This video makes several important points regarding female transition:
- Reality vs Trans Fantasy/Expectation
- Short term changes vs Mid/Long term changes
- Trans Veneer vs Trans Reality/Trans Fear
Reality vs Trans Fantasy/Expectation: There isnt a medical professional dead, alive or not yet born that can definitively say what taking large doses of testosterone for the rest of her life will have on her physically or mentally at any or all stages of that life. If she is this tall and weighs this much, we cannot assume raising her level of testosterone to that of a proportioned male will be the right dosage for her. The RIGHT dosage of testosterone for her body is what it would be at PRE-transition, anything other interferes with her body's natural state at consequences that can only be guessed at!
As such no medical professional can predict that with the "right dose" of testosterone a trans female will: gain muscle, lose weight, become quite hairy or grow relatively little body hair, become bald or keep most her head hair, her voice will become indistinguishable from that of a man's voice, her clitoris will become larger than an average (whats average and who decided it?) female clitoris, sexual attraction will or wont change, sexual morality will or wont change, she will adapt easily to receiving male privileges, she will have no regrets, she will have some regrets, she will regret everything, she live happily ever after, she will cease being depressed, her transition will solved all, some or most of her troubles, at a certain point on testosterone she will "pass" all the time, she will become less angry, more angry, she will be quicker to anger, she will become calm and less emotional, she will feel more rage, if she had dysphoria it will disappear, remain or increase and on and on and on. And at the end of it all, how testosterone affects a female body is a guessing game, because a female body isnt a male body and every single female body has its very own unique genetic history/unlockable code.
Enter the above video, clearly she had a whole host of trans expectations and obviously her hopes and expectations werent met. She has a VERY distinct testosterone affected female voice, she does not "pass" 100% of the time, she isnt muscular, the female bone structure she was hoping to shed or hide is ever present, she is still having periods two plus years on testosterone, emotionally depressed/distressed and highly concerned for what testosterone poisoning has done to her over all health and what it might do going forward.
Short term changes vs Mid/Long term changes: She briefly mentions her excitement (trans highs) at her initial trans changes, but is dissatisfied several years into transition. Trans changes have tapered off or stopped prior to her achieving the results she imagined or was lead to believe transitioning would do for her. Hormone induced changes can be very exciting in the beginning of transitioning and seem quite drastic, but these early seemingly drastic changes are no indication where transition will lead in the end.
Trans Veneer vs Trans Reality/Trans Fear: There is a sincere sad bewilderment in this video, how amid thousands of trans female video's can her transition have gone so horribly wrong? She is someone whom has obviously viewed many female transitioning video's before and during her own transition. Trans female video's, most of which have trans females swinging from chandeliers about the awesomeness of transition. What we dont have and she didnt have is thousands of video's from trans females over the three to five year mark of transition.
There is a HUGE imbalance of short, mid and long term female transition video's, giving a false impression that female transition is the pot O gold at the end of the queer rainbow and remains so through out the life of the trans female. With little or no real health problems from decades of synthetic hormone use, god awful cosmetic surgeries, hosts of mental issues resulting from physical/mental hormone changes advancing outward to social adjustment changes. There is also a HUGE hole in trans dissatisfaction video's, a super HUGE hole in double mastectomy dissatisfaction video's and practically nothing on the often multiple surgeries that "top surgery" requires, all despite the obvious mutilative results from all "top surgery."
So what we are left with is very lop sided trans female video documentation made by trans cheerleader squads caved from the once healthy bodies of women. This lop sidedness leaves trans females approaching mid/long term transitional states walking blindly and is a complete disservice to any female considering transition.