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Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning



Christian Barboza Age 21

FtmTransgasm Age 20

Shaii Reynolds Age 17

TransLadsUK Age 20

importance0fc0caine Age 16

SoLifeAsWeKnowIt Age 18

NoahTravisR Age 17

TLUK Friday Boy - Seb Age 19

xNaRw Age 12/13

In recent years there has been a flurry of loud and proud gravely needed feminist and radical feminist voices swirling together in a growing hullaballoo. Grave because of the violent systematic backlash that has been steadily striving to bury us ever since we first broke feminist ground. A backlash that has tightened the reigns on an already circumscribed female Gender Straight Jacket. One so brutally extreme that girls and young women just like the ones seen here are suffocating within its paralyzing fibers. This is why feminist and radical feminist voices are so urgently needed. Because feminism is no longer simply about women's need for equal rights at home and in the work force, it is needed to stop a female self hatred that is running so deep, young women are chemically and surgically castrating their femaleness. This female castration hangs squarely between patriarchy and the Trans Politic.

A castration reinforcing patriarchy's power and the Trans Politic's fetishistic identities. The Trans Politic as a branch of patriarchy used to function by silencing the voices of feminists and radical feminists then replacing feminist voices with its own. And it once did so with a certain success. Today however, new feminists and radical feminists are finding each other, we're building our numbers, realizing we are NOT alone and knowing together that nothing is going to silence us hence forth! Our feminist voices are rising, influencing by example and guiding by our strength. The louder our collective voice, the more women we will reach, and the more women we reach, the greater our feminist hand. A hand that if need be can turn into a raging fist fighting for our existence, can just as easily soothe the forehead of a feminist sister.

Our division and silence may have led to female castration via transition, but our growing collective voices will be central to creating an all powerful female pride delivering us from the misogyny that is so desperately trying to erase all traces of us.

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  1. Why would the likes of "Shaii Reynolds," age 17, need to transition?!? I haven't watched any of their videos, because they disturbed me so much when I used to watch them that I deleted my account in 2010, but what I will NEVER understand is this: why, in heaven's name, do they need to "become a guy" when they look more feminine than most straight girls?!?!?!? I haven't had my hair that long since 4th grade but am PERFECTLY CONTENT to spend another 100 years in this large-breasted, mezzo-soprano, female body. What gives?!? How can they justify their claims of having "always felt male" with such pictures to the contrary?!?!?!? It just doesn't add up!!!

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  2. Actually Iris it makes the only sense amid a serious lack of feminist filters.

    dirt

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  3. A lot of guys look feminine. I am sure they don't give a toss what you think of them.

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  4. It's sad. It seems the human condition to never be happy with what we have or who we are. Maybe some people have an extra dose? I don't have a problem with my gender and it is hard to imagine what it would be like to hate what I see in the mirror. Actually, i'd love to look like Liv Tyler but the cosmos put me together this way and ultimately I've learned to accept it. I've read a few blogs, favorites of mine and and both are transitioning. They seem to love what T is doing for them and to them. It's a drug, thats what drugs do. It seems great now but ultimately don't they have to come to terms that you can't change the fact you were born biologically **male? I want someone to explain to me how this cosmically will change a god damn thing other than appearing to be something you are not?

    Lily

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  5. It won't change anything besides physical appearance, and it CERTAINLY won't create the reproductive capabilities that truly define male and female. Nor will it give all 700+ people a big, fat yearbook with a picture of you in a tux on [insert page #]. My girlhood memories are much too plentiful and precious to me to try to re-write them as the life of a fictional, male character who didn't really exist in the 80's and 90's. (That's called lying and becomes harder to keep track of in your mind the older you get, so you'd almost have to write a book about this fictional "you" of the past.)

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  6. Hi Iris

    What you are saying makes sense. There is an old movie that says when you lie you murder some part of the world. I think that's true, only it's much closer than the world, it's a part of you that goes away or dies..maybe it feels better, maybe lying is a drug that makes you feel alright even though it's killing you slowly..

    Lily

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  7. I love that this post is about "gender straight jackets", and yet the first comment by Iris is spouting off a load of gender essentialist nonsense. Good luck abolishing gender by perpetuating gender stereotypes, i suppose.

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  8. Gender stereotypes, Anon? I was just saying that the 3rd girl was among the most ridiculous cases I've ever seen (other than Deborah AKA "Brett" Piper, who deleted her account long ago after insulting me for asking why she couldn't just be a short-haired girl like me in an email). It never ceases to amaze me how someone can think they're a "man" when they're not even as masculine as most moms with children, lmao!!!

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  9. Edit: I mean, "most stay-at-home moms with young children," since ALL moms have children, by very definition. I've seen soccer moms who could've more easily "passed" than could some of these girls before they "came-out" as "trans."

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  10. What kind of "scary shit" do men have to deal with?!?!? I can't think of anything they can't handle because between their Y-chromosomes, their lack of periods, and the muscles from the testosterone their bodies NATURALLY produce, ther is NOTHING they have to face in life that they aren't more than well-equipped to deal with! The reason they don't cry is BECAUSE of testosterone, not social conditioning (just watch what happens when a pre-pubescent 12-year-old boy gets hurt in a game if you don't believe me), so I don't feel sorry for them AT ALL!!! The only ones who might have something to fear are the Pre-T FtM's, because they have no business doing some of the things they're doing (i.e. using the men's room while wearing female products), but once their T kicks-in, they become just another emotionless, "macho" slob like all the others and I HATE IT because there probably won't be anymore butch lesbians like me by 2050. So I have no pity for men because they deserve whatever "pain" they cause themselves (and each other) with their pride and arrogance.

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  11. @Iris

    It's practically impossible to stop a trainwreck..your prediction of no butches by 2050 is gruesome..but most likely I will be long gone by then..that's fine, because it won't be a brave new world then it will be the nightmare you can't wake up from

    Lily

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  12. I predict that the trans trending fad will be over in a few years. It's already not as cool and edgy as it was a few years ago, with dorks like Chaz Bono jumping on the transwagon. Many of the kids who were exploring the idea of transitioning a few years ago have moved on, and we're seeing more detransitioners recently. Some of the fads that were feeding into this, like yaoi and manga, aren't as popular any more. I suspect that this trend has peaked.

