Thursday, May 23, 2013

Detransition-A Young Transman's Story Back to Womanhood

Hi! My name is________.

I emailed you almost two years ago and we had such a great conversation. I was really struggling de-transitioning and you calmed a lot of my fears and my hurting heart that was full of regret and ache. I didn't think it was ever going to be possible to de-transition and feel female again. I passed as male 100% of the time when I emailed you and reached out for support. I was dating a wonderful girl who was supportive and tried to help and understand as much as possible. It was a very hard time two years ago. I felt trapped...10x more trapped than I felt when I first decided to transition to male in the first place. I felt alone. Lost. Confused. And so much self hatred and regret and anger. I was approved for top surgery after seeing a therapist for 1.5 months. That time in my life was devastating. After you posted my email (with my consent) there were a lot of messages that the therapist who approved my surgery that quickly for such a permanent and radical surgery, was in the wrong and that that should have never happened. I didn't even have my bandages off from surgery before I felt such heavy remorse and complete devastation and regret.

After reading those comments, I felt that the therapist was indeed in the wrong. So, I decided to take legal action against him. For the damage emotionally, financially, and physically that I was caused. Almost a year later, after hiring two lawyers, my case goes to court this summer. My lawyers and I are taking legal action for medical malpractice. The outcome is looking very much in my favor. Thank you to you and all your readers for encouraging me to take action  for something that should have never happened in the first place.

Update on my life: I am scheduled for a reversal surgery at the beginning of fall 2015 (2.5 years after my double mastectomy.) the girl I was once dating when I first wrote you, is now my legal wife! As of six months ago :) we were engaged in June and married in October 2014. We have been building a house the last 7 months and it is finally done! We move in on Monday! I am happier, healthier, and more confident than ever before in my entire life. It was really hard coming off T hormones, and took almost a full year for reversal effects to show up, but I was very lucky and they did reverse. To the stranger on the street, I am a female who is more masculine with a deeper raspy voice (which my wife thinks is very sexy :) ) I am so happy with my body and my curves coming back and my smooth female face and my lack of body hair and getting my soft feminine features back that T had robbed me of.

 My wife and I have found a sperm donor and will try and get pregnant next August! My wife will carry our first baby, and I will carry the second. My heart is full and tears filled my eyes writing that. I am able to carry a baby still! After many OB and fertility appointments, my female born reproductive system is back to fully functioning and fertile! I am happier than words will ever describe, that I didn't do anything to take away my ability to carry our baby. I thank god everyday that I didn't damage that gift. I am so proud to be female and to be married to my very best friend. I love life and have healed almost completely from the pain and regret of once deciding to alter my body and transition to male. I am not male. I am a masculine female who is madly in love, so happy, a strong feminist, self compassionate with the thick scars on my chest from a surgery that should never have happened, and gentle and patient and kind with myself and owning my story and my life. Thank you for all you and your blog and your readers and their comments did for me. Truly. It was the catalyst that changed everything.


No dear fellow lesbian, THANK YOU! For looking back, and having the guts and courage to fight and find your way back. I also want to thank the lovely smart, feminist, lesbian readers, you too make a difference! 

dirt

42 comments:

  1. This is a breath-takingly beautiful, and brilliant narrative. Thank you for making it public-- i would hope to publish it more widely. I hope that the writer considers submitting to a journal, starting a blog, finding more public spaces to circulate. What a writer!

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  2. Thank you so much for your story. You are so courageous - reading the stories of what young lesbians are going through is both harrowing and uplifting. That you found your way is inspiring; that you were left with no other path than to reject yourself and your body in the first place is absolutely terrible.
    These modern day gender therapists are no different than the folk who used to authorise electro-shock therapy and lobotomies.

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  3. Wow, what a story, thanks for sharing it. You went through a lot at such a young age, but I'm glad you found your path. I wish you the best and I hope you recover very well.
    Much love to you!


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  4. I wish I could write my story (I chose not to transition although I still experience crippling daily dysphoria), but, being english my third language, I'm afraid I wouldn't be as clear as I'd like to be. I contacted Dirt a few months ago by e-mail and wanted to do Skype sessions, but my fear made me rethink that. I was too fragile to share my deepest feelings with someone. Now I'm much more stable, but I'm still afraid to pour myself into sharing my story. I'm 24 and still unsure about my sexuality, very scared of change and diagnosed with severe/mild OCD. Just a mess, really. I wonder if anyone would even want to read my story at all.

