Yesterday I helped move one of my nieces, along with my niece, her mom, a male cousin, a nephew, my niece's husband and his two step sons and one of their buddies. The males along with myself did all the heavy lifting/moving. I admit that the REALLY heavy shit that required using the dolly, my cousin, nephew and I gladly left to the more than eager male youths who were helping while we congregated around each other talking about "old times" periodically in the garage. My cousin, nephew and I hung out a great deal as teenagers along with several other cousins, so the three of us yesterday each had plenty of "remember when"s as we worked.
The three young guys helping were between 18-22, all typical young men in the general sense. But unlike my male cousin and my nephew or myself even, they heaved and carried and lifted and jumped at the opportunity to lift the REALLY heavy crap to "feel" like men, particularly adult men. My nephew or my cousin, both in their 40's had long since grown out of NEEDING to "feel" like men by DOING "manly" things, and I too being in my 40's no longer required DOING to "feel" what I believed growing up as "masculine" or "male", but realized as an adult was really "butch" since I wasnt male, but a Butch female.
The DOING things, things not in accord with typical females and more in accord with typical boys while BEING female did help me personally when puberty began and dysphoria set in. Puberty changed me, it didnt change my close friends (all males) or the things I enjoyed doing with those (all male) friends. Through DOING football for instance I felt myself differently, which felt right to me. I had an awesome arm, usually quarter backed most of the football games my best buddy (the hooterman) and I put together among boys from the neighborhood and school. Playing "smear the queer" from 4th grade up through 9th grade, I also developed the ability to both take and give some mean hits. On the occasions the hooterman wanted to quarter, I had great hands and would catch the ball at any/all cost, including on my head if that what was required. DOING these things, made me FEEL "normal", I could forget about budding breast or worse, periods. Things that FELT alien, things I believe every other female FELT "normal" about, little did I know they too FELT just as ashamed, dysphoric or uncomfortable about, only for different reasons, reasons bathed in misogyny.
Playing football or basketball or cruising around with my male friends or cousins, getting into mischievous troubles with them etc, literally helped me get past feeling dysphoric, because it allowed me to FEEL myself AS myself until I was ready to just BE(ing) myself. DOING can go a long way, and I mean DOING, NOT performing, performing is empty of legitimacy, DOING helps brings legitimacy into BEING. Biology may dictate our BEING, but it has NEVER dictated our DOING. If you are a female, and DOING a sport or a job or a task or a hobby that makes you feel good about yourself, then DO it. Your sex isnt your shackle, and changing your sex isnt going to set you free.
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Saturday, December 4, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
Happy Friday Happy Open Day
Open comments day, since I'll busy busting my back helping my niece move.
Keep it clean, keep it civil and remember you can all step away from the computer.
Have a wonderful Friday!
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ps an article you may be interested in discussing. Another identity disorder with very similar links to GID.
Keep it clean, keep it civil and remember you can all step away from the computer.
Have a wonderful Friday!
dirt
ps an article you may be interested in discussing. Another identity disorder with very similar links to GID.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Todays Poll Question:
Growing up, did parental/religious/societal female expectation cause you mental anguish as a female child/teen?
If you answer in the positive on the poll, can you please elaborate how and why you felt distress over female role expectations growing up.
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Having Trans Doubts? Maybe it is because you are Not Trans
For all the trans trenders jumping into the water, there are an equal amount of females debating, wondering whether they should dip their toe into the water. There are two very sure indications on whether or not you were born trans and should plunge head long into the trans sea.
1) If you have had or have now, any sort of body dysphoria, whether that be your entire body head to toe or whether that be specific body parts such as breast or hips or vagina etc. you are NOT trans. Were you born trans, you would simply be trans in the trans body you were born with.
2) If you feel the need to change your body in more than a superficial way, such as exercise, eating healthy, wearing your hair different ways etc you were not born trans. Those born trans, with their natural trans bodies have nothing medically to alter. Only those who seek physical changes from the medical community do so, because of something they ARENT or DO NOT HAVE, NOT because of what they ARE and DO have! Does the person having a nose job do so because they were born with a perfect nose? Does a female get breast implants because she already possess large-ish breast? Does a person take steroids because they already have a huge, muscular body? No, no and NO! If you are seeking to appear trans, it is solely because you are NOT trans. Trans, like male or female, gay or straight, white or black exist all by itself.