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  13. @DM

    Respectfully,I don't think so. Science will figure out how to make a girl into a boy to the ent degree and there will be no reason to question ..it will be mainstream. Male priviledge is alive & well and seductive

    Lily

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  14. AnonymousX

    To me, it's very sad, and I feel a deep sense of loss or mourning. The erasing of female identity and the radical alteration of female breasts, genitals, and reproductive systems is a feminist issue. How can one claim that the act of FTM (female to male) "transitioning" is not a feminist issue when it is the actual erasing of female identity itself, along with female body parts. The definition of myopia is, "a condition in which the visual images come to a focus in front of the retina of the eye resulting especially in defective vision of distant objects." Being myopic means that we can't climb to the top of the mountain, and gaze out at the great distance that we have covered. It's not seeing history as an incredibly long time line. I've argued that we can't completely separate the radical alteration of female anatomy and genitals from its thousand year old history. The mutilation of female bodies has a history.

    Perhaps one day historians will look back and judge us, and I wonder what they will say. Someone will have to pick up the pieces.

    (1.) I've always said that gender non-conforming people exist, but they weren't always called transgender, and they didn't always get their genitals surgically altered or removed. Brave souls throughout history have always stepped outside the boundaries of traditional sex roles. For some unknown reason, the transgender community acts as if they have a patent on all gender non-conforming behavior BOTH past and present. See, that girl doesn't like dresses, and likes motorcycles or whatever, so this must mean she is transgender. She needs testosterone. No, maybe she is just a girl who prefers certain clothes over others, and likes riding motorcycles and getting her hands greasy. Gender non-conforming doesn't always mean transgender. It doesn't mean that a girl is really "a boy trapped in a girl's body". Before transgender and "T", these girls were just called tomboys. Now, the tomboys are transgender, and talking about getting their breasts surgically removed. Will the transgender community be held accountable at all for the way it has shamelessly stolen the identity of other gender rebels who don't identify as transgender.

    (2.) As to FTM (female to male), there is no precise way of distinguishing between internalized misogyny and "gender dysphoria". Are we to assume that girls are rarely exposed to the idea that girls and women are of less value in society? After all, their minds are saturated with these messages from infancy? Isn't it possible that at least part of the reason that some girls want to transition is because the lives of girls and women are so devalued? What girl in her right mind wouldn't want to be a boy? My parents let my brothers stay out later than the girls, and they didn't have to do as much housework. I actually envied my brothers, and wished that I were a boy.

    (3.) Prior to transitioning, there is no scientific test to differentiate between transgender and non-transgender persons because it isn't something that can quantified. The fact that the transgender community doesn't admit this is why they have little credibility, and no accountability. It's only a matter of subjectivity and how one identities. In essence, transgender and transsexual are all in the mind. I will discuss intersex later. Intersex is not the same as transgender or transsexual.

    (4.) To my knowledge, the transgender community has never been held accountable for the historical fact that sex reassignment surgery has been used as a means of social control, specifically the erasing of gay and lesbian identity.

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  15. AnonymousX continued

    (5.) Transgender has brazenly co-opted intersex people, and this, in my opinion, is utterly shameless on their part. No one is holding them accountable for this. Transgender and transsexual is not the same as intersex. Intersex are actual medical conditions that can be detected through genetic testing or other medical tests. Transgender and transsexual are socially constructed words that are subjective. That is, someone feels as if he or she is trapped in the wrong body. It's essentially in the mind. Even the Intersex Society of North American makes a distinction between intersex and transgender.

    (6.) Will the transgender community be held accountable for the use of puberty suppressing drugs for pre-teens and teenagers? Normal adolescent development is halted because of "gender identity disorder".

    (7.) Breast binding is encouraged and, indeed, promoted by the transgender community. They know it can mis-align ribs and cause other health problems, but there are websites that give used binders to girls under the age of 21. How will future historians judge this?

    (8.) Calling double incision mastectomies with nipple grafting "top surgery" or "chest reconstruction" is another reason the transgender community has little accountability.

    (9.) It is possible to regret "transitioning" (surgery on healthy breasts and genitals, and testosterone). Yes, they admit this. In this case, the transgender community takes zero accountability. Or, in other words, a certain amount of collateral damage inflicted on the female sex is acceptable, and no one is responsible. "Top surgery" is essentially elective mastectomies with the surgical trimming down of areolas and nipples. They often cut the areolas and nipples off, re-size them down to the approximate size of male areolas and nipples, do the mastectomy, then sew the nipples back on. Loss of sensation is a possibility, not to mention the nipple graft not taking. A few transmen have lost their nipples and get areolas and nipples tattooed on.

    The transgender contribution to the female sex is this:


    http://www.surgerytheater.com/video/6423/Dr.%20Daniel%20Medalie%20performs%20FtM%20top%20surgery%20(double%20incision%20mastectomy%20with%20nipple%20grafting

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  16. AnonymousX

    Listening to these 16 year old girls already talking about testosterone and surgery is disturbing to me. Why is the thought of surgery already in their minds?

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  17. Iris: OMG GENDER CONFORMITY R DUMB!! BE URSELF LOL GENDER CONFORMITY IS DUMB GENDER NOT EXIST!!
    Iris: OMG U NOT MALE, U GIRL!! LONG HAIR U IZ GIRL LOL!!

    Yeaahhh.... did you suffer brain damage as a child or something Iris?

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  18. AnonymousX

    @Lily,

    "Respectfully,I don't think so. Science will figure out how to make a girl into a boy to the ent degree and there will be no reason to question ..it will be mainstream. Male priviledge is alive & well and seductive

    Lily"

    This is one of my favorite quotes from Einstein:

    "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity." - Albert Einstein

    When it comes to Homo sapiens , this seems far more true than not. Provided the humans species is still around in five or six hundred years from now, it might be possible to switch sexes down to even the DNA level. Is this something that we really want to do? Because of a very old technology first invented around the 1950s called ultrasound, 163 million girls are missing from India and China (Hvistendahl).

    I also like this quote:

    "Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe."

    Einstein

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  19. AnonymousX

    "Iris: OMG GENDER CONFORMITY R DUMB!! BE URSELF LOL GENDER CONFORMITY IS DUMB GENDER NOT EXIST!!
    Iris: OMG U NOT MALE, U GIRL!! LONG HAIR U IZ GIRL LOL!!
    Yeaahhh.... did you suffer brain damage as a child or something Iris?"

    This is what Iris said,

    "in heaven's name, do they need to "become a guy" when they look more feminine than most straight girls?!?!?!? I haven't had my hair that long since 4th grade but am PERFECTLY CONTENT to spend another 100 years in this large-breasted, mezzo-soprano, female body. What gives?!? How can they justify their claims of having "always felt male" with such pictures to the contrary?!?!?!? It just doesn't add up!!!"

