Why I HAVEN'T Transitioned by Cassandra

Hey.. My name is ----- I am a 24 year old female. I am really glad I found your site. I was beginning to think that I was the only one who thought this way. That the desire to transition was not a case of wrong body, but wrong society. Especially with my age and social group, were I to voice such an opinion, I would be labeled "intolerant" or "ignorant".

About myself, I have always gone against the typical female archetype grain. Well, not always.. As a kid and young teen, I did not think of such things, of how I should present myself, if I was socially acceptable or whatnot. My insides matched my outsides, it was as simple as that. I liked sharks, soccer, and dragonball z, and I also liked myself. But as high school came around, I felt pressured by my peers and my mother, to "fit in". I felt like if I didn't wear make-up or "girl clothes", then I was ugly, invalidated as a person. It was then that I began to realize that I was also attracted to women.

At my school and at home, there was no dialog about homosexuality, and if there were it was always in a negative way. I began to internalize these feelings of self-hatred, I felt I was unacceptable, and I didn't want to try and fit in, but was not bold enough to completely go against the grain either. I began to cut myself. I started listening to metal, and other dark, heavy music, in which I identified my own anger and hatred. I wore black, I started talking back at home and at school. I was taken out of school and sent to boarding school, which I was in turn expelled from for getting caught self-mutilating. I was then sent to continuation school with other social rejects.

At that point I was 15 and started experimenting with drugs and alcohol. I did not allow myself to act on my feelings for other women, and instead, at times, got intoxicated and let men do what they wanted with me because that is what I thought I was supposed to do. My acts of self-mutilation increased, as did my drug usage.

Fast forward to age 22. I have run my life into the ground. I am without money, a job, purpose, and am thoroughly addicted to heroin. By this point I have had several twisted relationships with "straight girls" who claim that they would be with me, if only I were a man. I feel wrong in my life, and in my body. I had been contemplating transitioning for months by that point. I knew that something was wrong with me. And transgenderism seemed to explain the void in me, and in my life perfectly. However, being a ravenous drug addict, I was without resources at that point. I ended up going to rehab for 9 months. I got sober and gained hope for a brighter future. I have been sober ever since, and much happier and comfortable with myself. I cut my hair short, wear only mens clothes now, and I feel at home in my own skin.

Last year, a fellow lesbian in my sober social circle, came out as transgender. She garnered much attention and support from the community, even receiving enough money from the folk cd she made, singing about being transgender, in order to fund her top surgery. I had finally become content with myself, and now I see my innermost fantasy played out right in front of my eyes, with seemingly no negative consequence! I began to resent this individual, and I contemplated why. Was I jealous? I felt that I wanted to transition but I couldnt because my family wouldnt accept it, because it would be difficult to find a job, because I am not as charming as she is, to garner such loving support. But lately I have felt like there is more to it.

I feel like I am this gender rebel, almost. I finally have enough inner peace to not care about what others think about me, I can dress however I want, be interpreted as male, or as a mystery, and I dont care. And then this girl comes along, and kind of... invalidates me. What she did, feels like she took away some of the power I felt I possesed. For her to say 'I am male, I am all things that go along with male; power, strength, being worthy of respect', subconsciously made me feel boxed into the antithesis, into weak, second-rate, femininity . I do not accept that role of second class human being, but that does not make me male! I can feel like I dont fit the norm, and that is perfectly okay. But just because I dont fit into one stereotype that means I must fit into another stereotype?

And this diatribe of bullshit is coming from the mouths of the "free thinking youth", the people who claim to be all accepting. They act as if they are all alternative, while they adhere to society's strict guidelines of defining who you are, and who they think you should be! And when I open my mouth to express this thought, I am wrote off and shunned. All the lesbians I know either identify with this trans-trend, or are are propagators of it. So then I am stuck with males who constantly make jokes about how I am a man, or how I am a women so I must... ect. I don't know. I feel like people are so concerned with being "accepted" that they are too afraid to go out into the world and brake down social barriers.

