Friday, November 19, 2010

Female Body/Gender/Sexual Dysphoria Normal-Not Trans


 Butch lesbians have been dealing forever with BGS dysphoria, our Butch Shame informs it and our society insures we develop Butch Shame. Until about four decades ago, most Butch lesbians worked through their BGS dysphoria, usually a combination of us maturing along with us coupling with Femme lovers. We've all heard about the "stone butch" and the Femmes who "melt the stone". Meaning a Butch lesbian whose body shame was so great, her insecurity about her body and sexuality so strong, she panicked or froze or pushed away her lovers hands or mouths. And the kind, loving, patient Femme who let her Butch know that being made love could never unbutch her lover, and that afterward nothing would change except how close they became, the Butch is still the Butch and the Femme is still the Femme.

As the medical community began to believe it could "cure" homosexuality through heterosexualizing gay men(men they thought were gay) through transition, it was only a matter of time lesbians would become their next target for sex change, making them "normal"  (heterosexual) too through transition. Among those early females who were transitioned, most were primarily Butch lesbians. Women who the medical community ignorantly believed had all the "classic signs" of being born in the wrong body. (as if-I know) The classic signs being, interest and comfort in things associated more with male than female, from clothes, to friends to play.

As the option of transition became more well known, postmodernism birthed "queer theory" and more and more dykes, dykes who dreamed of being Butch, began to transition. They too claimed to have had all the classic signs that put them in line for transition. They were and remain the primary number of females who seek transition as an answer to their troubled minds. 


Now, forty plus years after the womens movement, with the backlash against feminism coupled firmly with queer theorist, queer peoples and queer supporters fluidly spreading their semen stain across college campus's globally till todays female youths options have shrunk to either hyper-femininity, hyper-sexuality or bust, now more and more female youths are turning to transition as the only god in their starless skies.

There is one thing all these different types of females have in common, it is something we have in common with nearly all women, only most of us dont realize it. I whose only close relationships growing up were with males wouldnt understand this till I was well into my 20's and began dating and forming friendships with women. What I learned from women is that we all in our own way suffer from some form, some degree, at some time, feelings of hating or being uncomfortable in our bodies, feelings that would have us think our bodies are "wrong". We're made to believe before we even have the ability to speak, to form a sentence, that our bodies are inferior to male bodies. We're made to believe that our bodies are something to be ashamed of.

We're reminded everyday to hate our bodies, to feel ashamed, while just writing this post I heard in the background, no less than half a dozen tv commercials regarding weight loss specified towards females only and a few commercials geared around the smell of our vaginas which man has taught us is unnatural and stinky. I've seen women try to laugh off in the company of men the horrible jokes about our bodies such as men joking "I never trust an animal that can bleed for 7 days and live", hardy fucking har har. With all the blatant and subtle messages informing females how gross, how fat, how smelly, how weak, how unnatural our bodies are, how could we fail not to have body issues, body shame, body/gender dysphoria?


Most females through our super female strength, that inner strength that only females posses, most of us endure, we work though our body shame and all the different area that that shame colours. It takes time, maturity and us learning to love ourselves.


If you are female, and you have suffered from any form of BGSD, you unfortunately, are normal. Sadly these unfortunate normal feelings that females develop from growing/living in femalephobic societies have been misconstrued by the money making male medical machine. In a world where man is god and male doctors are GOD, and women are shit, strangely he cannot fathom why (unless something was inherently wrong with her) that a female would feel uncomfortable or wrong in her own body. The male medical machine thus has deduced that BGSD is a sure sign that the female in question is "trans".


If you are female and uncomfortable in your body, feel your body is somehow wrong, feel ashamed to let a lover make love to you, hate your hips or breast or ass or scrawny arms etc, this isnt a sign you are trans, it is a clear sign that you are NOT trans. 



If trans wasnt created in a lab, if trans wasnt about correcting something wrong and if one were actually "born" trans, there would be no dysphoria. There may be feelings of feeling different, like when one is right handed and tries to write with their left hand, it doesnt feel wrong, it feels not quite right. It is something that with a little practice one easily adapts, there isnt any feelings of dysphoria or wrongness about the body, only a feeling a difference. Knowing one is different, living and being proud of that difference, if one were born trans, thats what it would be like.


Dysphoria isnt something that can be corrected surfacely, it isnt something one can take a pill or get an injection or cut off or add on to "cure". Dysphoria isnt skin deep, its at our core because it began when our core was being formed. If you seek transition because you feel dysphoric in your body or around certain parts of your body, you arent truly trans, you are truly female.

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Poll Question Discussion


I've created a 24 hour poll which is located on the top right of the blog. If you would like to discuss the poll question "Has anything you've read on this blog changed how you feel about transition"- further, you may do so here.



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Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Top Surgery and the distorted vision of the Trans Eye

I, like many of you, view "top surgery" as the misogynistic mutilative butchery that it is, but if you have viewed any female bodied person posting pictures or videos of their "top surgery" regardless of the worst possible scenario, what we find in the comments section by both transmen and soon to be transmen is blind support. Its a combination of comments such as "your chest looks great bro" or "Love your chest man, can wait to get mine done". These distorted pro responses do two things, they reinforce the decision of the one who had the "top surgery" and they encourage those who havent had or are unsure to get "top surgery".


Like others who have BDD's the trans sufferers inner eye doesnt coincide with the reality of what is actually being viewed. This inner image is very much in the same vien of the inner eye of the anorexic and begins very similarly. The anorexic starts off just wanting to lose a few pounds, she does, and those around her respond with praise and positive messages. She hears "you've lost weight, you look so good" or "god I wish I could lose weight like you, you look great". This positivity urges her on, she looks to the web to help her continue her weight decline, she finds pictures and videos on pro-ana sites where she over doses on extreme ideas of thinness to the point her inner eye can no longer recognize healthy weight from near death weight. All the comments on the pictures of adult bodied young women weighing 73 pounds or 67 pounds are supportive and positive.  These skeletal figures become bodies to emulate, anything less, equals fat and fat equals in her mind, bad. Even after young women reach these deadly weight, they look in the mirror and still see that they have fat on their carcasses.

When we immerse ourselves with (negative) images, bombard our mind over and over and over again, we can literally corrupt the minds eye to the point that what is seen pales to the reality of what is. Like anorexics who glut themselves on the images of skeletons till that picture of death becomes normal to them. We see this too in the trans trenders and other transmen who binge on "top surgery" pictures and videos till the mutilated scared chests of the female body become "normal", therefore something to strive for and seek out.

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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Topics Tuesday-The "Queer" Alphabet Soup Mix


Someone recently suggested I start a "topics tuesday", using a Mondays post for topic suggestions, then picking one for tuesday. I choose one to begin, then going forward, I will look to you for suggestions on Mondays.



Today's topic is the "Queer Alphabet Soup Mix". What are your opinions of the never ending additions to the "queer alphabet soup mix"? Has it gone too far? Not far enough? Has the additions to the Gay and Lesbian community pushed gay and lesbian rights forward or backward? Have lesbians been buried alive within the "queer mix"? As a gay or a lesbian, how do you feel about the co-option of "queer" by fringe groups, many of which are not gay or lesbian? Should gays and lesbians remove ourselves from the "queer mix"? Does the "queer mix" have our (gays and lesbians) best interests in mind or have us in mind at all?


Feel free to discuss the "queer alphabet soup mix" however you like, the above are merely some suggestions.

If your comment is not related to the chosen topic, it will be deleted.

dirt

Monday, November 15, 2010