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  5. (I'm the anon at 2:27 PM). I'd like to add that I was diagnosed with GID and could have gone through the Male Medical Machine to "change my gender", but radfems helped me see what a disaster that would've been. I'm very grateful to Dirt and Gallusmag especially. Thank you, with all my heart.

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  6. Thank you, I am a rad fem and I am trans critical but nit transphobic but being transcritical is just not allowed but as a radical feminist surely we should be allowed to be critical about most things.

    I am worried that the movement for trans is actually fuelled by the psychiatric medical model and the pharmacutical companies.

    I am also worried not only is this mostly an attack on women but also gay men and women.

    This piece is beautifully written I could really hear the pain of the writer.

    We all struggle with our gender at some point in our life, I was a "tomboy" as a child and always wore trousers as a teenager in the 80s when everyone had a bubbly perm I mor or less shaved my head. I did not want a boyfriend and didn't fancy girls.

    But as time has gone on I now only wear skirts or dresses and have long hair and live with my male partner because things change as does everything.

    I think you always have to ask who makes money of of this transistioning, it defo isn't the transperson! But the psychiatrists, the surgeons and pharmacutical industries.

    Why can't we just be ourselves? it makes sense to me that a girl would not want to be a girl or grow up to be a woman, why would you? Or why a man would hate to be a man, I totally empathise with both feelings but challenging misogyny and patriarchy can free us from the gender prisons.

    Be a man with long hair and make up, wear what you like but don't insist that you are a woman. Be an androgenous dyke in a suit - why not? But you don't need to mutilate your body.

    Anyway thank you for writing thi.

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  7. Seems like this person was forced to de-transition for medical reasons and is now making it seem like a choice they made. Very dramatic story, but disingenous.

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  8. False story. Probably written by Dirt.
    However, you have never been a transsexual man.

    Ok. You believe that male and female is determined only by genetics (true then you think maleness and femaleness are "not in your brain" and then pull out the epigenetics story telling us your sexual fantasies and your playing mom and dad game and your changing roles and bla bla bla.

    No, this is not a GID story, sorry if you've waste part of your life believing in transgender queer folks.

    Good luck and be happy as a woman.

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  9. ...

    So strange that you need to deny people born with transsexualism their right to live to get your rights.

    It is not the same for transsexuals, on the contrary.

    I ask you: could you be a butch lesbian, live as butch lesbian, be happy as a butch lesbian, without trying to deny other people lives and identities (male, White men, heterosexual men, heterosexual housewives, transsexuals in particular) ?

    I doubt it

    Whiteprivilegedman

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  10. I'm a pre-everything ftm and this is the only detransition story on here that didn't piss me off (my comments on those other stories were deleted by Dirt). At least this person is intelligent, butch and respectable unlike the other ones who were depicted as weak and mentally unstable. Yeah, I know the propaganda tactics radfem butch lesbians use with trans men but I'm glad it wasn't the case here.

    I'm glad this person is right with herself and I agree with the message.

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  11. .. although there were some things didn't really add up as Whitepriviligedman says.

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  12. This is beautiful and brilliant. Thank you for telling your courageous story.

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  13. Hair on your face is almost gone?

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  14. sh I could write my story (I chose not to transition although I still experience crippling daily dysphoria), but, being english my third language, I'm afraid I wouldn't be as clear as I'd like to be. I contacted Dirt a few months ago by e-mail and wanted to do Skype sessions, but my fear made me rethink that. I was too fragile to share my deepest feelings with someone. Now I'm much more stable, but I'm still afraid to pour myself into sharing my story. I'm 24 and still unsure about my sexuality, very scared of change and diagnosed with severe/mild OCD. Just a mess, really. I wonder if anyone would even want to read my story at all.

    I would love to hear your story!
    I wrote my story and English isn't my first languange either, I'm Dutch. Your story counts too and I'm ready to read it, bring it on!
    Hugs


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  15. The hair on my face is almost gone

    Really? Every single piece of medical literature I've read pertaining to testosterone in transgender people is very clear that hair growth, like hair loss, is irreversible. Can anyone here please provide good evidence to the contrary?

