Saturday, November 6, 2010

Open Day is now Closed Day


A heads up to readers who may not have read my last comment on yesterday's Open day. Due to the trollish elements that immaturely felt the need to abandon or out right ignore reasonable discussion and piss all over Open Day, I will no longer have a day that does not have moderated comments. I do not blame transmen for this, nor the trans trender kids who posted idiotic comments, I can deal with a differing opinion, I can even deal with empty comments by trans youth. But I will not tolerate comments made but privileged bio-males aimed strictly at creating drama or comments that outright lie in order to make a point. For instance, the "ftmdad" I have ascertained is actually an Mtf who from what I've been able to find out, has no children. Clearly this man was there for drama mongering only, but he was just one of many bio-males drama-mongering.


If transmen have an issue with the closing of Open Day, I suggest you confront the bio-men in your community, you have them to thank.

If their are mothers, lesbians of all flavours, feminist, queer females, trans youth or transmen who would like to have Fridays as a closed, moderated discussion day, let me know. If enough folks show an interest on this post then Fridays will continue as a place of discussion and occasional controlled ventings. And just to clarify, while comments will be moderated, so long as they are in the spirit of discussion whether I agree or not, they will be released.

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Friday, November 5, 2010

Dirt's Comment Open Day


Please, no spam! And if we could all keep the insults to a minimum that would be great. We can feel passionately about things and still keep our heads when discussing them. If you feel you cant, then please do not comment till you step away from your computer for a bit. In other words, count to ten before commenting.



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Thursday, November 4, 2010

When Lesbians Lose a Lover to Transition

This poignant comment was left a few days ago and I didnt want to see it get lost in the mix. And to the lesbian who wrote the comment I will write more about the pain and suffering loved ones go through when women murder their femaleness through transition. And if you ever need to talk one on one, I'm here.

If anyone reading would like to share their personal story of losing a loved one to transition, you can email me at dirtywhiteboi67@yahoo.com. I think it would benefit not only those who have went through similar experiences with a loved one, in knowing they are not alone, BUT equally important it would benefit those on the fence about transition, because you KNOW personally that transition isnt merely a physical change, but that testosterone also changes the brain and personality to the point the person you knew and loved isnt found anywhere, outside or in.

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Edit to add for the reading/comprehension impaired: This is a space to validate and empathize with specifically lesbians who have lost a lover to transition and secondarily a space for anyone else who has lost someone to transition to be heard. If you do not have that experience or empathizing words for those who do, do not waste your time commenting, your comment will simply be deleted.

Transmen, the Trans Community and Rape

There is one main issue that has come out of this recent trans trenders frenzy over my blog. The seething anger and sheer hatred this community or at least those representing the trans community hold towards women and specifically lesbians, anger and hatred that has now become very public, in the form of comments, blog posts and videos.

While a certain portion has been made towards me specifically, the threats of rape, since we live in a rape culture, where one in over a million females REPORT a rape every year in the US alone, and it is estimated that unreported rapes are twice that number. But when we live in a rape culture, one threat of rape against one woman surpasses that individual woman and threaten all women, because rape is a fear and reality of all women, everywhere in the world. When one person says "someone should fucking rape you, you fucking bitch, cunt, whore", they are in fact by what rape cultural is, is saying that ALL women should be raped.

How divorced could this group be from their very much still rapable female bodies that they are either advocating rape or supporting those making rape threats? I dont care how much of a "man" you are as a transman, but I assure you if some guy is violently shoving his cock repeatedly into your vagina against your will, you arent going to experience that rape as a man would. You will however be brought back to the female body you still possess and experience that rape just like any other woman. I dont know if this is how the majority of the ftM community feels, but right now I have yet to see a single post, comment or video admonishing those advocating rape(the exceptions being here by made by a few). The silence reads to me like the majority of transmen think that rape and rape threats are no longer their problem because they are "men" now and rape is problem of women.

 I did receive comment after comment and email after email about how I'm suppose to be "accepting" and "understanding" of transmen because I'm a Butch lesbian and we're all in this together, well if RAPE and ADVOCATING RAPE and RAPE THREATS are your idea of "togetherness", I'll tell you like I would any man, go fuck yourself! If I am "suppose to know better" because I'm a "lesbian", than why is it that transmen arent supposed to "know better" as female bodied "men" that RAPE is no idle fucking joke???? Sexism much???

Someone commented yesterday that the T needs to be removed from the GLB, if had any doubts about that before, I no longer do now!

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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

William Blake's America, 2010 and Trans Youth


Read this article this morning and wanted to share it with you all, as I feel much of it and Blake of course, IS pertinent, even to us/this blog, and our discussions on the matters at hand.


From the article:


What does it mean, from Blake's perspective, to be mentally imprisoned? It means, among other things, that you see the world from your own private perspective. You look out for your own advantage. You pursue your own success. You hog and hoard. You've entered the state that Blake calls the state of Selfhood, which is individualist, reductive, and isolating.
You think that affirming Selfhood will get you what you want in the world—the Self is a radical pragmatist. But all the state of Selfhood does is to cut you off from the possibility of a better life. The ascendancy of Selfhood isolates you from other humans. Selfhood destroys the drive for community and solidarity. It makes you lonely, frustrated, and angry—on your face come "marks of weakness, marks of woe."

