Thursday, September 9, 2010
Testerosterone doesnt change Body Dysphoria
This video was sent earlier to me in an email, (see video here) it is a video made by one of the trans(men) that made a recent video gripe about me/my blog. It is clear from this particular video why s/he was so upset at my posts. Because my posts spoke to her fears and insecurities, fears and insecurities that testosterone hasn't erased and for which more often times than not only increase body/gender dysphoria in the patient when the result do not match the delusional expectation. I suspect my posts also spoke to the beginnings of her male attraction, which is seen in so many many lesbians who transition through the use of testosterone.
Also, check out her earlier videos before "T" and then tell me this young T female doesnt hate herself/her body.
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FTM Transmen on "T" (testosterone)
Warning Explicit links, click at your own risk if over 18, if under do not click.
Someone linked this site a few days back, haven't had much time to give it the once over until today and trust me, once was all I could stomach. I do not believe all ftM's resort to pornography after injecting "T", I do believe however that "T" was a PRIME factor in making pornographers out of the "T" females you see here.
Click here and here for a small sample of just what testosterone can do to a woman.
Make note of the amount of vids concentrated on their clitorises, I dont know if it is more pathetic than horrible that through their warped body image they're under the delusion their clitorises are something other than average clitoris (which comes in all shapes and sizes naturally). Perhaps those in these vids are hetero females and not familiar with clitorises other than their own. Distorted body image either way.
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Someone linked this site a few days back, haven't had much time to give it the once over until today and trust me, once was all I could stomach. I do not believe all ftM's resort to pornography after injecting "T", I do believe however that "T" was a PRIME factor in making pornographers out of the "T" females you see here.
Click here and here for a small sample of just what testosterone can do to a woman.
Make note of the amount of vids concentrated on their clitorises, I dont know if it is more pathetic than horrible that through their warped body image they're under the delusion their clitorises are something other than average clitoris (which comes in all shapes and sizes naturally). Perhaps those in these vids are hetero females and not familiar with clitorises other than their own. Distorted body image either way.
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Wednesday, September 8, 2010
STOP TRANS PATHOLOGIZATION 2012
TGEU supports the "Stop Trans Pathologization 2012"-campaign of the Trans Depathologization-Network.
Looks like the movement to have GID removed from the DSM in 2013 by the trans community worldwide is moving forward. While many of you, like me, know and understand that the trans disorder is just that (a disorder), until the medical community and the general public fully understand, this is an area we need to support the trans community in.
The removal of GID from the DSM will stop the medical community from being able to diagnose GID, therefore relieve them being able to "treat" (issue drugs/surgeries) for it. This will also put a halt on those who are using national health care systems and medical insurance companies from maintaining the drugs they're on or surgeries scheduled at that time. This will also put a stop to the pathologizing of gender play in children that are being diagnosed with GID (as young as 3) and having a "transgender" label slapped on them for playing with "boy/girl" toys, most of which whom would never develop the disorder in the first place.
The removal of GID isnt going to stop men and women from developing a body dysmorphic disorder, it will however force the medical community to find alternative non medical ways of treating it, i.e. mentally.
I will keep you informed on these developments as I get them, please do the same.
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Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Gay Transmen and the "right" to be in Gay Male Spaces
This OKCupid gay trans(man) profile post was linked in a recent comment. (note: she list herself as "bisexual")
This trans attitude is the same attitude lesbians have received from (bi) straight females since the B attached itself to the gay and lesbian movement. It is a privileged attitude demanding we (gays and lesbians) alter our lives, our loves, and our NATURAL attractions for others. And when we do not, when we declare, celebrate and shout at the tops of our proud lungs, we love gay men or we love lesbians, the trans community's first reaction is to call us TRANSPHOBIC because our attractions and loves do not include them! And why would it? Would I suddenly be attracted to a man whose penis was torn off in an accident? Of course not, because he isnt the sum of his parts, he is the sum of his nature, his womb developed born nature!
And there isnt any accident, any drugs, and cosmetic surgeries or any amount of make up and heels that's going to change that! Having a gay brother and a gay best friend, I cant tell you right now, as gay men they do not have a problem with men with small penis's, they do however have a problem dating FEMALES! They will fuck a female in desperate times, but they arent going to fall madly in love with one, regardless of her superficial masculine state and they certainly arent going to desire spending the rest of their gay lives with a female. Again, that doesnt make them "transphobic", what it makes them is GAY!