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  16. Heath Atom Russell had the same experience. Might wanna read/watch her story/videos.

    dirt

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  17. I just read Heath Atom Russell's account on GenderTrender and she said this:

    The facial and body hair that I had gotten on “T” stayed put, but the growth noticeably slowed down within about 5 months of quitting. I still grow hair in places I didn’t before (ie some patches on my wrists and thighs) but within a year-ish it was no longer coming in dark and coarse like male hair, but had changed to fine and light like the body hair I have everywhere else. My “beard” ditto—it changed over to that downy, fine stuff most women grow especially as we get older, with the odd darker, wiry hair. Because I prefer not to be scrutinized for it, I shave it off with an electric razor about every couple of weeks.

    So it didn't disappear, it became lighter and less coarse though Heath appears conscious of it enough to shave. I would question the account of a person who claims hair growth triggered by testosterone is "almost gone" when they cease its use. Changed yes, gone - doubtful.

    I am also concerned about the aspirations of the young woman who has shared her account. She speaks of "seeing herself" in males. Is it not as equally destructive for a young female to "see herself" in the "perfect" images of women that we are bombarded with on a daily basis? What if this young woman had seen herself in a waif-thin actress rather than a rugged actor? I fear very much that she would still have suffered, and that the real issue here is copy-catting of anyone, male or female, rather than forming an individual identity where the feelings have come from that person themselves and not from the pressure of all society, and that includes other women.

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  18. What is this woman's genetic make up? Is she light haired? Dark? Ginger? Fine? Etc. Males in my family have very little body hair. Does she come from a similar gene pool?

    If your point is not to believe her experience, then dont. There are enough similar stories out there already and more on the way. My blog daily receives dozens of hits from trans females searching various search engines for things like "ftm detransition", "transman stopping T", "how do I stop taking T", "Im a transman and I regret my transition" etc etc etc.

    This story, regardless of anyone's feelings toward it, is the tip of the iceberg.

    And like her, I too only ever saw myself in males growing up. I didnt transition. I instead learned to love the female I was, not the man I could never be.

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  19. I didn't say I did not believe the entire account, only that the final statement should be questioned as you have yet to provide clinical proof that hair triggered by testosterone use fully diminishes once hormone use has ceased. You, and other visitors to this blog, are fond of citing medical sources when putting forward a case for the negative effects caused by testosterone, and it would benefit your argument if you could find a valid one concerning the cessation of facial hair growth. The triggering effect of testosterone is why people transitioning from male require electrolysis - because no amount of female hormone, natural or otherwise, can cease or reverse hair growth.

    You're also dodging a perfectly valid question:

    Is it or is it not damaging for young women to aspire to become "another person", even if that "other person" is female?

    Breasts "too small"? Surgery can "fix that".

    Your eyebrows getting "too much hassle"? Shave them off and get "new ones" tattooed on.

    Feeling "too fat"? Well there's ways "around it" too.

    Do you not see that it is the mindset of an individual that is the problem? If a young woman is unhappy with her body, she can end up on a course of self-destruction without ever learning of the existence of transgender people. I would enjoy seeing some posts from you about the "beauty industry" and how it poisons girls from an early age because I fear very much that this young woman would have ended up seeking some sort of clinical alteration to her body, transgender-related or not.

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  20. Do you not see that it is the mindset of an individual that is the problem? If a young woman is unhappy with her body, she can end up on a course of self-destruction without ever learning of the existence of transgender people. I would enjoy seeing some posts from you about the "beauty industry" and how it poisons girls from an early age because I fear very much that this young woman would have ended up seeking some sort of clinical alteration to her body, transgender-related or not.



    I would enjoy seeing some posts from you about the "transitioning industry" and how it poisons girls from an early age because I fear very much that this young woman would have ended up seeking some sort of clinical alteration to her body, cosmetic surgery, botox, related or not.

    Do you not see that it is the mindset of an individual that is the problem? If a young woman is unhappy with her body, she can end up on a course of self-destruction without ever learning of the existence of transgender people.

    QUESTION: Which does more damage to healthy female anatomy and reproductive systems? Is it the "beauty industry" or FTM "transitioning"? Does this person know what "top surgery" and "bottom surgery" on a female entails? Besides drastically altering healthy female breasts, gentials, and reproductive systems, it goes one step further. It erase female identity itself. Perhaps this is the ultimate misogyny.

