And I figured since everyone in this pic was either dead or in prison I should be okay with not having to worry about getting bit by the copyright bug!dirt
Saturday, August 2, 2008
an Old family pic
Denise was looking through her pictures the other day and came across this pic I didnt have that has my ma in it. Note my tiny thumbs, I dont think they have grown since then and I was about three there! I swear I barely made it past that whole evolutionary grasping fingers epoch!
And I figured since everyone in this pic was either dead or in prison I should be okay with not having to worry about getting bit by the copyright bug!
dirt
And I figured since everyone in this pic was either dead or in prison I should be okay with not having to worry about getting bit by the copyright bug!dirt
Friday, August 1, 2008
Look who got there LJ back! HA HA!
http://dirtywhiteboi.livejournal.com/439565.html#cutid1
Those bitches from BF.com thought they had the dirtster but you just cant keep a good REAL butch down, yanno!
dirt
Those bitches from BF.com thought they had the dirtster but you just cant keep a good REAL butch down, yanno!
dirt
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Juvey
Since I'm not sure when those fucklicks at livejournal are going to unsuspend my dirtywhiteboi account, I'll be using this one largely as my primary blogger, so that means I'll be posting regular shit here as well, deal with it!
Case in point, Rachel (whose 6 y/o) calls me the other day and wanted to know if she could come down and spend the day yesterday. For the non LJ readers, Rachel is my niece's, daughter's youngest kid. My other neice Denise, will have various kids who like to visit with their "aunt lynn", they spend the night with her and she brings them to her work where I pick them up, since her work is only about 20 minutes from me.
So I pick Rachel up yesterday morning and we go back to my house to hang for a while before we started our agenda which would consist of Leo's Dinner for lunch, the park, where half a dozen straight white bitches with kids gave me copious dirty looks then all left after 10 minutes of us being there cuz you KNOW there are just far too many butch lesbian pedophiles in the world and a mom just cant take that chance, then to Cold Stone for her an ice cream, then from there we walked back across the street to the coffee house so I could get a coffee cooler and we could both sit outside cuz she thinks its hot shit to sit outside, where we hung till I had to take her back to Denise.
At any rate before all that, some how we ended up talking about jail and prison, I tell her if she ever did something wrong like steal she'd end up in jail...and this is largely how the convo went from there:
Rachel: they cant put little kids in jail!
me: they have a jail for kids, its called JUVEY!
Rachel: for real?
me: seriously, I'm not kidding.
Rachel: you're lying!
me: I'm totally NOT lying! Ask your me-maw, she was in there once for two days!
Rachel: what'd she do?
me: stayed out too late.
me: the rooms there are really small too. All you get is a cot, 1 blanket and they only feed you 3 times a day and you only get water to drink and you cant have any snacks.
Rachel: whats a cot?
me: a really tiny bed thats sooo small your legs hang off.
Rachel: no gummy bears?
me: no a one!
me: and they only let you eat with a spoon. No knifes or forks.
Rachel: Why?
me: cuz the really bad kids might stab one of the other kids with a fork or knife.
Rachel: well how do they eat macaroni and cheese?????
me: you gotta spoon that shit!
Rachel: I wouldnt stab anyone with a fork.
me: it doesnt matter, you can still can only have a spoon.
Rachel: thats stupid! Thats not even fair! I hate Juvey!
Seriously, is the dirtster a fucking kick ass adult influence or what!
dirt
Case in point, Rachel (whose 6 y/o) calls me the other day and wanted to know if she could come down and spend the day yesterday. For the non LJ readers, Rachel is my niece's, daughter's youngest kid. My other neice Denise, will have various kids who like to visit with their "aunt lynn", they spend the night with her and she brings them to her work where I pick them up, since her work is only about 20 minutes from me.
So I pick Rachel up yesterday morning and we go back to my house to hang for a while before we started our agenda which would consist of Leo's Dinner for lunch, the park, where half a dozen straight white bitches with kids gave me copious dirty looks then all left after 10 minutes of us being there cuz you KNOW there are just far too many butch lesbian pedophiles in the world and a mom just cant take that chance, then to Cold Stone for her an ice cream, then from there we walked back across the street to the coffee house so I could get a coffee cooler and we could both sit outside cuz she thinks its hot shit to sit outside, where we hung till I had to take her back to Denise.
At any rate before all that, some how we ended up talking about jail and prison, I tell her if she ever did something wrong like steal she'd end up in jail...and this is largely how the convo went from there:
Rachel: they cant put little kids in jail!
me: they have a jail for kids, its called JUVEY!
Rachel: for real?
me: seriously, I'm not kidding.
Rachel: you're lying!
me: I'm totally NOT lying! Ask your me-maw, she was in there once for two days!
Rachel: what'd she do?
me: stayed out too late.
me: the rooms there are really small too. All you get is a cot, 1 blanket and they only feed you 3 times a day and you only get water to drink and you cant have any snacks.
Rachel: whats a cot?
me: a really tiny bed thats sooo small your legs hang off.
Rachel: no gummy bears?
me: no a one!
me: and they only let you eat with a spoon. No knifes or forks.