How fucking dare this person demand "respect" from the gay community when she clearly does not respect the gay community herself!!!!!!! Utter BULLSHIT! And the trans community can come on here and say "well that just one persons view", but as someone whose VERY familiar with what goes on and gets said behind the trans fence, this one trans(man) is a drop in the gay trans(male) bucket regarding their attitude and disrespect of the gay and lesbian community!
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Monday, September 6, 2010
FTM Feeling MORE Depressed After T
Received in an email this morning, not sure where the comment is from. That being said, I am seeing/hearing more and more of these sentiments lately from "trans" persons, not surprisingly I might add. This is what happens when an ignorant narrow minded medical establishment treats mental issues with man made hormones that have no long term studies and bodies/minds not naturally designed for the large dosage of the man made hormones being taken.
Man made hormones and/or body mutilations do NOT cure body dysphoria! Early on the patient may feel the dysphoria ease, but thats a pseudo comfort felt from the "trans high" the patient gets from early changes. Once those changes slow/cease, the dysphoria returns sometimes to a less degree, often times to a greater degree when reality sets in. The reality that "sex change" is an idea, NOT anything real that one can hang ones coat upon.
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Sunday, September 5, 2010
A Quick Note on Showering and Intimacy
Today was the first day in a while that I've showered alone. Growing up Butch I never dreamed a point would be reached with my body that I would even undress in front of another woman, let alone enjoy showering with her twice a day.
Like nearly every woman, we Butches ingest all the female hatred patriarchy has to offer, till our bellies are plum full of it. But unlike most women, we don't just let it sit there festering in our belly's bile, we Butches instead digest that female hatred clean through our digestive systems till its been shat out. But rather than flush that putrid female hatred down the toilet where it belong, we Butches reach both hands into the bowl, fill our fist full, then smear ourselves with the stink of it, then hate ourselves after for what we presume to be our foulness.
Showering with a Femme lover for many Butches, becomes a way to wash that female shame and hatred from our bodies as well as a way to cleans our minds. It cuts through Butch shame like no other knife, whittling away at the female hatred we've swallowed long before we were old enough to know what was being fed to us. There is a beauty and an intimacy in showering with another woman that surely the only thing comparable was when we bathed in our mother's ocean. An ocean we were expelled from, then a beach we were expected to leave for "the love of men". But as lesbians, we're natural beach bums and as lesbians we've the chance to swim that lost ocean we once knew.
Thats what it feels like to me, that morning or evening shower with my sweetheart, it as close as close can get. As intimate as sex can be, sex is also distracting and distractions can fracture intimacy. Showering, washing each other, taking turns rinsing, brushing teeth, morning kisses, shaving, all the while utterly naked. A nakedness that is both physical and mental, especially for us Butches. Because we have no boxers or jeans or tshirts to hide behind and hide behind those things we often do, especially mentally. But naked, with your lover there naked with you? No where to run and no where to hide. But that nakedness doesnt feel like a burden to me, it feels like pure freedom, freedom that hetero-patriarchy tried to shame me out of. Freedom that love re-instills with every shared shower.
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Like nearly every woman, we Butches ingest all the female hatred patriarchy has to offer, till our bellies are plum full of it. But unlike most women, we don't just let it sit there festering in our belly's bile, we Butches instead digest that female hatred clean through our digestive systems till its been shat out. But rather than flush that putrid female hatred down the toilet where it belong, we Butches reach both hands into the bowl, fill our fist full, then smear ourselves with the stink of it, then hate ourselves after for what we presume to be our foulness.
Showering with a Femme lover for many Butches, becomes a way to wash that female shame and hatred from our bodies as well as a way to cleans our minds. It cuts through Butch shame like no other knife, whittling away at the female hatred we've swallowed long before we were old enough to know what was being fed to us. There is a beauty and an intimacy in showering with another woman that surely the only thing comparable was when we bathed in our mother's ocean. An ocean we were expelled from, then a beach we were expected to leave for "the love of men". But as lesbians, we're natural beach bums and as lesbians we've the chance to swim that lost ocean we once knew.
Thats what it feels like to me, that morning or evening shower with my sweetheart, it as close as close can get. As intimate as sex can be, sex is also distracting and distractions can fracture intimacy. Showering, washing each other, taking turns rinsing, brushing teeth, morning kisses, shaving, all the while utterly naked. A nakedness that is both physical and mental, especially for us Butches. Because we have no boxers or jeans or tshirts to hide behind and hide behind those things we often do, especially mentally. But naked, with your lover there naked with you? No where to run and no where to hide. But that nakedness doesnt feel like a burden to me, it feels like pure freedom, freedom that hetero-patriarchy tried to shame me out of. Freedom that love re-instills with every shared shower.
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