You are right, transgenderism is a trend, and it is growing at an alarming frequency, and mostly within the lesbian community.  It does stem from misogyny, I realize that now. Before, when I wanted to transition, I hated myself for being female. I felt trapped in being a woman, as if I could find freedom in being a man. When in reality, I was just brainwashed into hating women, and hating myself.

by Cassandra


  1. "What she did, feels like she took away some of the power I felt I possesed. For her to say 'I am male, I am all things that go along with male; power, strength, being worthy of respect', subconsciously made me feel boxed into the antithesis, into weak, second-rate, femininity ."

    What you just unwittingly did was sum up the entire motivation for this blog and for all female hatred towards transmen. You see, people do not have an identity at the expense of others' identity. This transman took NOTHING FROM YOU when he came out. In fact, he wasn't thinking about your identity at all. Which is, I guess, the problem. If lesbians are, essentially, getting pissed because another kind of person gets attention for their identity, it's a character defect on the part of those lesbians. Transmen do not take away *anything* from gender-nonconforming women. We are different and we are all okay. You live in scarcity thinking-where there is a false idea that there's a limited amount of acceptance and support to go around. Your jealousy is human, but it should not be mistaken for an actual political platform. Many transpeople come out in far less advantageous circumstances than the one you are describing, yet their identity is real, so they live through whatever they have to. They have no choice. Do you not see the whole world telling us we are not "real men"? Your identity needs to be the one that resonates with you in order for you to live with it-so if a transman can disturb it by coming out, maybe your identity isn't that strong. We don't come out to get a fucking parade and neither should you. Elsewhere, LGBT people are aware that support and encouragement are not limited resources and you will see butches and transmen in strong friendships. You need to deal with your personal shit before you go blaming a group of different people for your lack of conviction in yourself. That goes for the rest of you. If you've got poop in your diaper because trans is "in", you should keep it to yourself until you get stronger because you are just exposing your petty motives and everyone can see the truth. Congratulations on getting clean. Now clean your own proverbial house.

  2. The "motivation" for this blog hasnt changed since day 1. To highlight the misogyny and homophobia that informs transition from all angles.

    And Cass sharing how she felt has nothing to do with you, but she clearly hit a sore spot. I suggest you focus on finding out why her-story affected you so greatly.

    And for the record, if you ID as some form of "trans" then you clearly arent male. Passing as male and being one are two very different things. Ive passed as one since age 3, doesnt make me man, thank fucking god!


  3. It's not my sore spot, Dirt, it's yours.

  4. Says the woman whining on a blog she despises...lol


  5. I don't despise you or your blog, Dirt. That implies far more power than you possess. I do feel sorry for you and for others who cause themselves suffering by thinking about transmen. I'm just pointing out what you can't see through your anger- you are literally *about* us. Whereas we are not *about* you at all. We go on with our lives and thrive while you think and write about and hate on us. Where is the liberation in that? You are enslaved by thoughts of us. You are a lost cause, but Cassandra still has a chance to wake up and come clean with herself. As well as others here who can't stop thinking about us. Undoubtedly *some* of your hateful readers will end up transitioning when they cycle through their internalized fear and hatred of being transsexual. My intention is to help these lost souls waste less of their own time and challenge them to get real with themselves. The most toxic homophobes are usually homosexual themselves and the same goes for transsexuals.

  6. Without focus, change will never occur. Scary to think what you think about Sylvia Plath, Patti Smith, The Suffragettes, MLK, Harvey Milk,Ptolemy, The Heretics, Paul Celan or anyone who diligently worked for their craft, for change, for women's rights, civil rights, gay and lesbian rights etc. You must really hate our kind, or worse fear the fuck out of us!

    Which all your comments make clear. You let your fears run your life, and you do despise anyone who shines a spotlight on those fears. Fears that make you feel like the woman that you are. Fear that you hoped would cease when you believed you killed her. Then their goes Dirt shining that spotlight on her, bring her to light, where you have to not only see her, but hear her screams.

    I've helped many woman just like you with detransitioning, feel free to email me when you are ready to silence her screams once and for all.


  7. "Then their goes Dirt shining that spotlight on her, bring her to light, where you have to not only see her, but hear her screams."

    You are exhibiting delusions of grandeur, which are often early signs of schizophrenia or bipolar syndrome. There is no shame in having mental illness but I ask that you seek help before you do real harm to innocent humans.

  8. When you are ready, email me, I'm here for you. Otherwise kindly do not shit on personal growth stories or your comments will be removed.


