • Smith College is a distinguished liberal arts college committed to providing the highest quality undergraduate education for women to enable them to develop their intellects and talents and to participate effectively and fully in society.
  • The college began more than 140 years ago in the mind and conscience of a New England woman. The sum of money used to buy the first land, erect the first buildings and begin the endowment was the bequest of Sophia Smith. When she inherited a large fortune at age 65, Sophia Smith decided, after much deliberation and advice, that leaving her inheritance to found a women’s college was the best way for her to fulfill the moral obligation she expressed so eloquently in her will: I hereby make the following provisions for the establishment and maintenance of an Institution for the higher education of young women, with the design to furnish for my own sex means and facilities for education equal to those which are afforded now in our colleges to young men.
  • Smith has changed much since its founding in 1871. But throughout its history there have been certain enduring constants: an uncompromising defense of academic and intellectual freedom, an attention to the relation between college education and the larger public issues of world order and human dignity, and a concern for the rights and privileges of women.
Admissions information:

Is Smith still a women’s college?

Yes. Smith College’s mission—to educate women of promise for lives of distinction—remains unchanged. The board’s decision reaffirms this mission in light of society’s evolving understanding of female identity. (Think about that for a second, a university whose claim to fame is providing a higher education for women, yet cannot understand nor separate science and social constructs-particularly constructs whose sole aim is advancing misogyny). 

Are trans women eligible for admission to Smith?

Applicants who were assigned BORN male at birth but identify as women are eligible for admission. (Any male so long as they call themselves "women" are accepted at Smith.)

Are trans men eligible for admission?

Smith does not accept applications from men. Those assigned BORN  female at birth but who now identify as male are not eligible for admission. (Meaning any trans female regardless of where she is in her transition, so long as she says she is a SHE on her application, Smith will accept her. Once accepted at Smith, she can freely change her name/pronouns and continue with her transition and studies.)

Under this newly clarified policy, what is required of applicants to be considered for admission?

Smith’s policy is one of self-identification. To be considered for admission, applicants must select ‘female’ on the Common Application.

Are applicants who identify as genderqueer or gender non-binary eligible for admission?

Our focus on women’s education means that we consider for admission applicants who identify as women and who seek entrance into a community dedicated to women’s education. (Butch lesbians, dykes, tomboys or any female that doesnt conform to the Gender Straight Jacket isnt welcome at Smith. Because these young women are female, call themselves female, Smith cannot exclude them on paper. But clearly from this question and Smith's answer of it, it is obvious women who challenge gender norms and buck the system are not welcome at Smith.)

What is the impact of this decision on students who transition during their time at Smith?

The admission policy does not affect students who transition during their time at Smith. Once admitted, every student has the full support of the college and this includes transmen. And any student who completes the college’s graduation requirements will be awarded a Smith degree and welcomed into the Alumnae Association of Smith College.

Not so coincidentally the current Smith president Kathleen McCartney, is a member/supporter/believer and peddler of the American Psychological Association and the American Psychological Society. McCartney's psycho/logical influences have clearly blinded her, putting instead the dis/ease of a few choice males and dykes over that of 3,000 young women per year. Young women who worked their rear ends off to earn a Smith scholarship or whose parents paid through the nose ($65,000 a year) so that housemates, curricula, teachers and general Smith school life would be fully geared to and toward females. Giving young women a four year respite from the misogyny and sexism awaiting them beyond Smith's womb, while also preparing them to withstand and defeat long held sexist standards once they leave.

Smith's website surmises: "Were Sophia Smith to revisit Northampton, she would no doubt find her vision realized, as students at her college prepare themselves for exemplary lives of service and leadership."  

Sophia Smith's vision for women's education at Smith is not only NOT realised, it has had its pretty head pulled back by the hair revealing its nude neck and had its throat cut! When Smith women are bullied, intimidated and forced by Smith leaders/policy makers to declare what should be the obvious such as this:
this:
this:
  or this:
...the dream once held by Sophia Smith is as dead as SHE!

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Edit to add-If any other brave Smithies want their forced pronoun pictures added here-email them to me at Thedirtfromdirt@yahoo.com. WOMEN MATTER!

Missing Person Kristin Snyder: Lost in a Sea of Myths Pt 2

The next part in our forensic postmortem of the mockumentary The Lost Women of NXIVM will consist of dissecting the major proponents surrou...