    She does have a point. It seems odd and it doesn't add up. When I look at early photographs of Thomas Beattie in teen beauty pageants (long hair, make up, etc.), it doesn't add up. I'm a butch lesbian, and there is no way in heck that I'd ever be in a beauty pageant.

    I really don't think Iris means that only boys have short hair and girls have long hair. This is not how I read her posts. Girls can have long or short hair and they are still girls. They can wear their hair anyway, dye it green or purple if they want, and they are still girls. It's just strange that some trans identified females appear more feminine at an early age than a lot of straight women. It's interesting to me. There is nothing wrong with it, but it does seem a bit odd. It's just an interesting phenomena and a tad perplexing, especially when they claim that they have always felt like a man. Then, when they get older and aren't comfortable with wearing dresses, long hair, etc. they fall for the transgender line that says that they MUST be trans if they don't fall in line with traditional sex stereotypes. Shaii's hair went from being long when she was young to short when she got older. I no longer like X (long hair etc.), so I must be trans. I'm not like other girls in this respect, so I must be trans. No, they are just females who buck traditional sex roles. It is Iris who is still proudly claiming female identity. Iris claims her female identity while saying no to traditional sex roles. Transmen cast aside their female identity for trans ideology, and if they "transition" and legally change their sex, they are trading in their female identity for a slice of male power and privilege.

    Having said this, I do admit that Iris has a propensity for being blunt. Sometimes it's refreshing, and sometimes it's not. I'll admit that she just isn't very tactful most of the time.

    If the trans thought police would stop patrolling this site and leave her alone, she might quiet down.

    Iris, I don't know you personally, but you have a right to speak.




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  20. My point in saying that their hair was too long as a girl for me to believe they "always felt male" is because it's like they didn't give life as a butch woman a chance before shooting their arms full of testosterone and planning to cut-off their breasts!!! I had several long, extensive conversations via email with a user named Deborah/Brett Piper because I just couldn't hold my tongue after I saw what kinds of "girl clothes" she was getting rid of when she posted her eBay link. She went from wearing things I'd never be caught DEAD in (i.e. Victoria's Secret THONGS?!?!?!?) to buying something to remove links from men's Rolex watches, thus creating a watch with a bigAss face that swallowed-up her tiny little wrist?!? Where's the middleground, people?!?!? Why do they go from bikinis and long hair to boxer briefs and ballcaps, people?!?!? Why don't they ever give granny panties and short hair that's not as close as a buzz cut a chance? Why do they have to scrap their birth name to dress in a more comfortable way? I know I wouldn't want to part with mine.

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  21. Note: this correspondance took place in the summer of 2008, so all traces of it are gone from the Internet. She (Deborah) deleted her MySpace and YouTube when she went "stealth" and I deleted mine in 2010. I have since decided not to watch their videos because it gets me upset to where I can't help but comment, so I'd rather just not watch them because it's like beating your head against the wall to say anything (which I'd feel compelled to do). They'd just make videos about how I was a hater without even considering that what I was saying might have been true.

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  22. @ Iris

    We don't shoot testosterone up our arms. Get your facts straight and at least make it look like you know what you are talking about.
    Sheesh!

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  23. "Why don't they ever give granny panties and short hair that's not as close as a buzz cut a chance?"

    This is obviously the most hilarious thing Iris has asked. Are you prescribing granny panties as a "middle ground" for butches? Or do granny panties represent your gender ever-so perfectly? If a butch has a buzz cut, does that mean she is too male for you? Can a butch wear boxers or is she giving in to the patriarchy by doing that? Ever get the sense that all these delineations are exactly what's wrong with gender? Long before I transitioned I figured out that social gender is bullshit. You know what's *not* bullshit? The body. I love mine. You may call me a freak or a fake man, but I love myself, I love my body, and I am loved to the core AS I AM, INSIDE AND OUT. Beat that.

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  24. Actually, there are boxers made for women (I have some), as well as lots of comfortable styles for low prices. What makes them "too male" for me to wear is the front fly made for a guy to pee without pulling them down.

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  25. Anon X

    Hey, You make a point worth pondering :) Thanks for the smile.

    Lily

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  26. If you were weird enough to transition, you could've just worn men's boxers as a woman without destroying your body. It's worse to be a "man" with a vagina than it is to be a woman in men's boxers.

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  27. Only if you actually are a woman, Iris.

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  28. @3:06,
    I would think it would be even more disconcerting to be a woman with all those T-induced male secondary sexual characteristics + possibly higher sex drive, to look in your boxers and see the same as any woman. So you're going to need whatever "toys" anyway.

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  29. Actually, what I have in my pants after 12 years of T is nothing like 99% of women. While it's not as big as I would like, I can achieve penetration and be inside my partner. When she or I wants more, we do use toys, as do many men who have small dicks. Generally the penetration I can achieve with my own body is immensely satisfying compared to before, and it turns my partner on to feel my arousal. She's enjoyed sex with women, so I don't have to live up to any standard except for sexy, which I am. So done, and done.

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  30. @4:25

    After 12 years damaging yourself with hormones what you have in your pants may be nothing like what 99% of women have, but 99% of women and men would be disgusted by it.

    Cheers, Amy.

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  31. AnonymousX


    "You may call me a freak or a fake man, but I love myself, I love my body, and I am loved to the core AS I AM, INSIDE AND OUT. Beat that. "

    First of all, I've never called a transgender identified person a freak. However, I've been called a cuntasourus rex by some members of the transgender community. As to being a "fake man", a biological female can never be completely male. I'm sorry for breaking the news to this individual. Transmen don't produce sperm, and they don't have a male reproductive system. Male characteristics such as beard growth and increased muscle mass only happens from taking testosterone.

    If a biological female (XX) born from a womb of a woman gets both her healthy breasts removed and takes an exogenous source of testosterone, how is this loving her female body? I love my body, but it needs surgery and hormones. Saying, "I love my body" while at the same time undergoing surgery and taking chemicals seems like an oxymoron.

    In a misogynistic world that constantly envelopes females with incessant messages that they are inferior, for any girl or woman to love herself is a revolutionary act in and of itself. This statement is backed by a thousand plus years of history. Beat that.

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  32. The magical "T" and my two inches....

    "Actually, what I have in my pants after 12 years of T is nothing like 99% of women. While it's not as big as I would like, I can achieve penetration and be inside my partner. When she or I wants more, we do use toys, as do many men who have small dicks. Generally the penetration I can achieve with my own body is immensely satisfying compared to before, and it turns my partner on to feel my arousal. She's enjoyed sex with women, so I don't have to live up to any standard except for sexy, which I am. So done, and done."