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  21. This event coincided with my personal education on misogyny, the history of feminism, the importance of feminism and the subtle, insidious ways that the patriarchy poisoned my great mind, my mind WITHOUT A GENDER. MY BEAUTIFUL BRAIN. MY DANGEROUS, DARING, SHARP HEMISPHERES. I had believed that men and women had different brains, as the trans narrative goes. Gendered brains. No. No, not so. Epigenetics stresses the importance of environment in genetic development. Activity in the brain does not different structures make. Women are not beholden to certain postures or clothing that deforms them. Women do not need men. Women do NOT have to hate each other and women do not have inherent interests or obligations. Women are HUMAN BEINGS WHO HAVE TO FIGHT TO BE SEEN AS SUCH.

    Well stated....

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  22. Do you not see that it is the mindset of an individual that is the problem? If a young woman is unhappy with her body, she can end up on a course of self-destruction without ever learning of the existence of transgender people. I would enjoy seeing some posts from you about the "beauty industry" and how it poisons girls from an early age because I fear very much that this young woman would have ended up seeking some sort of clinical alteration to her body, transgender-related or not.


    I agree with you. The mind set of many women is not possitve. I worry about it too.
    But this blog isn't about the beauty industry. It's about transtrenders.
    I like blogs with a specific subject.

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  23. @Big: Then why is the blog banner "Change the World Not Your Body"? That has no specific transtrender message.

    @6:25: Yes I know what they are. In some posts here, every second comment contains a graphic description of these procedures. Dirt is quite fond of posting images as well. However, I am calling out the constant coverage of transgenderism as a smokescreen for the real problem. What exactly is the difference in motivation between a person who injects hormones and one who injects Botox? Elective mastectomy and elective breast augmentation? Are you aware of the PIP scandal? That you could walk into a clinic tomorrow with no background psychological assessments or checks, and have breast augmentation carried out if you have the money? How about women who have "lower surgery" to "tidy up" their labia? Buttock implants? Reduced foot surgery? Do you know how brutal these surgeries are? That you can walk into a nail bar and have an untrained teenager inject you with Botulinum toxin? What about this woman?

    Dirt advocates for the erasure of the female identity. I say it is the erasure of the natural female identity, and that when women seek alterations to their body it does not matter if they look to transgender people, men or other women for "inspiration". Focusing on just transgenderism is not conducive to helping young women learn to love their bodies as they are. There is no question here as to what is "more" damaging. You must zip up the back if you cannot see how perfectly healthy female tissue is being altered and damaged in the pursuit of female identity. I would say that the patriarchy has a lot more to answer for when it comes to the elective surgeries that so many women desire.

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  24. Another fabricated story.

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  25. "sh I could write my story (I chose not to transition although I still experience crippling daily dysphoria), but, being english my third language, I'm afraid I wouldn't be as clear as I'd like to be. I contacted Dirt a few months ago by e-mail and wanted to do Skype sessions, but my fear made me rethink that. I was too fragile to share my deepest feelings with someone. Now I'm much more stable, but I'm still afraid to pour myself into sharing my story. I'm 24 and still unsure about my sexuality, very scared of change and diagnosed with severe/mild OCD. Just a mess, really. I wonder if anyone would even want to read my story at all.

    I would love to hear your story!
    I wrote my story and English isn't my first languange either, I'm Dutch. Your story counts too and I'm ready to read it, bring it on!
    Hugs


    Big"

    Thank you for your encouraging words, but I'm too vulnerable right now. Maybe in a while :)

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  26. Dirt advocates for the erasure of the female identity.

    NO, IT’S THE TRANSGENDER COMMUNITY THAT IS ACTIVELY INVOLVED IN ERASING FEMALE IDENTITY. IN MANY CASES, THEY ARE ALSO ERASING LESBIAN IDENTITY. NOT ONLY DOES THE PROCESS OF FTM “TRANSITIONING” RADICALLY ALTER HEALTHY FEMALE BREASTS, GENITALS, AND REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEMS, IF FTMs LEGALLY CHANGE THEIR SEX TO "MALE", THIS DEFNININTLY DOES ERASE FEMALE IDENTITY. HOW CAN RATIONAL PEOPLE SAY THAT FTM “TRANSITIONING” DOESN’T ERASE FEMALE IDENTITY WHEN FTM SAYS “FEMALE TO MALE” IN THAT THE FEMALE IS BEING REPLACED BY MALE?