Do not confuse what you are by what you are not. If one or both reasons listed here apply to you, you clearly and most assuredly are NOT trans. Its perfect okay to explore who and what you are, I tend myself to agree with Eliot on that matter, just make sure you examine everything, leaving no stone unturned before figuring yourself into what can only amount to a terrible mistake.
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1) If you have had or have now, any sort of body dysphoria, whether that be your entire body head to toe or whether that be specific body parts such as breast or hips or vagina etc. you are NOT trans. Were you born trans, you would simply be trans in the trans body you were born with.
2) If you feel the need to change your body in more than a superficial way, such as exercise, eating healthy, wearing your hair different ways etc you were not born trans. Those born trans, with their natural trans bodies have nothing medically to alter. Only those who seek physical changes from the medical community do so, because of something they ARENT or DO NOT HAVE, NOT because of what they ARE and DO have! Does the person having a nose job do so because they were born with a perfect nose? Does a female get breast implants because she already possess large-ish breast? Does a person take steroids because they already have a huge, muscular body? No, no and NO! If you are seeking to appear trans, it is solely because you are NOT trans. Trans, like male or female, gay or straight, white or black exist all by itself.
Do not confuse what you are by what you are not. If one or both reasons listed here apply to you, you clearly and most assuredly are NOT trans. Its perfect okay to explore who and what you are, I tend myself to agree with Eliot on that matter, just make sure you examine everything, leaving no stone unturned before figuring yourself into what can only amount to a terrible mistake.
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Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Topic Tuesday
Today's topic is...Has the "queer/trans" revision and co-option of lesbian identities caused you stop identifying as a lesbian or any lesbian identity? Please explain why, if yes.
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Monday, November 29, 2010
Trans Trenders-the New Goth and "themagazineproject" caving to Transfascist Hormonally induced Rantings
The below article was written for and posted here originally last week, it was removed last night due to transfascist threats, lies and pressures. This is the article in full:
The article, like the "who is transitioning" posts here, highlight the mass trans trending taking place among female youths growing up in less than radical feminist times. Times which demand hyper femininity and hyper sexuality to signify "normal" female development. Times which leave no room for females youths to dream, let alone realise those dreams unless those dreams are bent like the hairpins holding the perfectly coiffed hair in place so as not to upset the narrow straight jacketed status quo demanding our female youths SUBMIT SUBMIT SUBMIT! Times which lead our female youths into believing that to resist or out right tear off the female gender jacket constricting their choices, thereby their lives and futures, they must tear off their very female natures!!! But in the word of the folk genius Bob Dylan: The Times They are a Changin!
If you were ever on the fence regarding trans ideology, this issue alone should be the deciding factor in your about face from the trans position. If you have lived past the age of 30, you are well aware that the greatest judge about any community is how it treats its children. The trans community, trans adults are more invested in trans trenders justifying their trans decision than they are in questioning this trend or even allowing it to be questioned. This isnt a community who loves its/our children, this is a community so narrow and narcissistic it would rather thousands upon thousands of girls be given a drug that has no long term studies, a drug that unless the breast are removed and a hysto completed these girls will have a HIGH chance of developing cancers in those areas. A community that supports and encourages the removal of these female youths breast leaving them permanently mutilated, despite the fact that most of these trans trenders will later regret their youthful trans trend exuberance. A community that prefers and practices the mental and physical distortion/destruction of children and young adults isnt part of MY community, is it yours?
Trans Trenders-the New Goth?
Transgenderism/sexualism began as a treatment to cure gay
males of their homosexuality. It was ignorantly believed that gay men by their
attraction to men must really be women trapped inside a male body, compulsory
heterosexualism at its most extreme. The treatment for feeling “born in the
wrong body” hasn’t much changed in the last sixty plus years, hormonal drugs
and various surgeries based on the believed sex remain the treatment used. How
Transgenderism/sexualism is viewed, trans rights, academic jobs based in trans
ideologies and public opinion of trans people has however changed. Queer Theory
combined with the almighty internet being the primary reasons for the most
significant changes in public perception of trans people and the dissemination
of trans related information.
