I rarely share personal info here unless I feel it is both relevant to this blog's general content or may be a lesson for this blog's readers. I write this post from a hospital bed. If everything goes as expected I will have a partial hysto this afternoon. Reason for this procedure? For the past two plus years I neglected something I felt/knew was wrong inside me. Why? I did not want to have to see an OB/GYN.
While having worked through the worst of dysphoria, having someone I do not know and am not in a relationship going near my vag was just too scary for me. Last week, this changed. The huge lump in my right side and horribly uncomfortable swollen uterus scared me enough to finally tell my niece what was going on. She brought me to the hospital last Thursday, where my fears for my life and lack of quality of life superseded my dysphoria. After many tests, some obviously more uncomfortable than others, it was discovered I have a nearly 10 centimeter fibroid tumor on my uterus and which has stretched my uterus to its current uncomfortable larger state. My hemoglobin was also in the toilet. I was released the next day (friday last) after having had several bags of blood and put on iron pills/iron rich diet. Was scheduled for surgery the first week of December.
I was directed to come back to the hospital if I start bleeding. I woke up at 3am yesterday and began bleeding. I waited for a few hours to see if the bleeding would subside, it only grew worse. My brother picked me up and took me back to the hospital where the bleeding got so bad I nearly fainted. After under going several pelvic exams, my gyno said I would be having surgery today (this afternoon). I've received three more bags of blood since and will receive more during the surgery.
I couldnt have prevented the fibroid tumor from starting, but had I sought help sooner, the last few years of my life (quality wise) would have been much better, and less worrisome. Also because I waited and let the tumor get so large, I cannot have the more desired laparoscopy. Instead I will be cut wide open the old school way, which has a longer recovery period. No working out for about three months. Ugh!
My point? Please please please, see a gyno on a regular basis and PLEASE if you think something is wrong (female wise) seek help ASAP. I know (trust me) its scary, uncomfortable and embarrassing. But find a family member or friend you love and trust, tell them and have them go with you for support. And honestly, it wont be as bad as the worrying is.
That said, in the next two-ish weeks I obviously wont be posting much or anything. If you are a regular reader, and are interested in writing a guest post that is inline with with the blog's usual content, email them to me and I'll put them up.
edit to add.
Everything went well, other than a slightly larger incision due to the over size of my uterus. Going home from the hospital today. Lots of pain, but dealing with it. Your kind thoughts and words have been a source of comfort.
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