  9. Anonymous,
    I can see where you are coming from, and it is true that anothers transition has nothing to do with me. The thing is, is she is not a man. By deciding that she is not a woman, she defined what it is to be a woman. When trans people declare their trans status, they draw a line at where one gender stops and another begins. The truth of biology is there are (majority) people with XX chromosomes and XY chromosomes. Nothing is going to add a Y to your dna sequence. If you are XX you can never be XY. But by claiming you belong in the latter category, for reasons of personality and personal idiosyncrasies, puts the male and female categories into, as dirt refers to it, 'gender straightjackets'. This is where I have a problem with it. If these girls felt they had the freedom to truly express themselves without taking harmful drugs, and mutilating their bodies through surgery, wouldn't that be healthier?? Yet obviously they do not feel they have that freedom, and any potential introspection is often cut short by the allure and advertisement of transgenderism. As for why waste time thinking about it? That is a stupid question. Better ask, why care about anything? Because it affects me, and it affects people I care about, and it affects innocent children. That is why.
    - Cass

  10. Thank you Cassandra....

    For any woman to truly love herself is a revolutionary act in and of itself.

    Your jealousy is human, but it should not be mistaken for an actual political platform

    I'm not the least bit jealous that my identity doesn't come in a vial of "T" that I have to inject myself with for the rest of my life. How can a movement based on external sources of cross gender hormones and extensive plastic surgery on one's healthy genitals be liberatory?

    Transmen do not take away *anything* from gender-nonconforming women

    This is about the mutilation of female bodies which isn't anything new. It's only been going on for thousands of years. Why do you think you're so special? It's not so much about individual transmen who, by the way, are still female. It's about "top surgery" which basically amounts to elective mastectomies in which areolas and nipples are literally cut off, surgically reshaped, and then sewn back on after the mastectomy. It's about puberty suppressing drugs for "gender dysphoric" 11 and 12 year old children. "Transitioning" leaves its mark on the female sex. This is the issue, and it's largely fueled by internalized misogyny and some serious underlying lesbian phobia.

  11. Great story Cass. Thanks for putting it out there.

    And thank you, Dirt for loving women enough to withstand the bullshit thrown your way.

  12. Thank you, Cassandra.

    You applied reason and recovered from the insanity.

    It takes courage to break away from the herd mentality, and you've got it.

  13. Thank you so much for sharing your personal journey Cassandra. As we go through life we often are less than honoured for who we authentically are by our peers, parents and this lesbophobic misogynistic culture. Teens to early twenties can be hard for us, but You have a wonderful life ahead of you as the more you honour yourself and find peers/places where you are honoured the more pride you will discover within. True strength, self esteem and happiness always seems to come from living authenticitally. Thanks again for your story :-)

  14. There's two different issues here. First, people who are transgender need to accept the fact that surgery, hormones, and constrictive binders should be verboten. Unfortunately that's a spiritual way of thinking, and we can't force our own beliefs onto others. I believe transgender people are here to learn balance between the male\female forces of the soul.

    2nd, in order for us to teach\learn balance, others need to stop telling us how to view ourselves. Get rid of the medical treatment option and accept people as the gender they want to be. You solve everything then. People that claim they'll off themselves, that's what anti-depressants are for. If we didn't have the option, it wouldn't be hanging there like temptation. Its no different from a sober alcoholic or recovering addict.

    All your taunts do is make it harder to say no. You wouldn't taunt a recovering alcoholic for wishing they could get drunk, cause they might fall off the wagon. So why taunt people with a sex\gender mismatch?

  15. "How can a movement based on external sources of cross gender hormones and extensive plastic surgery on one's healthy genitals be liberatory?"

    I'm not going to talk about a "movement", because as much as there are some loud and obnoxious voices coming from the "T" crowd, don't believe for a second that there is some sort of unified movement. Even better, don't believe for a second that the loud and obnoxious voices speak for all "T" people -- because they most certainly don't.

    I can only speak for my experience coming from the M2T side of things. After about eight weeks on estrogen, changes started to happen *in my head*. It's an important distiction, because estrogen never really did a whole lot for my body other than a reduction in an already low amount of body hair and softer skin. In my head, it was as if there was a stereo playing at top volume all the time. As if all the voices in my head were screaming as loud as they could scream without any break. All of my fears, all of my self doubts, all of the things I hated about myself, all of the things I wanted to be, all of the things I couldn't be. It was hard just to get up each morning and face the day -- I was going to have to interact with people, work, function like a normal person. Pretending. Not just wearing the mask, but BEING the mask, does that make sense?