And this is exactly what I see befouling this new trans generation/trans trenders which is solely created and promoted by the advent of the internet. A form of technological consumeristic communication which promised global community but as of yet has only born clique (trans) communities where (trans) folks congregate and drown in their own individual narcissistic loneliness's together. A narcissism made lonely by both the nature of individual narcissism itself and the isolating demands from a shade ridden community that cannot see the forest for the trees blocking all the light.

Paul Celan's short poem Threadsuns reads in full: Thread suns/above the grey-black wilderness./a tree-/high thought/tunes in to light's pitch: there are/still songs to be sung on the other side/of mankind. There is an assortment of circumstance that can happen where an individual or community finds itself lost in the forest with thick tree coverings obscuring the lone sun, but what are we to make of that individual or community that shuns and even attacks the woodcutter or the person like me or you who dares to "thread suns/above the grey-black wilderness"?


Moving on, from the article: Blake suggests that if you want to understand the moral state of a country, you had better check first and see how it deals with its children. Does it treat them with loving kindness, or does it exploit them? What is the moral state of the medical "country" who deal with "trans acting" children/young people? How is it dealing with them? Are trans identified/labeled youths being exploited by the medical community? What is the moral state of the trans community dealing with "trans acting" or trans identified youths? How is the trans community dealing with them? Does the trans community exploit "trans acting"/identified youths for its own trans affirmations? If you read this blog, you already know the answer to all those questions.

More from the article: Blake, the High Romantic...A High Romantic, one might say, is someone who believes passionately in the idea that by joining, sexually and spiritually, with the beloved, one can be transformed into a higher, better version of oneself and help to transform the beloved as well. Blake believed this literally...What is the condition of the erotic life that Blake sees around him in London? It has gone over to prostitution—the whore and the john dominate Blake's vision. For Blake, sex is a sacred matter: It's at the heart of the ceremony of fusion between one human spirit and another. To make of sex something that is bought and sold is to give over to the Selfhood something that rightfully belongs to the Soul....The fruit of prostitution is disease, both physical and spiritual. The "youthful Harlot's curse / Blasts the new born Infant's tear / And blights with plagues the Marriage hearse." The infant inherits syphilis from his mother; the bride from her husband, who has been consorting with the harlot. And along with this physical decay comes spiritual sickness....Love for sale! That is perhaps the greatest oxymoron. Love is never for sale, but sex always has been and will be. The Internet is probably the greatest market for sex without love that has ever existed. Hunger for pornography epitomizes the erotic life of the Selfhood in its current state. Porn is exciting, isolating, and attractive. It uncouples physical desire from the desire of the spirit, denying the very existence of the latter. Someone addicted to porn is someone who has given up on the possibility of a transforming love. Such a love involves risk—the risk of rejection, the risk of shame.

I, like Blake, would also consider myself a "High Romantic", but I dont limit myself to strictly occupying a High Romantic belief with a lover only, transformative connections can be made with friends also. I agree with the author of the article, the internet for many has severed the head from the heart (body) and nowhere is this more profound and apparent than in "queer"/trans spaces whose whole ideology is founded on the mind/body split first and second a rejoining the mind/body through transition! Transforming ourselves spiritually (mind) and through High Romantic connections is how we truly transform our earthly selves (how we feel in our body), it isnt the other way 'round. But the isolating individualistic narcissism that the trans identified and the trans community are so entrenched in doesn't leave any doors open where transforming the self/body through the spiritual is even a possibility. Where does a closed door leave a confused, questioning youth, regardless of which side of the door they are on?



Lastly from the article: Jesus said that it was a better thing to put a millstone around your neck and fling yourself into the abyss than to harm a child. Which reminds me of a Dostoevsky character when he said "and if the suffering of children goes to swell the sum of suffering that was necessary to pay for truth, then I protest, that truth, is not worth such a price"!

You have seen the "suffering of children" here, scarred youths, unhappy, afraid, angry, insecure, confused and a community both medical and trans, who selfishly exploit every scar, every unhappiness, every fear, every anger, every insecurity and every fucking confusion, a "sum of suffering" that in the long run the only ones paying for it will be the children themselves while the pink elephant Truth, stands silently, due to the gag in its mouth, in the corner.

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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

An EXTRA Dirt Open Day

In light of so many feeling the need to vent here, I will open up this post for comments. I do ask that you do not spam and even if you are feeling really angry at me or what I post, please think about what you write before you set your thoughts/feelings down.

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PS Can those commenting PLEASE use at least a letter or a symbol for your name in order to make it easier for me/folks to respond to each other.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

This Weekend's Who is Transitioning






















All the females pictured here are in various states of "transition", from pre-op/pre-T to post op/post T. All are also under the age of 25, therefore none of their prefrontal lobes were fully formed when they decided they were "trans". Prefrontal lobes are responsible for decision making, "It is believed that at least some of the human abilities to feel guilt or remorse, and to interpret reality, lie in the prefrontal cortex". 

There are no studies or studies in the works that measure how such a powerful hormone such as testosterone will affect the immature still growing brains of females who take "T".

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