    "Unfortunately you cannot control the affects that testosterone will have on your body. I can tell you that most faab people who go on T can get up to 3 inches but on average it’s more like 1."

    http://transbodypride.tumblr.com/post/21071906761/hello-uh-im-not-quite-sure-how-to-put-this-but-i-was

    One to three inches with three inches being approximately the maximum growth. One to two inches is more the average. Very impressive.

    At any rate, if this individual is satisfied, that is all that counts. As for the partner, I imagine it's technique not the two inches that is doing the trick.

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  33. "Saying, "I love my body" while at the same time undergoing surgery and taking chemicals seems like an oxymoron. "

    The surgery I had was many years ago, so I don't think about it. The testosterone I take is made from yams, as is most testosterone. A shot once a week, which doesn't actually *feel* like any kind of drug...not such a big deal. Y'all are stuck on this tragic-shit because you would rather that our lives boil down to this one thing about us so you can judge us. Should diabetics be unable to love their bodies because they can't produce insulin? Should my aunt hate here body because of her mastectomy? I love my body because it is my earthly vessel. It's the body that's walked up mountains and bicycled down the Pacific Coast. The body that plays guitar like a mutherfucker and paints and fixes things. How can you even think for a moment that you are fit to judge what loving one's body feels like? At any rate, you are wrong.

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  34. FtM "penetration" is a myth. The truth is, they can't do much with their unreleased t-swollen clits. I guess making your partner assume some God-forsaken convoluted position so you can kind of rub it against him/her counts in some people's minds.
    Germany

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  35. "Should diabetics be unable to love their bodies because they can't produce insulin? Should my aunt hate here body because of her mastectomy? "

    Is this person really comparing insulin that diabetics have to use because without insulin they will die with synthetically produced testosterone used to grow a beard and an enlarged clitoris? I knew that sooner or later some transman would come along and talk about diabetics and women who have had breast cancer. These are tragedies, but they can be detected by medical tests in a laboratory, and they can be treated. Since they always bring it up, let's compare actual medical diagnosed and treated diseases like diabetes or cancer with "gender dysphoria". I always like to remind them of one important thing. There are medical tests carried out in laboratories that can detect both diabetes and cancer. Cancerous cells can be seen through a microscope. HOW DO WE QUANTIFY "GENDER DYSPHORIA"? Can we pick it up and examine it? It's tragic and truly sad that this individual's aunt had breast cancer. The mastectomy was based on cancerous cells diagnosed in a laboratory. Any good lab in the world carries out the exact same test. This is the nature of sound science. Biological females who "transition" get both their healthy breasts removed based on something called "gender dysphoria". It's essentially all in the mind whether they admit it or not.

    In the case of diabetics, the body can't produce something that it usually produces resulting in serious damage to the body and possibly death. Doctors take blood tests and the results are actually quantified in that the science is clear. In biological females who "transition", an external source of synthetically produced testosterone is taken based on what is basically all in the mind.

    The testosterone I take is made from yams, as is most testosterone.

    Here we go with yams again. Do people really think that the yams used to make synthetically produced testosterone comes from farmer John's organic veggie patch? A lot of plants are genetically engineered.

    A shot once a week, which doesn't actually *feel* like any kind of drug...not such a big deal.

    52 weeks per year every year all life long...

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  36. How can you even think for a moment that you are fit to judge what loving one's body feels like? At any rate, you are wrong.

    http://www.surgerytheater.com/video/6423/Dr.%20Daniel%20Medalie%20performs%20FtM%20top%20surgery%20(double%20incision%20mastectomy%20with%20nipple%20grafting

    It's best to just copy and paste the url.

    If we are wrong about "transitioning", it sure looks like a form of violence being carried out on the female sex.

    The nipples and areolas are literally cut off, resized then sewn back on. Even transmen will tell you that loss of sensation is a possibility. "Top surgery" essentially amounts to elective mastectomies with the surgical whittling down of areolas and nipples.

    I sure as hell hope you are right about it because it's just the mutilation of healthy females bodies if you are wrong.

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  37. Actually, what I have in my pants after 12 years of T is nothing like 99% of women. While it's not as big as I would like, I can achieve penetration and be inside my partner. When she or I wants more, we do use toys, as do many men who have small dicks. Generally the penetration I can achieve with my own body is immensely satisfying compared to before, and it turns my partner on to feel my arousal. She's enjoyed sex with women, so I don't have to live up to any standard except for sexy, which I am. So done, and done.

    I can tell you that most faab people who go on T can get up to 3 inches but on average it’s more like 1."

    http://transbodypride.tumblr.com/post/21071906761/hello-uh-im-not-quite-sure-how-to-put-this-but-i-was

    "FtM "penetration" is a myth. The truth is, they can't do much with their unreleased t-swollen clits. I guess making your partner assume some God-forsaken convoluted position so you can kind of rub it against him/her counts in some people's minds."

    Germany


    "How sad, Germany, just like the rest of your posts. You can't make something true just by saying it. You apparently don't know much about ftm bodies and the last time I checked, spread legs wasn't God-forsaken or convoluted."

    Who am I to say which sexual position is better or what people desire to do? I could care less, but the woman from Germany has a point. She wasn't the one who was crowing about being able to penetrate her partner with her clitoris and saying she was sexy. She didn't bring the subject up. Isn't it true that clitoral enlargement with testosterone is usually about 1 to 2 inches? Even with metoidioplasty the clitoris can be too small for penetration. If transmen have about $50,000 and don't mind the skin grafts and multiple surgeries, they can get a phalloplasty with a pump that allows for penetration. Pumps can fail. Also, there can be problems associated with extending the female urethra. The female urethra really wasn't designed to be surgically re-routed through a skin graft.

    Neither a penis nor a two inch large clitoris is necessary to satisfy a woman. Straight women like penis, but I can't see how a two or even three inch clitoris would impress a heterosexual woman who is used to a penis on a well endowed male. I don't mean to be rude, but I didn't bring this subject up. Transmen come in here and talk about their enlarged clitoris, "T" and everything else and we aren't supposed to make any comments on the subject. If you don't want an honest opinion, don't come to this blog because we will give you an honest opinion.

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  38. Anon@8:54,
    Thanks for understanding what I meant, and for being so articulate. I just really believe a woman is a woman is a woman, even on "t".
    Germany

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  39. "She wasn't the one who was crowing about being able to penetrate her partner with her clitoris and saying she was sexy. She didn't bring the subject up."