    I was "gender non-conforming" for as long as I can remember. I would combine mens and womens clothes together, paint my nails, carry a purse some days. Not gay in the slightest, just a straight guy with some "feminine" behaviour bend. For the most part, people just accepted me as someone a little odd. We're not talking sashaying and weird vocal acrobatics, just a genuine mix of things we consider to be "male" and "female". Like many of you, I would get up in the morning and simply wear whatever felt comfortable without regard to whether or not it was "masculine" or "feminine".

    There was no "charge" or "thrill" from doing these things, I just did them because they felt normal and natural. That's part of where the problem was -- for me it was normal, for everyone else, not so much. Those voices in my head still screamed at me all the time. When I began taking the estrogen, that's what it affected most -- those voices. The turmoil in my head. Suddenly everything was calm and balanced. The world made sense, I could get up in the morning and function. My self-confidence began to build, and I blossomed as a person in general. It's probably the single most important and the single best decision I've ever made in my entire life. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat just for the relief. THAT is what was so "liberating" about "external cross gender hormones". The balance in my head.

    Yes, I have gone the whole way, surgery and all. I felt more at peace with myself being perceived as female. That's tied up with so many things -- what was going on in my head, being drawn to more things that are considered "feminine", society, etc. Arguably I was and still am constricted by the "gender straight jacket" that Dirt talks about -- but for me, I don't see that as a bad thing, because for me, it's what saved my life. I'm happy, healthy, own two businesses and am in a relationship with a woman (who self identifies as bi or pan), and who gets irritated when I say that we're just a regular old straight couple, except for the fact that we can't have children. My life opened up when the mess in my head settled down, and isn't that supposed to be the point of obtaining treatment for trangenderism?

  16. (My apologies for taking up two comment spaces, apparently there is a limit to the number of characters you can leave in a comment!)

    I don't try and gain access to women's spaces, or interfere with lesbians or the thousand other things that the people talked about here do. I do read and comment on Dirt's blog and some other blogs just to offer an alternate perspective (because this alternate and mind-blowing perspective was introduced to me here), but that's the extent of horning in on women's space. I'm far too busy in my every day life to worry about whether or not women see me as a woman, or whether or not the rest of the world does. I liberated myself with surgery and cross gender hormones. Myself, me. It wasn't a statement on gender, or an assault on homosexuality -- it was how I was able to grow and function and participate in a world I would have otherwise left early. It's a very personal and singular thing, being transgender. A selfish thing even. I guess that there is an expectation that the world plays along with the fantasy, even when on the other hand, I completely understand when it doesn't.

    I think it's difficult for others that have gone through a similar, but not the SAME struggle to understand the liberation. Being transgender is not about pink and blue and skirts and pants. It's about the dysfunction in the brain that prevents a person from being able to functional normally. Whether or not surgery and hormones is the de-facto treatment, I can't say. It worked for me after so many other things did not. It's definitely not for everyone, and there are regrets that I have about the surgery sometimes. I have fears about what horrible cancer I might contract from taking estrogen pills every day. I know that I've basically guaranteed a shorter lifespan and have opened myself up to all sorts of medical issues I might never have experienced had I not gone through with it. However, I take on those risks to feel as I do now -- loved, happy, successful. Alive.

  17. I can tell from "Cass's" responses that it is Dirt. The writing style is the same.

  18. Also, 2 of my comments were deleted yesterday and they didn't include insults, curse words or were off-topic. Also, if you give kudos to the first commenter your post will be removed because Dirt removed mine in agreement as well as someone else's.

  19. What happened to that one 5-paragraph-commenter who often posts (copypastas) on this blog in hysterical bold caps? That person cracks me up.

  20. Wow Lynn, you sure make up creative stories. That is exactly your writing style. Nice try!

  21. Cassandra, you are a brave young woman...

  22. Anonymous Sharon H. said...
    Wow Lynn, you sure make up creative stories. That is exactly your writing style. Nice try!