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  27. Do you not see that it is the mindset of an individual that is the problem? If a young woman is unhappy with her body, she can end up on a course of self-destruction without ever learning of the existence of transgender people. I would enjoy seeing some posts from you about the "beauty industry" and how it poisons girls from an early age because I fear very much that this young woman would have ended up seeking some sort of clinical alteration to her body, transgender-related or not.

    I agree with you. The mind set of many women is not possitve. I worry about it too. But this blog isn't about the beauty industry. It's about transtrenders. I like blogs with a specific subject.

    The same plastic surgeons who perform "top surgery" and "bottom surgery" are also the same cosmetic surgeons that perform nose jobs, butt lifts, tummy tucks, and other procedures.

    The subject is internalized misogyny that no female can completely be free of. All girls and women are constantly receiving culturally messages that say that their bodies are somehow ugly or repulsive. That is, unless they can be fixed through surgery or other means. It's rare for any female to feel completely secure about her own body.

    I covered this subject before on this blog. Feminists have written eloquently about the cultural forces that drive women to seek out plastic surgeons, but fail to see or even recognize that internalized misogyny and/or lesbian phobia might play a role in one’s decision to “transition’.

    I've argued that hyper-femininity and FTM "transitioning" are just the flip sides of the same coin in that both are largely fueled by internalized misogyny. It's interesting to note that we saw both an increase in hyper-femininity and FTM "transitioning" during second wave feminisms decline.

    Why are the majority of cosmetic surgery procedures (90%) still carried out on women? What is it about women that they never seem to feel secure in their own skins? I contend that the body dysphonia that is so common in women that compels them to seek a surgical cure for this uneasiness with their bodies might also be a factor in "top surgery". We just don't want to admit this to ourselves. Isn't this possible? No one is allowed to discuss this at risk of being called "transphobic". If culture plays no role in how women view their bodies, then why are the vast majority of plastic surgery procedures carried out on women? I'm not opposed to all cosmetic procedures on women, but it has always been disturbing to me that 90% of plastic surgery patients are women, and the majority of surgeons are male. There definitely is something going on in our culture that causes women to search out surgical remedies for the intense discomfort with their bodies. Perhaps we need to understand some of these cultural forces. Through incessant advertising girls and women are made to feel insecure about their bodies, and plastic surgeons are eager to correct this deficiency.

    Anorexia and bulimia are more common in girls and women. The disorder affects about 1% of adolescent girls and about 0.3% of males in the U.S.

    Psychologist call teenage girls and women who have a compulsion to repeatedly scratch and cut their arms or other parts of their bodies "cutters". It’s estimated that about two million people in the U.S. injure themselves in some way. The majority are teenagers or young adults with young women outnumbering young men.


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  28. Dirt advocates for the erasure of the female identity I say it is the erasure of the natural female identity, and that when women seek alterations to their body it does not matter if they look to transgender people, men or other women for "inspiration". Focusing on just transgenderism is not conducive to helping young women learn to love their bodies as they are. There is no question here as to what is "more" damaging. You must zip up the back if you cannot see how perfectly healthy female tissue is being altered and damaged in the pursuit of female identity. I would say that the patriarchy has a lot more to answer for when it comes to the elective surgeries that so many women desire.

    This is a very confusing paragraph. I'm struggling to understand what he or she is trying to say. What does this person mean when he or she says "female identity". FEMALES EXIST WHEREAS "FEMININITY" IS SOCIALLY CONSTRUCTED AND FORCED UPON WOMEN AND GIRLS. The sixteen and seventeen year old girls in these videos think because they don't like dresses and make up, etc., this must mean that they are really boys because girls do such and such and boys do other things.

    The young woman who detransitioned says it best:



    Let’s start earlier. Same story as most: I was a little girl who hated being a little girl. I hated being ‘precious’ and I hated that I wasn’t allowed to be as surly as I pleased. Never a fan of hugs, eye-contact or the attention of crowds, I took my place in the corner with a stack of novels at family functions and eyed everyone warily. In my musical lessons, I insisted on dressing as Indiana Jones for a costume-themed recital and sang the bloody fare featured in Sweeny Todd with the same bellowing joy as Len Cariou. I wanted to stand there with wild hair and a mad glint in my eye while someone adored me, in a mature, admiring manner without any of the condescension I was doled out regularly."

    Learning to cast aside sex based stereotypes and love and honor her true self..