Among females there has been until recently a generalized
but standard female of the lesbian persuasion who has been the primary seeker
of transition. These are females who felt from an early age or around puberty
that they were “born in the wrong body”. With those feelings also comes a
feeling of extreme body dysphoria, which very often is centered on body parts
society deems specifically female, such as breast, shapely hips and vagina. The
advancements of trans rights, scholarship, general knowledge, popular reality
TV etc. has unfortunately come at a time for females when the feminist backlash
has reached all new heights circumscribing the female role to that of a
hyper-femininity coupled with a hyper-sexuality. Girls as young as two or three
years old are now being clothed to please the male gaze. Options for female
possibilities and female futures have drastically gone from house wife to that
of visual “eye candy” whore. For females, “dressing for success” has come to
signify; no erection equals no raise, no promotion or no job, take your pick.
In the past, youths have used Punk, New Wave, Goth,
multi-colored dyed hair, mohawks, shaved heads, piercings and tattoos as a form
of rebellion, self expression and a way to transcend momentarily narrow gender
roles. It is a different story today however; female youths are choking and
gagging on the inescapable hyper-femininity/hyper-sexuality being shoved down
their smooth young throats by family, religion and society. Only they are
escaping, in droves even, through transition. Technology and narrow gender
norms have created a circumstance and a space where female youths are changing
their limited female destinies by transitioning to “male” rather than changing
the rules for all females as feminist had done in the past.
The hugest difference in the female youths who are falling
prey to this trans trend is that most of these young women are heterosexual.
They begin transition believing that they are and will be “gay men” once
transitioned. Many, once on testosterone seek gay male sex/relationship
partners knowing little to nothing about gay male culture or how gay male
culture functions within gay malecentric spaces.
One of the main technological sources spreading this “trans
trend” like wildfire, a trend affecting mostly white females, is YouTube.com.
Every week there is a whole new set of trans trending females ranging in age
from young teens to early twenties. They range also in the arena of transition
from “pre-ftM”s cutting their hair short and binding their breast down for a
flatter appearing chest, to others just starting a testosterone regimen and
others still, several years on testosterone and having already had their
healthy breast surgically removed. Each YouTube trans trending testament and
record of transition begs for supportive unquestioning listeners.
These young pre-ftMs and ftMs give each other that support, through friending,
subscribing to and copiously supportive commenting on each trans trender’s
video. The comments alone encourage and increase trans trending behavior,
affirmative comments read on their videos and positive reinforcing comments
trans trenders read on other trans videos. These trans trendering YouTube
spaces function very much in the way Pro-Ana sites function supporting the
behavior of anorexics, they are both instructional and reinforcing.
The article, like the "who is transitioning" posts here, highlight the mass trans trending taking place among female youths growing up in less than radical feminist times. Times which demand hyper femininity and hyper sexuality to signify "normal" female development. Times which leave no room for females youths to dream, let alone realise those dreams unless those dreams are bent like the hairpins holding the perfectly coiffed hair in place so as not to upset the narrow straight jacketed status quo demanding our female youths SUBMIT SUBMIT SUBMIT! Times which lead our female youths into believing that to resist or out right tear off the female gender jacket constricting their choices, thereby their lives and futures, they must tear off their very female natures!!! But in the word of the folk genius Bob Dylan: The Times They are a Changin!
If you were ever on the fence regarding trans ideology, this issue alone should be the deciding factor in your about face from the trans position. If you have lived past the age of 30, you are well aware that the greatest judge about any community is how it treats its children. The trans community, trans adults are more invested in trans trenders justifying their trans decision than they are in questioning this trend or even allowing it to be questioned. This isnt a community who loves its/our children, this is a community so narrow and narcissistic it would rather thousands upon thousands of girls be given a drug that has no long term studies, a drug that unless the breast are removed and a hysto completed these girls will have a HIGH chance of developing cancers in those areas. A community that supports and encourages the removal of these female youths breast leaving them permanently mutilated, despite the fact that most of these trans trenders will later regret their youthful trans trend exuberance. A community that prefers and practices the mental and physical distortion/destruction of children and young adults isnt part of MY community, is it yours?
You can contact TMP (themagazineproject) here: advice@themagazineproject.com community@themagazineproject.com
If you have even the slightest bit of feminist backbone, contact this site immediately! Our female youths very lives are at stake right this very minute!
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Edit to add, the article has been reposted after the site owners of TMP reviewed the comments and realized most comments were from trolls who havent even read the article and were/are merely there to angrily trouble make/silence women.