    It's not like Dirt's writing style, and Cassandra uses phrases that I've never heard dirt use. How long has Sharon H. been reading this blog? Is this person the world's authority on writing styles? The way that Cassandra describes how she grew up sounds credible to me. Read Cassandra's post again, and decide if any of the things she talks about are things that dirt has any knowledge of. It's a deeply personal story, and to denigrate any woman's attempt to make some sense of where her life is going is rather insulting.

    Wow, Sharon H, the thought of an independent woman doing some serious soul searching and critical analysis of what she sees and observes with her own eyes is extremely threatening to some people. It's so threatening to some people that they have to troll this and other blogs to harass women who have the audacity to think for themselves.

    How dare women start to think for themselves.

    Cassandra, great post, and stay strong, proud, and free...

  23. It's about the dysfunction in the brain that prevents a person from being able to functional normally. Whether or not surgery and hormones is the de-facto treatment, I can't say.

    Is it really about a "dysfunction in the brain", or everything that these 12, 13, and 14 year old girls read online at transgender blogs and websites and hear from their friends? There is no way of clearly distinguishing cultural influences from the "gender dyshporia".

    "Transgender FTM name change?

    i am a 12 year old FTM trans gender and i already go to therapy and plan on starting hormones when i am 16 my therapist said the first thing i should do is pick a new name so i am asking you guys for help right now i am thinking about the name Zackary(spelled that way btw the other way looks boring) and if people want they can shorten it to Zacky but i am also looking for a second opinion "


  24. It's about the dysfunction in the brain that prevents a person from being able to functional normally. Whether or not surgery and hormones is the de-facto treatment, I can't say.

    I completely agree with the statement, "Whether or not surgery and hormones is the de-facto treatment, I can't say."

    As to a "dysfunction in the brain that prevents a person from being able to functional normally", the so-called transgender "brain sex" theories do not hold up to careful scrutiny. If a "dysfunction in the brain" does exist, isn't it possible that this same alleged dysfunction could occur in people who do not identity as transgender?

    First, neuroscience is unreliable. Even when an effect is objectively measurable, small sample sizes and poor statistical significance plague neuroscience studies. Many results are not replicable and, often, the alleged “findings” are not even based on human brains!

    Read this:

    Power failure: Why small sample size undermines the reliability of neuroscience (10 April 2013)
    article by Katherine S. Button, John P. A. Ioannidis, Claire Mokrysz, Brian A. Nosek, Jonathan Flint, Emma S. J. Robinson & Marcus R. Munafó

    A study with low statistical power has a reduced chance of detecting a true effect, but it is less well appreciated that low power also reduces the likelihood that a statistically significant result reflects a true effect. Here, we show that the average statistical power of studies in the neurosciences is very low. The consequences of this include overestimates of effect size and low reproducibility of results. There are also ethical dimensions to this problem, as unreliable research is inefficient and wasteful. Improving reproducibility in neuroscience is a key priority and requires attention to well-established but often ignored methodological principles.

    These scientific authorities demonstrate with exhaustive research and great analytic detail that there are no meaningful differences between male and female brains, making implausible all arguments about transgenderism that depend on a connection between one’s brain and their sex.

    Dr. Anne Lawrence is a male-to-female transsexual and a well-recognized expert on transsexualism.

    A Critique of the Brain-Sex Theory of Transsexualism

    article by Anne A. Lawrence, M.D., Ph.D., 2007

    The brain-sex theory of transsexualism has never been easy to reconcile with clinical reality: Homosexual and nonhomosexual MtF transsexualism are so different clinically that it is almost impossible to imagine that they could have the same etiology. Nevertheless, for a time the Zhou/Kruijver data gave the brain-sex theory a certain superficial plausibility. In 2002, Chung et al. reported new data that raised serious doubts about the brain-sex theory, but the authors were able to explain why the theory might still be plausible. The new data reported by Hulshoff Pol et al. in 2006 did not invalidate these explanations, but it rendered them largely irrelevant. The simplest and most plausible explanation of the Zhou/Kruijver findings is that they are attributable, completely or predominantly, to the effects of cross-sex hormone therapy administered during adulthood. There is no longer any reason to postulate anything more complicated.

    The brain-sex theory was never helpful in explaining clinical observations; now it has become irrelevant to explaining neuroanatomical observations. It is time to abandon the brain-sex theory of transsexualism and to adopt a more plausible and clinically relevant theory in its place.