    Listen, I wasn't crowing. I'm not boasting, because I understand that 2 inches is laughable if you take in to account hetero-normative values about sex. If my partner had *ever* been straight, I might have a big complex about it. But as you say, a penis is not necessary to please a woman. What is instrumental is visible or tangible proof of the excitement of her partner. The fact that I can penetrate her, that I can feel what it's like to be inside her, and that she can feel me is a bonus. We both like it. Of course most of the world finds that laughable, disgusting, and pathetic. Including lesbians who would deride me for it. At least I can accept what I have and enjoy it. If you are trying to make me feel insecure about it, you really can't, and you shouldn't be trying.

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  40. "The mastectomy was based on cancerous cells diagnosed in a laboratory. Any good lab in the world carries out the exact same test. This is the nature of sound science."

    If we want to speak truthfully about science and cancer, let me enumerate the many illnesses a person can avoid when they have had breast removal, a hysterectomy, and gone on testosterone:

    PMS-including bloating, cramping, tender breasts, emotional volatility, exhaustion.
    Periods-including excessive blood loss leading to anoemia, not to mention the cost of tampons and pads, ibuprofen, and missed days of work.
    Endometriosis
    Uterine cancer
    Ovarian Cancer
    Endometrial Cancer
    Breast Cancer
    Fibroids
    Unwanted pregnancy
    Ovarian Cysts

    These reasons did not cause me to transition, but that's a hell of a lot to not have to worry about. Conversely, I never even had to have incisions for my chest surgery, and my physical health is excellent. My bloodwork values are great. I'm not arguing that this is a reason to transition, but you have been trying to make clear what the process of transition is in gruesome detail. The least I can do is point out an benefit which is hardly ever mentioned

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  41. Yeah, I'm sure "Maxwell Scott Anderson" could've made the same list before SHE died of a brain tumor with a male midged voice and a disgusting beard, saying, "Maybe we could all just go meet somewhere and do something..." from a hospital bed in a hospital gown.

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  42. Yeah, I'm sure "Maxwell Scott Anderson" could've made the same list before SHE died of a brain tumor with a male midget/dwarf/LP voice and a disgusting beard, saying, "Maybe we could all just go meet somewhere and do something..." from a hospital bed in a hospital gown. Estrogen is more than just a sex hormone (why do you think osteoporosis is more common AFTER menopause?) and ovaries are more than just sexual organs. Breasts are also part of the lymphatic system. I have noticed that many of those freaks (whether FtM or MtF) catch more colds during their early years of transition, which I doubt is a coincidence.

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  43. Anon@2:30,
    If you want to speak truthfully, you completely compromise youself by "transitioning". If you destroy/remove your natural ability to produce hormones, you have no choice but to take artificial ones for the rest of your life. You set yourself up for a lifetime of being monitored, bloodwork, doctors appointments and all the rest of the unknowns that go along with experimenting on the human body and being dependant on the medical system.

    Germany

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  44. "If we want to speak truthfully about science and cancer, let me enumerate the many illnesses a person can avoid when they have had breast removal, a hysterectomy, and gone on testosterone:
    "


    I'M NOT A GYNECOLOGIST, BUT THIS IS MY SUGGESTION:

    FIRST OF ALL, I'M AWARE OF THE BRCA GENE AND THE FAMILY HISTORY ISSUE. I WANT TO RESTRICT MY COMMENTS TO HEALTHY WOMEN WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY OF CANCER. SO, HERE GOES...

    WHY NOT ASK A GYNECOLOGIST OR ANY PHYSICIAN WHAT HE OR SHE THINKS OF GIVING HEALTHY WOMEN WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY OF BREAST CANCER ELECTIVE MASTECTOMIES OR "PREVENTATIVE HYSTERECTOMIES". THAT IS, SURGICALLY REMOVING HEALTHY BREASTS AND OVARIES IN WOMEN WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY OF BREAST OR OVARIAN CANCER. IF WE REALLY THINK ABOUT IT, THERE ARE SEVERAL PARTS OF HEALTHY FEMALE ANATOMY THAT WE COULD DISPENSE OF TOO. . WELL, LET'S SEE WHAT OTHER HEALTHY FEMALE BODY PARTS CAN WE SURGICALLY LOP OFF. NO ONE REALLY NEEDS THEIR APPENDIX EITHER. THEREFORE, WE NEED "PREVENTATIVE" APPENDECTOMIES. I'VE HAD SEVERAL YEAST INFECTIONS. THEREFORE, I DON'T NEED MY VAGINA AFTER ALL. GET RID OF THAT.

    HERE IS A PARTIAL LIST OF "20 USELSS BODY PARTS" THAT WE COULD DISPENSE OF SUCH AS:

    VOMERONASAL ORGAN
    A tiny pit on each side of the septum is lined with nonfunctioning chemoreceptors. They may be all that remains of a once extensive pheromone-detecting ability. GET RID OF IT.

    EXTRINSIC EAR MUSCLES
    This trio of muscles most likely made it possible for prehominids to move their ears independently of their heads, as rabbits and dogs do. We still have them, which is why most people can learn to wiggle their ears. GET RID OF IT.

    DARWIN'S POINT
    A small folded point of skin toward the top of each ear is occasionally found in modern humans. It may be a remnant of a larger shape that helped focus distant sounds. GET RID OF IT.

    PARANASAL SINUSES
    The nasal sinuses of our early ancestors may have been lined with odor receptors that gave a heightened sense of smell, which aided survival. No one knows why we retain these perhaps troublesome mucus-lined cavities, except to make the head lighter and to warm and moisten the air we breathe. GET RID OF IT.

    http://www.bloggingwv.com/20-useless-body-parts-why-do-did-we-need-them/

    I DON'T THINK MOST ETHICS COMMITTEES WOULD APPROVE OF THE IDEA OF INSTITUTING A PROGRAM OF "PREVENTATIVE MASTECTOMIES" ON HEALTHY WOMEN IF THERE IS NO CLEAR FAMILY HISTORY OF BREAST CANCER OR BRCA GENE. SINCE THIS INDIVIDUAL BROUGHT IT UP, WE COULD WRITE TO SOME PRESTIGIOUS ETHICS BOARD SOMEWHERE AND POSE THE QUESTION. I WANT TO HEAR THEIR OPINION.

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  45. "If we want to speak truthfully about science and cancer, let me enumerate the many illnesses a person can avoid when they have had breast removal, a hysterectomy, and gone on testosterone:
    "


    QUESTION: IS THIS INDIVIDUAL AWARE OF THE FACT THAT PEOPLE CAN IN DIE SURGERY, AND THAT NO SURGERY COMES WITHOUT RISK? THIS DOESN'T INCLUDE HOSPITAL ACQUIRED INFECTIONS.

