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Saturday, August 23, 2014

Doing Woman Different: Kitty Tsui

Kitty Tsui, a  Chinese-American born in Hong Kong in 1952. She is a writer, poet, and political activist who explored identity politics long before it was popular.



Chinese Banquet
By Kitty Tsui, 1983

for the one who was not invited

it was not a very formal affair but
all the women over twelve
wore long gowns and a corsage,
except for me.

it was not a very formal affair, just
the family getting together,
poa poa, kuw fu without kuw mow*
(her excuse this year is a headache).

aunts and uncles and cousins,
the grandson who is a dentist,
the one who drives a mercedes benz,
sitting down for shark’s fin soup.

they talk about buying a house and
taking a two week vacation in Beijing.
i suck on shrimp and squab,
dreaming of the cloudscape in your eyes.

my mother, her voice beaded with sarcasm:
you’re twenty six and not getting younger.
it’s about time you got a decent job.
she no longer asks when i'm getting married.

you're twenty six and not getting younger.

what are you doing with your life?
you've got to make a living.
why don’t you study computer programming?

she no longer asks when I’m getting married.
one day, wanting desperately to
bridge the boundaries that separate us,
wanting desperately to touch her,

tell her: mother, i'm gay,
mother i'm gay and so happy with her.
but she will not listen,
she shakes her head.

she sits across from me,
emotions invading her face.
her eyes are wet but
she will not let tears fall.

mother, I say,
you love a man.
i love a woman.
it is not what she wants to hear.

aunts and uncles and cousins,
very much a family affair.
but you are not invited,
being neither my husband nor my wife.

aunts and uncles and cousins
eating longevity noodles
fragrant with ham inquire:
sold that old car of yours yet?

i want to tell them: my back is healing,
i dream of dragons and water.
my home is in her arms,
our bedroom ceiling the wide open sky.

*poa poa = grandmother
kuw fu = uncle
kuw mow = aunt



Kitty Tsui had always done woman differently, the way she carries woman as a woman, the way she carries woman as a Chinese woman and the way she loves women as a woman. But it wasnt until Kitty loved herself as woman, didnt her multi faceted identities find unity and peace.
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3 comments:

  1. wow, thank your for your introduction of this wonderful
    lesbian writer. I liked those words:
    "tell her: mother, i'm gay,
    mother i'm gay and so happy with her."

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  2. Thank you..That was amazing

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