    "...I had believed that men and women had different brains, as the trans narrative goes. Gendered brains. No. No, not so. Epigenetics stresses the importance of environment in genetic development. Activity in the brain does not different structures make. Women are not beholden to certain postures or clothing that deforms them. Women do not need men. Women do NOT have to hate each other and women do not have inherent interests or obligations. Women are HUMAN BEINGS WHO HAVE TO FIGHT TO BE SEEN AS SUCH.







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  29. Lesbianism seems like a phase for the majority of women who participate in it.
    For example, why do you see so many females who were "lesbians" in high school, college, or their twenties end up married to men later on?

    Yes, I'm sure a dozen of readers to this specific blog are lifetime lesbians in their 40s, but you know that this is often the case with women that have had same sex relationships. Most of them do end up with men later on.

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  30. "Lesbianism seems like a phase for the majority of women who participate in it. For example, why do you see so many females who were "lesbians" in high school, college, or their twenties end up married to men later on?

    (1.) They weren't really lesbian to begin with. This is true for many women.

    (2.)There is far more social status and privilege in being heterosexual, particularly white and straight. Lesbians are still marginalized, and most teenage girls are terrified of the "lez" or "dyke" label.

    (3.) Constant pressure from family, society, and friends to fit in places enormous pressure on lesbians.

    (4.) Patriarchy uses the dreaded "lez" or lesbian label as a way to shoo or frighten uppity, opinionated women back into hetero-normativity.

    Considering what lesbians go through just to survive, it's a miracle that we are still here. Patriarchy doesn't want women to know that heterosexuality is often a choice. This is why we are so reviled.

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  31. "Yes I know what they are. In some posts here, every second comment contains a graphic description of these procedures. Dirt is quite fond of posting images as well. However, I am calling out the constant coverage of transgenderism as a smokescreen for the real problem. What exactly is the difference in motivation between a person who injects hormones and one who injects Botox? Elective mastectomy and elective breast augmentation? Are you aware of the PIP scandal? That you could walk into a clinic tomorrow with no background psychological assessments or checks, and have breast augmentation carried out if you have the money? How about women who have "lower surgery" to "tidy up" their labia? Buttock implants? Reduced foot surgery? Do you know how brutal these surgeries are? That you can walk into a nail bar and have an untrained teenager inject you with Botulinum toxin? What about this woman?"

    I think I can start to see where this person is trying to say. I've repeatedly said on this blog that the mutilation of the female body spans thousands of years of history. FTM "transitioning" is just a more extreme form of it. Several feminists have written articles about the cultural pressures placed on women that drive them to seek out plastic surgery, but, few, if any, see any link at all between internalized misogyny and FTM "transitioning". Of all the surgical procedures carried out on the female sex, FTM "top surgery" and "bottom surgery" radically alter healthy female anatomy more than anything that I'm aware of. "Transitioning" goes one step further in that it actually erases female identity.

    I find it difficult to compare breast augmentation with "top surgery" in that the stated goal of "top surgery" or "chest masculinization" is to completely alter or remove the healthy female breasts in order to surgically create a "male" looking chest. More healthy breast tissue is removed in "top surgery".

    Because male areolas and nipples are usually larger than female areolas, both areolas and nipples are literally cut off the female, reshaped down to size, and then sewn back on. Then, two large incisions are made to remove healthy breast tissue. I can't think of anything that so radically alters healthy female breasts than FTM "top surgery"


    Dr. Daniel Medalie performs FtM top surgery double incision mastectomy with nipple grafting


    I hope the link works. If not, just copy and paste the URL below. This is "top surgery" (double incision mastectomy with nipple grafting)


    http://www.surgerytheater.com/video/6423/Dr.%20Daniel%20Medalie%20performs%20FtM%20top%20surgery%20(double%20incision%20mastectomy%20with%20nipple%20grafting)#.UaGYo77n-M8

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  32. "Yes I know what they are. In some posts here, every second comment contains a graphic description of these procedures. Dirt is quite fond of posting images as well. However, I am calling out the constant coverage of transgenderism as a smokescreen for the real problem. What exactly is the difference in motivation between a person who injects hormones and one who injects Botox? Elective mastectomy and elective breast augmentation? Are you aware of the PIP scandal? That you could walk into a clinic tomorrow with no background psychological assessments or checks, and have breast augmentation carried out if you have the money? How about women who have "lower surgery" to "tidy up" their labia? Buttock implants? Reduced foot surgery? Do you know how brutal these surgeries are? That you can walk into a nail bar and have an untrained teenager inject you with Botulinum toxin? What about this woman?


