Questions for Dirt, from a Reader
A reader emailed me some questions recently, given I regularly get asked several of them in comments, I'll answer them here in public.
1. Why does your blog revolve mostly around transgender issues? What is your motivation to be so vocal about this? My blog revolves around misogyny more than anything and how misogyny informs transition notions and Butch shame which can lead some to transition. And because queer/trans theory spawned by postmodernism/antiessentialism have nearly leveled the Butch/Femme community utilizing silencing techniques created by patriarchy, someone must stand up proud and say NO and I am that Butch.
2. Being a proud butch woman, why is it that you refer to yourself as "boi" and why is your picture at the top of your blog depicting a very male appearing chest if you are proud to be female bodied? (I'm not trying to be rude at all, I'm genuinely curious.) I've never referred to myself as "boi". The reason its in my nick/email is because 10+ years ago before gay.com had picture profiles, many Butches who chatted at the butch/femme chat room there would use "boi" to differentiate themselves from Femmes. My g/f at the time despised the term, so when we broke up a few years later and I was looking for a new email nick because my email/nick was closely associated with hers. On the way to work, Foreigner's Dirtywhiteboy song came on the radio and it hit me "dirtywhiteBOI"! Given my ex and I had to communicate through email over a house we owned together, using "dirtywhiteboi" was born to piss my ex off. I have kept it because I was quickly called "dirt" after using it for just a short time and I and other now generally refer to me as "dirt". Regarding the pic, as a grown woman I dont see where the picture appears "male". My skin is much too smooth and my shape much too feminine. Most folks arent used to seeing pictures of strong, fit women, hence the leap to male. Take that same shot of any female swimmer, weight lifter or reasonably fit woman, and they would closely resemble mine.
3. Do you think, had you been born in the 90's and had grown up in this day and age, that you would think differently on the subject and feel more pressured to transition based on the "butch body shame/dysphoria" you describe? Had someone approached me after experiencing one menstrual cycle (age 13) and said this drug (T) would stop you from experiencing periods, but could likely cause you to go bald, develop cancer and perhaps be dead after taking it for a decade or so, I would have said "where do I sign up". Had I been approached after the age of 20, which was around the time I realized how unique I was as a Butch woman and how unique my mind was, I wouldnt have thought once about it, despite still having Butch Shame issues and some dysphoria issues. I never got into drugs of any kind, even pot, because I would never risk altering my awesome brain. Knowing that (T) does physiologically alter the brain and how it functions, would have scared the hell out of me. I'm me to the point that no one alive could EVER be me!
4. Do you think its possible at all to be genuinely transgender/transsexual and not part of the trend, or do you honestly believe it's a diagnosis purely made up by the "male medical machine?" No. Transgender/sexual-ism was created to eradicate homosexuality. Any gay or lesbian person who supports this barbaric treatment, supports the eradication of gays and lesbians. Even though many who seek transition are heterosexual, particularly males and now particularly trans trenders, society, including doctors, still believe this is an issues that affects gays and lesbians primarily.
5. Did you ever consider transition as an option for yourself at any point in your life? Or was that never an issue for you? No. It would have to have been an option when I was a child, therefore immature and ignorant, which it wasnt. Thank god!