    SINCE THIS PERSON ALLUDED TO THE IDEA OF "PREVENTATIVE" HYSTERECTOMIES AND PREVENTATIVE HYSTERECTOMIES ON WOMEN, DON'T WE HAVE TO WEIGH THE RISK OF SURGERY TO THIS IDEA OF JUST REMOVING A BODY PART THAT IS HEALTHY, BUT MIGHT BECOME DISEASED AT SOME LATER DATE?. THIS REALLY IS GHOULISH.

    QUESTION: IS THIS PERSON AWARE THAT THERE HAVE BEEN BOTCHED "TOP SURGERIES" JUST LIKE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO END UP DISSATISFIED WITH DIFFERENT COSMETIC PROCEDURES?

    "I had top surgery on Jan. 9. When my surgeon removed the bandages a few days later, I was shocked by how terribly butchered I looked. I was literally speechless. Opened my mouth to speak, but no sound came out.

    I tried to take it in stride, though -- crossed my fingers that it'd look better as it heals. But it looks even worse as I heal. Someday I'll fill you all in about what it looks like. I'm not up for that right now, though.

    I can barely stand seeing myself in the mirror. I can barely stand taking off my shirt to shower. My dysphoria is off the charts.

    Honestly, it was less traumatic having breasts. At least when I had breasts, I could cope by reassuring myself they'd be gone someday. But now... they are gone (sort of... he left tons of tissue behind) and I'm supposed to be free of hunching my shoulders and layering shirts, etc. But I'm actually more ashamed of my chest than I was before.

    I feel traumatized like I've never before in my life.

    I paid $6,000 for this butchered mess -- a mess I'm going to live with for the rest of my life. I can't afford to have someone fix this. My surgeon has said he'd do some "touch ups," but I can't even imagine allowing him to lay a finger on me again. Also, this mess requires more than "touching up." It needs another full surgery, IMO.

    I'm devastated. Absolutely devastated. Beside myself with grief. I don't know if I can live like this. :'("

    http://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=54691.0

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  46. If we want to speak truthfully about science and cancer, let me enumerate the many illnesses a person can avoid when they have had breast removal, a hysterectomy, and gone on testosterone:
    "


    By: S
    BOTTOM LINE: DON’T choose to have surgery with Dr. Leis. If you feel you have no other choice, WAIT. You will be glad you did. For those who want a more detailed explanation, read on. Dr. Leis is dishonest and incompetent. I speak from personal experience, having suffered a botched bilateral mastectomy (FTM chest surgery that he performed. Here is my story. Before the surgery, I had very tiny breasts; not even A cup. When I raised my arms high over my head, or looked at my reflection in dim light that cast no shadows, I looked flat-chested. Therefore, top surgery was a low priority for me, and I by no means wanted to rush into it. I was willing to wait to get top surgery until I could receive a letter from my therapist, because when I consulted Dr. Leis, I knew he was dishonest. Several of the answers he gave me about the laws and limitations regarding FTM reassignment surgery were flat out lies; I knew due to my internet research and discussions with other surgeons. Therefore, I had a very bad feeling about him from the start, but I ended up having to get my top surgery from him. (Because I wasn’t trans enough for my therapist, due to liking my hair long and occasionally cross-dressing in my old female clothes, she refused to write me a letter for top surgery and I had to go to Leis because he was the only surgeon I knew who doesn’t require letters. She also refused to let me move forward with my transition until I had my breasts out, but I won’t go into detail about that.) Anyway, despite all my better judgement and intuition, I had the mastectomy with Dr. Leis. While I recovered, I stayed in a rented room in his office building, which was filthy and disgusting. (I even found a soiled bed liner from a previous patient stuffed behind the headboard of my bed!) The surgery seemed to have gone well until a week later, when he removed the bandages to take out the drains. Then I saw the scars were large and very uneven, and my nipples still looked female. He seemed perplexed about why “they” had not stitched the drain in on one side. (He never told me anyone else would be involved in the surgery, and denied that anyone was afterward.) He assured me the scars would fade to nothing and my nipples would flatten out on their own in a few months, then he taped my wounds (insufficiently), and sent me home a few days later… …without a prescription for antibiotics. By the time my designated driver took me home (only a few hours later), my wounds were aching and oozing, and I had to go to the emergency care clinic because they had become infected. After a little internet research, I discovered Dr. Leis has a long record of infections due to his unwillingness to prescribe preventative antibiotics after surgery. . s_s_s_1_9_8_4@yahoo.com
    Email: s_s_s_1_9_8_4@yahoo.com
    Date added: Jul 28, 2011

    http://www.susans.org/Sex_Reassignment_Surgery/FTM_Surgeons/6924.html

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  47. POTENTIAL SIDE EFFECTS OF TESTOSTERONE

    Increased red blood cell (RBC) count

    Higher-than-normal numbers of RBCs may indicate congenital heart disease, cor pulmonale (failure of the right side of the heart caused by prolonged high blood pressure in the pulmonary artery and right ventricle), polycythemia, or kidney disease with high erythropoietin production. For more on polycythemia, see below.

    Increased hemoglobin (HGB)
    Higher-than-normal hemoglobin may indicate congenital heart disease, cor pulmonale (failure of the right side of the heart caused by prolonged high blood pressure in the pulmonary artery and right ventricle), polycythemia, or increased RBC formation associated with excess erythropoietin. For more on polycythemia, see below.

    Increased hematocrit (HCT)

    High HCT may indicate dehydration, erythrocytosis (excessive red blood cell production), or polycythemia.

    Polycythemia

    Testosterone usage has been shown to increase "erythropoiesis," or red blood cell production. "Polycythemia" is an abnormally high level of red blood cells. An excess of red blood cells thickens the blood, impeding its passage through small blood vessels and causing a number of potential health problems. There are a few different types of polycythemia: "polycythemia vera," "relative polycythemia," and "secondary polycythemia."

    It is important to understand the differences between the three types of this condition, because polycythemia as a result of testosterone usage would probably best be categorized under secondary polycythemia. Of course, if your doctor diagnoses you with polycythemia, it is still important to determine which type of polycythemia you have and proceed with the proper treatment-- one should not automatically assume that an initial elevated RBC or HCT reading is necessarily secondary polycythemia simply based on testosterone use alone. .

