Blazes

I could build monuments to your skin alone, statues Lilliputians, would never do. The first time you took my hand in yours, a window opened to the softness that lay beneath your buttoned blouse. For three solid weeks I dreamed of bursting through the doors that stood between me and your skin. I plotted, planned and diagrammed exactly what I would do, what I would say to make my way in.

But each time after a good nights kiss, my courage withdrew and I missed my chance. Alone I could brave your sly smile, alone I dared to meet your immeasurable gaze, and alone I knew your body better than I knew my own.

Together, with you next to me, your smile paralyzes while your eyes silence. I’m a mute in your presence. If I cannot speak I cannot tell you how much I want your skin to put out the flames you ignite in my finger tips. How much I want to bury my fingers into your cool skin and beyond.

My fingers, travelers and your skin a wild frontier, your body a landscape I hope build a home on and live forever. But my words have run dry; my parched mouth is helpless around your beguiling wilderness.

I say nothing. I don’t have to. I meet your mercurial gaze, my eyes betray my thoughts. You unbutton your blouse, placing my hand upon your breast, the fire I longed for you to put out, blazes on.

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Book Club Discussion-Sylvia Plath's Three Women

So for those who read's Plath's Three Women, any thoughts?

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Judith Butler

Since it made its way to the literary public I have been following the case between the ownership of Kafka and the Hoffe estate. So this morning I see another article on the subject in the London Review, I notice as soon as I click to read the article that Judith Butler has authored it. I immediately feel repulsed but re-swallow my eggs and toast and proceed to read the article. A few paragraphs in I realize two things, the first is that Butler's writings (even legal literary issues) aren't anything if they are not consistently convoluted! The second thing I noticed is the complete similarity between Butler and the teacher's voice on Charlie Brown.

Which brings me to my question to you dear readers, is Judith Butler and the voice of the teacher (both are teachers, coincidence?) on Charlie Brown one and the same???

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Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning

How tightly wound is the gender straight jacket when the male medical machine, tax payers, medical insurance companies and the loved ones of these young women would believe for a moment that any one of them has a "man" trapped within them??

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FTM Experience-Trans Experience

Last night I received an angrily defensive comment towards the new video I posted from a transman that I chose to delete, I did however want to briefly discuss it here today. The gist of the comment was that the "butch experience" and the "ftm experience" have nothing to do with one another. The commenter obviously took offense because s/he identified with what I said, I a Butch woman who through maturity, work and the love of a few good Femmes learned to love the woman I am. No drugs involved and certainly no unnecessary removal of choice healthy body parts needed. It is living and loving myself that is the biggest fear and threat to the trans community it would seem, hence all "trans in denial" comments this blog gets saturated with.

I will be the first to agree the "butch experience" and the "ftM experience" is quite different, one leads to the love of one's self while the other pushes the envelope in female self hared. What they share are the feelings of disgust, alienation and confusion that later gives way for the Butch's enlightenment and later makes way for the ftM's self hating transmutation. And, if as so many ftM's believe that I am "trans in denial", then they too believe by my example that "trans feelings" can be worked through and arent something one is born with. Then the question is, what causes one self hating female to work through her negative female feelings and another to plunge into the ocean of female self hatred?

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Butch/Woman

FINALLY a new Dirt Video.

enjoy

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A Little Promotion for the Zuna Institute

According to the Zuna Institute, they are a "National Advocacy Organization for Black Lesbians that was created to address the needs of black lesbians in the areas of Health, Public Policy, Economic Development, and Education". 


They begin in 1999 and since then have managed to stay true to their core commitment to black lesbians and black lesbian issues without fail and without succumbing to the pressures of "queering" their goals! 


Hmmm perhaps someone should inform organizations like the NCLR , the Mautner Project or the Audre Lorde Project that you can remain true to the lesbian inspirations that created and founded them as well as the lesbian women they were created for without falling prey to the queer (anti-feminist) agenda.


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Mautner Project-The National Lesbian Health Organization

The Mautner Project is yet another organization created by lesbians for lesbians whose monies are now being utilized to treat straight women walking on the wild side, men who claim to be "women" and women/lesbians who no longer want to be women.

Everyone deserves health care and proper treatment, but lesbians do NOT deserve to have our identity co-opted so that our needs, our time, our donations, our hard work, our love for other lesbians become an umbrella for non lesbians and their problems, while our issues get push aside or shoved completely under the fucking rug!

Please do not donate any time or money to the Mautner Project if you are a lesbian trying to ease/benefit the lives of needy lesbians. This organization deceptively uses our Lesbian name to wrench our time and money from us (the least economically affluent group out of the whole queer alphabet soup).

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