    Yes, I'm aware that this going on.


    ISN'T IT STRANGE THAT THE TRANSGENDER COMMUNITY NEVER TALKS ABOUT ANY OF THESE THINGS BECAUSE THEY ARE ALSO TIED INTO THE MEDICAL ESTABLISHMENT/PLASTIC SURGEONS/ENDOCRINOLOGISTS/"GENDER THERAPISTS, ETC. WHY WOULD THEY BITE THE HAND THAT FEEDS THEM?

    IS THIS PERSON AWARE OF PUBERTY SUPPRESSING DRUGS GIVEN TO 12 AND 13 YEAR OLD "TRANSGENDER CHILDREN"? HAS THERE EVER BEEN A TIME IN RECORDED HISTORY IN WHICH ADOLESCENCE, A NORMAL PART OF HUMAN DEVELOPMENT, HAS BEEN INTENTIONALLY DELAYED BECAUSE OF WHAT AMOUNTS TO A PSYCHIATRIC DIAGNOSIS? SOME "GENDER THERAPISTS" START DIAGNOSING THESE CHILDREN AT FIVE OR SIX YEARS OF AGE.

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  33. "How about women who have "lower surgery" to "tidy up" their labia? Buttock implants? Reduced foot surgery? Do you know how brutal these surgeries are? That you can walk into a nail bar and have an untrained teenager inject you with Botulinum toxin? What about this woman?
    "


    I have discussed this subject on this blog in great length. It certainly isn't anything new.

    Legend has it that the origins of footbinding go back as far as the Shang dynasty (1700-1027 B.C.). The Shang Empress had a clubfoot, so she demanded that footbinding be made compulsory in the court.

    But historical records from the Song dynasty (960-1279 A.D.) date footbinding as beginning during the reign of Li Yu, who ruled over one region of China between 961-975

    But the practice wasn't outlawed until 1912, when the Qing dynasty had already been toppled by a revolution. Beginning in 1915, government inspectors could levy fines on those who continued to bind their feet. But despite these measures, footbinding still continued in various parts of the country.

    A year after the Communists came to power in 1949, they too issued their own ban on footbinding. According to the American author William Rossi, who wrote The Sex Life of the Foot and Shoe, 40 percent to 50 percent of Chinese women had bound feet in the 19th century. For the upper classes, the figure was almost 100 percent.

    **Some estimate that as many as 2 billion Chinese women broke and bound their feet to attain this agonizing ideal of physical perfection. Author Yang Yang says that women with tiny feet were a status symbol who would bring honor upon the entire clan by their appearance.

    http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=8966942

    **Female genital mutilation (FGM), also known as female genital cutting and female circumcision, is defined by the World Health Organization (WHO) as "all procedures that involve partial or total removal of the external female genitalia, or other injury to the female genital organs for non-medical reasons."

    The WHO estimates that 100–140 million women and girls around the world have experienced the procedure, including 92 million in Africa.

    World Health Organization, February 2010

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  34. Posted on this blog...

    "The high moral tone with which those in richer countries criticise female genital mutilation would be more credible if we in the rich North had not practised it and did not continue to practise it. We have conveniently forgotten that female “circumcision” was practised by the European and American medical professions in the 19th century as a cure for a wide variety of conditions including insomnia, sterility, unhappy marriage, and psychological disorders.6 It was advocated by no less a figure than the father of gynaecology, J Marion Sima.7 Jonathan Hutchinson, then president of the Royal College of Surgeons, enthusiastically advocated circumcision and “other measures more radical than circumcision” to prevent the adverse mental effects of masturbation as “a true kindness to many patients of both sexes.”8 The last known medical female circumcision in the richer world took place in Kentucky in 1953, on a girl aged 12. Our own sexually repressive use of female genital mutilation may be at the root of our misunderstanding of its role in other cultures."

    http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1502236/

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  35. "How about women who have "lower surgery" to "tidy up" their labia? Buttock implants"

    The following was posted on this blog.

    http://dirtywhiteboi67.blogspot.com/2013/02/violence-against-women-1-billion-and.html

    I ran across a fascinating and thought provoking article entitled, "Female Genital Mutilation: Whose problem, Whose Solution?" that states that western countries shouldn't feel so self-righteous after all.