    Polycythemia vera (or "primary polycythemia") is a rare myeloproliferative disorder, meaning that the bone marrow cells (which produce red blood cells) proliferate uncontrollably. In polycythemia vera, the RBC count increases without being stimulated by the red blood cell stimulating hormone, erythropoietin (EPO). Risk factors include exposure to radiation, some cancer therapy drugs, and familial history of polycythemia vera.In the case of relative polycythemia, an individual has an excess of RBCs due to a loss of volume in the plasma (the liquid portion of the blood). This can be due to dehydration, use of diuretics, burns, stress, or high blood pressure.Secondary polycythemia is defined as an absolute increase in RBCs caused by an increase in the RBC stimulating hormone, erythropoietin (EPO). Potential causes include low blood oxygen caused by heart disease, prolonged carbon monoxide exposure caused by smoking, hereditary disorders producing an abnormal hemoglobin or an overproduction of EPO, or kidney disease.

    Complications that can arise from polycythemia include thrombosis (blood clots that can cause stroke or heart attack), hemorrhage, and heart failure.

    Elevated liver levels & potential liver conditions

    Testosterone therapy can cause alterations in liver function tests, cholestatic jaundice, hepatocellular neoplasms (rare), and peliosis hepatis. Specifically, the use of orally-administered C-17 alpha alkylated testosterone has been associated with such complications, in addition to being associated with hepatocellular carcinoma and hepatic adenomas. Oral use of C-17 alpha alkylated testosterone is therefore generally discouraged, as injectable, transdermal, buccal, and pellet delivery methods are thought to significantly lower such risks. No matter which testosterone delivery method is being used, it is prudent to screen the user with liver function tests to monitor the overall health of the liver.

    http://www.ftmguide.org/tandhealth.html#sideeffects

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  48. Possible side effects of testosterone continued...

    Cholestatic jaundice

    Jaundice is a yellowing of the skin and other tissues due to excess circulating bilirubin. Mild jaundice is usually detectable when serum bilirubin reaches 2 to 2.5 mg/dl (milligrams per deciliter). Cholestatic jaundice is due to a biliary obstruction (a condition where bile excretion from the liver is blocked, which can occur either in the liver or in the bile ducts).Hepatocellular neoplasms
    Hepatocellular neoplasm is a general term for abnormal new tissue which has grown on the liver (neoplasm means "new growth"). These growths may be benign or cancerous.Peliosis hepatis
    Peliosis hepatis is a condition in which multiple blood-filled cystic spaces develop throughout the liver which may lead to congestion and necrosis.Hepatic adenomas
    Hepatic adenoma (HA) is a rare benign tumor of the liver. Two types of HAs have been identified, including tumors of bile duct origin and tumors of liver cell origin. HAs may rupture and bleed, causing pain. Although they are benign lesions, HAs can undergo malignant transformation to hepatocellular carcinoma (HCC). Although malignant transformation is rare, surgery is advocated in most individuals with presumed HAs.

    Suppression of clotting factors
    Testosterone has been reported to suppress clotting factors II, V, VII, and X. For those also taking anticoagulent medication such as Warfarin, testosterone may increase the effects of such medication. Caution should be exercised by those taking such medication, or those with bleeding disorders. Consult with your doctor about possible dosage adjustments.

    Elevated lipid profile/High cholesterol

    The higher an individual's level of cholesterol, the higher their risk of coronary heart disease. The lower your LDL cholesterol, the lower your risk of heart attack and stroke. It is also important to maintain a high enough level of HDL, or "good" cholesterol. Excessive total cholesterol contributes to atherosclerosis and subsequent heart disease.

    Atherosclerosis is a condition in which fat, cholesterol and other substances are deposited along the walls of arteries. This fatty material thickens and hardens, forming "plaques" that diminish the elasticity of the arteries and may eventually block them. Clots can form around plaques, posing an additional danger if they break off and travel to the heart, lungs, or brain.

    High triglyceride levels may be associated with a higher risk for heart disease and stroke. People with high triglycerides often have other conditions that increase the likelihood of developing cardiovascular disease, such as diabetes and obesity. High triglyceride levels may also indicate cirrhosis, hypothyroidism, high carbohydrates in diet, poorly controlled diabetes, or pancreatitis.

    High Blood Pressure

    High blood pressure, or "hypertension," directly increases the risk of coronary heart disease and stroke, especially along with other risk factors. Testosterone therapy can contribute to raised blood pressure levels. Because of this, and because of other potential risk factors for heart disease such as increased lipid profile or polycythemia, it is wise to monitor blood pressure levels throughout testosterone therapy.

    Acne

    Acne is a skin disorder (characterized by whiteheads, blackheads, and pimples) that effects the pilosebaceous units (PSUs) of the skin. PSUs consist of a "sebaceous" gland (oil-producing gland) connected to a canal called a "follicle." The follicle contains a fine hair, and the hair grows out through the open end of the canal at the skin's surface. This open end is usually called a "pore." There are numerous PSUs on the face, upper back, and chest (where acne problems often are worst).

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  49. OTHER HEALTH ISSUES TO CONSIDER WITH TESTOSTERONE USE

    Yeast infections and bacterial vaginosis

    Hormonal changes can cause changes in the vaginal environment. This can bring about two common types of vaginal infections: yeast infections and bacterial vaginosis. In order to treat these infections properly, it is important to properly diagnose which type of infection you may have by seeing your doctor.


    A yeast infection is caused by the overgrowth of a naturally occurring yeast, Candida albicans, in the vagina. If there is a change in the vaginal environment due to hormonal fluctuations, injury, a compromised immune system, increased pH, increased heat and moisture, allergic reactions, elevated sugar levels, or reductions in the populations of bacteria that are normally present, Candida albicans will multiply rapidly and cause the symptoms of a yeast infection. Symptoms include itching and/or a burning sensation around or inside the vagina; a white, clumpy discharge that may look like cottage cheese (discharge can also be thinner and faintly yellow or nearly clear in color); and a smell that is similar to bread or beer.

    The yeast infection should not be confused with bacterial vaginosis (BV), another kind of vaginal infection. BV occurs when certain types of bacteria (such as Gardnerella vaginalis, Bacteroides, Mobiluncus, and Mycoplasma hominis) outnumber the normal Lactobacillus bacteria due to a change in the vaginal environment. The primary symptom of BV is an abnormal gray-white vaginal discharge that often has a fish-like odor. There may also be itching and/or a burning sensation around the vagina.

    Self "chest" exams (for breast-tissue cancer)

    Even if you have already had chest surgery, it is wise to continue to give yourself monthly chest exams, as some residual breast tissue may have been left behind after surgery. Keep in mind that breast cancer does occasionally occur in non-trans men.