  25. If the differences between male and female brains isn't as great as we thought, what does this say about transgender brain sex theories?

    Delusions of Gender: How Our Minds, Society, and Neurosexism Create Difference

    book by Cordelia Fine, 2011

    Drawing on the latest research in neuroscience and psychology, Cordelia Fine debunks the myth of hardwired differences between men’s and women’s brains, unraveling the evidence behind such claims as men’s brains aren’t wired for empathy and women’s brains aren’t made to fix cars. She then goes one step further, offering a very different explanation of the dissimilarities between men’s and women’s behavior. Instead of a “male brain” and a “female brain,” Fine gives us a glimpse of plastic, mutable minds that are continuously influenced by cultural assumptions about gender.

    From a review of Fine’s work in the Washington Post:

    Fine gives these scientists no quarter, and her beef isn’t just with brain scanners. Consider her critique of a widely cited study of babies’ gazes, conducted when the infants were just a day and a half old. The study found that baby girls were much more likely to gaze at the experimenter’s face, while baby boys preferred to look at a mobile. The scientists took these results as evidence that girls are more empathic than boys, who are more analytic than girls — even without socialization. The problem, not to put too fine a point on it, is that it’s a lousy experiment. Fine spends several pages systematically discrediting the study, detailing flaw after flaw in its design. Again, it’s a somewhat technical, methodological discussion, but an important one, especially since this study has become a cornerstone of the argument that boys and girls have a fundamental difference in brain wiring.

    By now, you should be getting a feeling for the tone and texture of this book. Fine offers no original research on the brain or gender; instead, her mission is to demolish the sloppy science being used today to justify gender stereotypes — which she labels “neurosexism.” She is no less merciless in attacking “brain scams,” her derisive term for the many popular versions of the idea that sex hormones shape the brain, which then shapes behavior and intellectual ability, from mathematics to nurturance.

    Two of her favorite targets are John Gray, author of the “Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus” books, and Louann Brizendine, author of “The Female Brain” and “The Male Brain.” Fine’s preferred illustration of Gray’s “neurononsense” is his discussion of the brain’s inferior parietal lobe, or IPL. The left IPL is more developed in men, the right IPL in women, which for Gray illuminates a lot: He says this anatomical difference explains why men become impatient when women talk too long and why women are better able to respond to a baby crying at night. Fine dismisses such conclusions as nothing more than “sexism disguised in neuroscientific finery.”

  26. Brain Storm: The Flaws in the Science of Sex Differences

    book by Rebecca M. Jordan-Young, 2010

    In this compelling book, Rebecca Jordan-Young takes on the evidence that sex differences are hardwired into the brain. Analyzing virtually all published research that supports the claims of “human brain organization theory,” Jordan-Young reveals how often these studies fail the standards of science. Even if careful researchers point out the limits of their own studies, other researchers and journalists can easily ignore them because brain organization theory just sounds so right. But if a series of methodological weaknesses, questionable assumptions, inconsistent definitions, and enormous gaps between ambiguous findings and grand conclusions have accumulated through the years, then science isn’t scientific at all.

    Elegantly written, this book argues passionately that the analysis of gender differences deserves far more rigorous, biologically sophisticated science. “The evidence for hormonal sex differentiation of the human brain better resembles a hodge-podge pile than a solid structure … Once we have cleared the rubble, we can begin to build newer, more scientific stories about human development.”

  27. He, Once a She, Offers Own View on Science Spat

    article in the Wall Street Journal, July 13, 2006

    Ben Barres, a professor of neurobiology at Stanford University:

    …Prof. Barres begs to differ with what he calls “the Larry Summers Hypothesis,” named for the former Harvard president who attributed the paucity of top women scientists to lack of “intrinsic aptitude.” In a commentary in today’s issue of the journal Nature, he writes that “the reason women are not advancing [in science] is discrimination” and the “Summers Hypothesis amounts to nothing more than blaming the victim.”

    And quoting another trans scientist on neuroplasticity.

    The biggest recent revolution in neuroscience has been the discovery of the brain’s “plasticity,” or ability to change structure and function in response to experiences. “It’s not hard to believe that differences between the brains of male and female adults have nothing to do with genes or the Y chromosome but may be the biological expression of different social settings,” says biologist Joan Roughgarden of Stanford, who completed her own transgender transition in 1998.