Edit to add, the article has been reposted after the site owners of TMP reviewed the comments and realized most comments were from trolls who havent even read the article and were/are merely there to angrily trouble make/silence women.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Being and Doing
If you are a regular reader of this blog, you know I make a huge distinction between BEING and DOING, meaning we arent what we do, we are what we are. In less double speak, I wasnt a boy growing up because I did things that were considered by most to BE "boy" things, and yet, that assumption was still there. Growing up I had very long hair, down to my butt, long hair and bangs. I remember every time I was to get a trim, I would be asked if I wanted it shortened, not necessarily into a "boys cut", but something shoulder length or slightly shorter. I never did. Parents or parental figures always seemed surprised by that.
I had no language to explain. I only figured long hair meant I was a girl, because I too had been snowed into believing DOING was BEING. So if girls DID long hair and I DID long hair, everyone would know I was a girl. From about age three on up, that was how I understood things. I couldnt wrap my head around peoples confusion of me, my childhood logic was this: even though I'm DOING "boy" things, I am doing "boy" things with long hair and only girls have long hair so why cant everyone see I'm a girl?
My earliest memories, feelings of wanting to be a boy centered around this confusion, BEING and DOING. I felt if I were just a boy, that constant, persistent question and all those questioning eyes that contained that question would just stop. No one would ever ask me again "are you a girl or a boy"? My logical "girl" hair failed me, it didnt matter that girls have long hair and I had long hair, it was more about what I DID having long hair and what I DID were "boy" things. "Girl" hair and "boy" things were societies confusion of me, something they couldn't reconcile, two polar opposites that begged the question "are you a girl or a boy"? What I couldnt reconcile was DOING long hair didnt make me a girl any more than DOING "boy" things made me a boy, both we DOING. I only knew I enjoyed and I felt comfortable DOING "boy" things despite BEING a girl, "boy" things made the girl me happy and made the girl me feel "normal".
Strangely it wasnt until around puberty that I more or less quit feeling ashamed when asked if I was a boy or a girl. Perhaps the horrific Butch Shame and body dysphoria I felt at puberty eclipsed any other shame I had up to that point in my life. Yet even carrying the burden of Butch Shame and body dysphoria on my young back and shoulders, I didnt stop having long hair nor did I stop DOING "boy" things. In fact it was DOING "boy" things that helped me get through puberty and helped alleviate some of the Butch Shame and weighted burden of body dysphoria.
Look for my sequal to this post coming this week, Being, Doing and Dysphoria in which I will share how DOING helped me with my dysphoria.
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I had no language to explain. I only figured long hair meant I was a girl, because I too had been snowed into believing DOING was BEING. So if girls DID long hair and I DID long hair, everyone would know I was a girl. From about age three on up, that was how I understood things. I couldnt wrap my head around peoples confusion of me, my childhood logic was this: even though I'm DOING "boy" things, I am doing "boy" things with long hair and only girls have long hair so why cant everyone see I'm a girl?
My earliest memories, feelings of wanting to be a boy centered around this confusion, BEING and DOING. I felt if I were just a boy, that constant, persistent question and all those questioning eyes that contained that question would just stop. No one would ever ask me again "are you a girl or a boy"? My logical "girl" hair failed me, it didnt matter that girls have long hair and I had long hair, it was more about what I DID having long hair and what I DID were "boy" things. "Girl" hair and "boy" things were societies confusion of me, something they couldn't reconcile, two polar opposites that begged the question "are you a girl or a boy"? What I couldnt reconcile was DOING long hair didnt make me a girl any more than DOING "boy" things made me a boy, both we DOING. I only knew I enjoyed and I felt comfortable DOING "boy" things despite BEING a girl, "boy" things made the girl me happy and made the girl me feel "normal".
Strangely it wasnt until around puberty that I more or less quit feeling ashamed when asked if I was a boy or a girl. Perhaps the horrific Butch Shame and body dysphoria I felt at puberty eclipsed any other shame I had up to that point in my life. Yet even carrying the burden of Butch Shame and body dysphoria on my young back and shoulders, I didnt stop having long hair nor did I stop DOING "boy" things. In fact it was DOING "boy" things that helped me get through puberty and helped alleviate some of the Butch Shame and weighted burden of body dysphoria.
Look for my sequal to this post coming this week, Being, Doing and Dysphoria in which I will share how DOING helped me with my dysphoria.
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