    Tackle “cosmetic” genital surgery in rich countries before criticising traditional practices elsewhere..

    "The practice of female genital mutilation is on the increase nowhere in the world except in our so called developed societies. “Designer laser vaginoplasty” and “laser vaginal rejuvenation” are growth areas in plastic surgery, representing the latest chapter in the surgical victimisation of women in our culture. The procedures offered include vaginal tightening and vulval remodelling to make the vulva appear more childlike. In the words of one of the many clinics offering these services on the internet: “Many people have asked us for an example of the aesthetically pleasing vulva. We went to our patients for the answer and they said the playmates of Playboy.” In other words, women are being mutilated to fit male masturbation fantasies, in what Faith Wilding calls “the full-scale consumer spectacle of the cyborg porn babe.” This burgeoning industry is able to operate without the slightest attention being paid to it by medical researchers. There is not a single reference to laser vaginoplasty on PubMed."

    http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1502236/

    As I stated before, hyper-femininity and FTM "transitioning" are just the flip side of the same coin in that they are both largely fueled by internalized misogyny. Lesbian phobia might also play a role in FTM "transitioning". We saw an increase in both hyper-femininity and FTM "transitioning" during the decline of second wave feminism.

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  36. THIS YOUNG WOMAN IS BEAUTIFUL...THANK YOU FOR YOUR INSIGHT.

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  37. "Yes I know what they are. In some posts here, every second comment contains a graphic description of these procedures. Dirt is quite fond of posting images as well. However, I am calling out the constant coverage of transgenderism as a smokescreen for the real problem. What exactly is the difference in motivation between a person who injects hormones and one who injects Botox? Elective mastectomy and elective breast augmentation? Are you aware of the PIP scandal? That you could walk into a clinic tomorrow with no background psychological assessments or checks, and have breast augmentation carried out if you have the money? How about women who have "lower surgery" to "tidy up" their labia? Buttock implants? Reduced foot surgery? Do you know how brutal these surgeries are? That you can walk into a nail bar and have an untrained teenager inject you with Botulinum toxin? What about this woman?"


    I would like to follow up on this issue because I believe it's important. Sheila Jeffreys wrote an excellent, well-researched book entitled, "Beauty And Misogyny" that discuses many of the same things this person brings up. The transgender community utterly despises Sheila Jeffreys. Indeed, her face is on a can of Rid Fem, Kills Rad Fems Instantly from Trans* Activists, a Family Compnay.

    https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=3042989746089&set=a.1030604477715.2007291.1003456955&type=1&ref=notif&notif_t=like&theater

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  38. Thank you for your story and thank you for this blog. From another survivor of the FTM machine. Today I am healing and proud to reclaim my womanhood and lesbian status. Thank you!

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  39. "SOME "GENDER THERAPISTS" START DIAGNOSING THESE CHILDREN AT FIVE OR SIX YEARS OF AGE."

    That's only the tip of the iceberg! Children get labeled as trans when they are only a FEW months old(!!) by their parents.

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  40. Thank you for this account. My story is very similar except for one thing: I was just a bit too old to have been swept up in the trans trend. That is the only reason I didn't also wind up on testosterone with a hysterectomy and double mastectomy. By the time the trans trend hit, I'd thankfully had the same epiphany you relate in this piece.

    I grew up in the seventies, and hated being forced to wear dresses and play quietly in the corner. I was a classic tomboy, and all my friends were boys. I wanted to be wild and athletic, like any healthy child.

    Though it was still an unusual thing to do, I was exposed to the idea of transitioning when I was pre-teen but, thankfully, the idea of surgery and hormones scared me. Still, I considered it as a way of trying to opt out of the oppression I faced as a butch girl. I saw women being oppressed and I considered taking this individual solution, as it would have been easier than fighting for our rights as women.

    Welcome to the world of proud women and dykes who know any way we want to live our lives, dress, or whom we love is just one of many ways to be a woman. Thank you for sharing your experience. I hope it will be read by other young women who are searching for freedom from gender oppression. The problem isn't with our bodies, it's with an oppressive culture. But we have a vibrant subculture, and it is growing. <3

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  41. Does anyone have information on the legal process of detransitioning? In terms of changing gender markers? For transitioning to the opposite gender, one must obtain therapist letters...is it the same when changing documents to your birth sex?

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