    It is hard to believe that people continue to support “brain sex” theories without solid, incontrovertible scientific proof.

  28. I'm not going to talk about a "movement", because as much as there are some loud and obnoxious voices coming from the "T" crowd, don't believe for a second that there is some sort of unified movement.

    There is a unified movement to silence feminist voices.

  29. You are all delusional if you think transpeople want to "silence" feminism. All of you fans of Dirt should be on some kind of psychiatric medication.

  30. Haha, Dirt and I definitely are not the same person. But ill take that as a compliment, thanks.

  31. All the "why I havent transitioned" stories read as authentic. No point denying there are those who havent transitioned or have detransitioned! Cass, you are fab!

  32. I really don't think Cass is secretly Dirt. Dirt is very direct and straight forward about herself and her life. If she wanted to tell her story it would be labeled as such. She's not one to hide behind a subterfuge. That may be hard for trans people to understand though, given that their whole life is a subterfuge.

    The psyche of a trans person consists of a core of self loathing covered over with layers upon layers of never ending lies and deception.

  33. I'm trans and I don't believe Cass is Dirt. For one thing, Cass admits to things, like jealousy, addiction, and poor boundaries, that Dirt would never admit to although she shares those flaws. Plus, Cass is much more articulate, with fewer spelling and grammatical errors.

  34. You are all delusional if you think transpeople want to "silence" feminism.

    This person seems to have a severe case of selective amnesia.

    "At the “Law and Disorder Conference” in Portland, OR, on May 11-12, two women were peacefully tabling, handing out literature, and selling books from our organization, Deep Green Resistance. A group of five queer activists came up to the table and one of the men began shouting at the women, using aggressive language and threatening gestures. He grabbed and defaced table materials. When one of the women went to protect the materials, he marked her arm and hand as well.

    This conference states it has a policy of safer spaces, but “safer spaces” evidently doesn’t apply to women, because although most people in the room had no choice but to hear the shouting, no one, including the organizers, intervened to stop this man and his aggressive behavior.

    The next day the DGR crew went back for more tabling, and an angry mob of queer activists again approached the table, yelling and cursing at them, and demanded that they leave. You can watch the video. The DGR members were respectful and courteous. They tried to de-escalate. Nonetheless, they were the recipients of bullying, threats, and silencing. Once again, for all their talk of “safer spaces,” the organizers did not intervene."

    And in the time since, queer/trans activists have threatened DGR members with arson, rape, murder. They have created photoshopped pictures of us simulating bestiality. They have called for mass beheading of DGR members. We have done none of those things to anyone. Any member of DGR who did would be banned immediately. Yet queer/trans activists are accusing us of intolerance and hate.

    He accused DGR of “transphobia.” This is absurd. The book and other materials never even mention the words “transgender” or “queer,” let alone include calls to dehumanize or harm anyone. They do, however, contain a feminist critique of gender. The disagreement is that queer/trans activists believe gender is a binary, and we believe it’s a hierarchy.

    That’s it. That’s why they attacked us."


  35. "This person seems to have a severe case of selective amnesia. "

    Yeah, trans people are very selective with reality in general. Facts and history have never held much weight in trans-land. They like to rewrite as they go.

  36. Yeah, trans people are very selective with reality in general. Facts and history have never held much weight in trans-land. They like to rewrite as they go

    Funny you should say that considering women are generally the ones with selective amnesia, who refuse to believe anything if it conflicts with her ideas even when presented with evidence that blatantly proves the woman is wrong.

  37. really, 'women' refuse to believe anything that conflicts with their ideas? do you count 'transwomen' as 'women' as well?

  38. Good story, Cassandra. I'm glad you are smart enough to see what's going on in the lesbian community right now and that you step away from it.
    I wear often men's clothes too and there's nothing wrong with it. They're just pieces of fabrics somebody labeled as men's. Who cares? It's awesome to be us, we're unique human beings and we're ourselves.
    I send you very big hugs!


  39. Thanks Cassandra. For all of the talk of "self-determination" there is no recognition of how these Individual choices impact the self-determination of our oppressed groups--lesbians, and women.


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