    PCOS and ovarian and endometrial cancers

    Some physicians recommend hysterectomy (surgical removal of the uterus) and oophorectomy (surgical removal of the ovaries) within the first 5 years of starting testosterone therapy. This is because there is some concern that long-term testosterone treatment may cause the ovaries to develop similar symptoms as those seen in polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). PCOS has been linked to increased risk of endometrial hyperplasia (a condition that occurs when the lining of the uterus (endometrium) grows too much) and thus endometrial cancer, as well as ovarian cancer.


    http://www.ftmguide.org/tandhealth.html#sideeffects

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  50. Anon@2:30,

    If you want to speak truthfully, you completely compromise youself by "transitioning". If you destroy/remove your natural ability to produce hormones, you have no choice but to take artificial ones for the rest of your life. You set yourself up for a lifetime of being monitored, bloodwork, doctors appointments and all the rest of the unknowns that go along with experimenting on the human body and being dependant on the medical system.

    Germany"


    Excellent point!

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  51. I'm not worried about being monitored once a year-it's more than most people do, and that's what's broken about our health care system. At least I'm on top of my cholesterol, blood sugar, pap smears and everything else. If you are off the radar in those respects, you'll end up costing taxpayer like me money for palliative care after its already too late.
    On another topic, I'll be sure to request that my testosterone comes from organic, non-GMO yams. Because lord knows I can afford to eat that way every day. And for every surgery horror story, there are 20 successes I know of, so don't bother with the alarmist bullshit. I had already read all the ones you posted anyway.

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  52. Ben,

    So sorry to hear your surgery was botched :( The shock must feel almost unbearable but try not to panic. Get yourself a lawyer and sue. In the mean time, give yourself some time to get over the shock and research a recommnded plastic surgeon, make an appointment and to see what can be done. You will be find a way to make this ok.

    Lily

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  53. Ben,

    So sorry to hear your surgery was botched :( The shock must feel almost unbearable but try not to panic. Get yourself a lawyer and sue. In the mean time, give yourself some time to get over the shock and research a recommnded plastic surgeon, make an appointment and to see what can be done. You will be find a way to make this ok.

    Lily


    Lily, are you referring to FTM "top surgery"?

    It is sad, but why not tell these young women that they really don't need elective mastectomies in the first place? It's kind of hard completely undoing getting both your breasts lopped off. That is, unless you have a fat enough bank account, and then there are no guarantees.

    At any rate, the plastic surgeons make a bundle up front in the original surgery, and then make money doing revisions on the botched jobs. It sure sounds like a profitable racket to me. If we add up "top surgery" (mastectomy), a life time of testosterone, a hysterectomy, and the option of "bottom surgery" (phalloplasty app. $50,000 for a good surgeon) how much does all this cost?

    Ben, I wish you all the best....

    I'm going to say something that might shock some people...

    Female bodies are beautiful just the way they are.

    Stay strong.....

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  54. If we want to speak truthfully about science and cancer, let me enumerate the many illnesses a person can avoid when they have had breast removal, a hysterectomy, and gone on testosterone:

    PMS-including bloating, cramping, tender breasts, emotional volatility, exhaustion.
    Periods-including excessive blood loss leading to anoemia, not to mention the cost of tampons and pads, ibuprofen, and missed days of work.
    Endometriosis
    Uterine cancer
    Ovarian Cancer
    Endometrial Cancer
    Breast Cancer
    Fibroids
    Unwanted pregnancy
    Ovarian Cysts

    These reasons did not cause me to transition, but that's a hell of a lot to not have to worry about..


    I wonder where the idea or thought processes behind the breasts as "tumors" comes from? Yes, we are talking about "tumors" which some transmen call their female breasts?

    Below is a poem about "tumors". I'm assuming this individual is a transman.

    "These tumors called breasts

    by ~ACruelJoke, Nov 26, 2010, 2:51:58 PM


    I have these tumors, that I've been assigned

    I'd almost wish they were malignant, instead of benign.

    If they were malignant, they could be removed

    Then my life would be much improved

    If they were not, they'd kill me fast

    This life I hate would then be passed.

    They just aren't supposed to be
    Growing anywhere on me.

    These tumors of which I have a pair
    Need bathed and support,lots of care.

    They can be a symptom or the disease

    Either way, they always displease.

    Tumors are quite a drain
    They can hurt, or be a pain.

    It's the first thing I know they see

    Whenever people look at me.

    They are so large, my life is destroyed

    Most of life I completely avoid.

    Some cannot live, carrying them around

    So they do what they must, to be put in the ground.

    I carry these things upon my chest

    These giant tumors that others call breasts."

    http://acrueljoke.deviantart.com/art/These-tumors-called-breasts-187552428

    "~ACruelJoke Feb 4, 2012 Heh, me too. That was mild. My self mutilation fantasies would get me committed to a psych ward. Actually, while they were not the reason for commitment to one, once they did extend my stay a good deal.

    Well, that is, until I learned to lie"

    http://acrueljoke.deviantart.com/#/art/Temptation-277882413?_sid=1dc9ac1

    There is no way that I can truly understand what goes on in this individual's mind, but how did this level of extreme body dysphoria arise? Can't extreme body dysphoria be considered a type of mental illness? And, isn't it possible that everything that this individual reads online or elsewhere about breast binders, "T", "top surgery" (mastectomy) just reinforces the body dysphoria? The female body in its natural state is repulsive. It just compounds any body dysphoria that might already exist.

    I had great discomfort with my breasts when I first started adolescence, but I eventually grew out of it. No one ever told me that they were useless appendages, tumors, shameful things to be bound and hid etc., or that I could avoid breast cancer by just getting them lopped off.

    What else does the author of the "Tumors Called Breasts" has to say:

    ~ACruelJoke Feb 4, 2012 " Heh, me too. That was mild. My self mutilation fantasies would get me committed to a psych ward. Actually, while they were not the reason for commitment to one, once they did extend my stay a good deal.

    Well, that is, until I learned to lie."

    http://acrueljoke.deviantart.com/#/art/Temptation-277882413?_sid=14babd29
    Fanagni 810

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  55. @February 7, 2013 at 9:05 PM

    Yes, I was referring to Ben's ordeal. What I feel personally about her surgery doesn't really matter, and it sure does nothing to say I told you so. I'm sure she regrets going to that butcher, but not the choice of having it in the first place. Although I am sure she wishes she could have seen the future and walked away..hindsight is regrettably 20/20. If you've read any of my posts you already know how I feel, but I still feel so sorry she is going through this needless hell.

    Lily

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