Rachel: Why?
me: cuz the really bad kids might stab one of the other kids with a fork or knife.
Rachel: well how do they eat macaroni and cheese?????
me: you gotta spoon that shit!
Rachel: I wouldnt stab anyone with a fork.
me: it doesnt matter, you can still can only have a spoon.
Rachel: thats stupid! Thats not even fair! I hate Juvey!
Seriously, is the dirtster a fucking kick ass adult influence or what!
dirt
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Femme, from where this butch stands
Femme, many claim it, few occupy it.
The many claiming this unique ID, are not unique themselves. But Femme IS unique, is unparalleled among women, so perhaps we can understand why sooooo many privileged women AND men would like to claim this remarkable jesus star as their own ID. AND thats where the waters get murky.
Femme isn't an identity, Femme isn't some haphazard descriptor for woman or for feminine to be used willy-nilly by the ignorant or the privileged when the mood strikes their fancy! Femme isn't femme, they both may resemble each other to the mirror, but as humans our eyes see all the mirror hides in its bare reflections. I could write a small book on what Femme isn't, I choose instead to write about the beautiful finite that Femme is.
Femme in its simplest flat paper form is a feminine born female lesbian whose primary attractions are to masculine born female lesbians. But flat one dimensional paper definitions lack in depth and volume and certainly we cannot say that of Femme!
Femme is anything but flat or one dimensional, she is nature in all its forms. She didnt choose this life, she became it, naturally, cell by cell, finger by finger, before her lungs ever took their first breath.
She is nature pure in its totality; Femme is a single blade of grass, Femme is every grass blade filling a wild field, Femme is a sweet fresh peach ready to be plucked and eaten, Femme is a fallen leaf lending herself to enrich the fertile soil. Femme is also the angry tornado destroying, rearranging and obliterating everything in her path; Femme is the hurricane threat we all board up our windows and worry in fear from, Femme is the earths plates shifting in their stance, propelling a mass of energy ripping through the earths crust shaking us to our very core, Femme is the raging, blazing forest fire incandescing us with her red hot licks.
And Femme nature coupled with with Butch nature, isn't some awkward teenage "dance" in a smelly gymnasium, but a collision of atoms creating the Big Bang each and every time our bodies meet. And while her primary romantic attraction is to Butch, she is Femme with or without us. Femme is Femme alone!
She is the feminine outcast of all women. Her existence is a big FUCK YOU in face of patriarchy. Her femininity isn't a whoring performance for the male gaze, her femininity has a natural legitimacy, with lipstick or without! She has broken every chain men have tried to shackle her with. And each time she has broken free she ran as fast as her legs could carry her, back to woman, be that woman herself or the arms of her Butch woman! For this she remains an enigma to patriarchy, for this, she is loved by Femme and Butch alike!
The dollar sign on the forehead of femininity once caused her to loathe her own femininity, she has spent years trying to play it down, cover it up, donning baseball caps, flannel shirts and baggy jeans. In time she grew, matured and emerged from the costumed self she momentarily imprisoned herself in. She learned whether visibly invisible or invisibly invisible she not only OWNS her femininity, she IS her femininity and that's something a price-tag cannot be attached to.
Femme is proudly feminine, despite her invisibility, despite having to out herself with frequent regularity, she occasionally catches the approving nod of another Femme or the bashful eye of lonely Butch and that makes her smile.
Femme, many claim it, few occupy it. I for one am grateful for those that do.
dirt
The many claiming this unique ID, are not unique themselves. But Femme IS unique, is unparalleled among women, so perhaps we can understand why sooooo many privileged women AND men would like to claim this remarkable jesus star as their own ID. AND thats where the waters get murky.
Femme isn't an identity, Femme isn't some haphazard descriptor for woman or for feminine to be used willy-nilly by the ignorant or the privileged when the mood strikes their fancy! Femme isn't femme, they both may resemble each other to the mirror, but as humans our eyes see all the mirror hides in its bare reflections. I could write a small book on what Femme isn't, I choose instead to write about the beautiful finite that Femme is.
Femme in its simplest flat paper form is a feminine born female lesbian whose primary attractions are to masculine born female lesbians. But flat one dimensional paper definitions lack in depth and volume and certainly we cannot say that of Femme!
Femme is anything but flat or one dimensional, she is nature in all its forms. She didnt choose this life, she became it, naturally, cell by cell, finger by finger, before her lungs ever took their first breath.
She is nature pure in its totality; Femme is a single blade of grass, Femme is every grass blade filling a wild field, Femme is a sweet fresh peach ready to be plucked and eaten, Femme is a fallen leaf lending herself to enrich the fertile soil. Femme is also the angry tornado destroying, rearranging and obliterating everything in her path; Femme is the hurricane threat we all board up our windows and worry in fear from, Femme is the earths plates shifting in their stance, propelling a mass of energy ripping through the earths crust shaking us to our very core, Femme is the raging, blazing forest fire incandescing us with her red hot licks.
And Femme nature coupled with with Butch nature, isn't some awkward teenage "dance" in a smelly gymnasium, but a collision of atoms creating the Big Bang each and every time our bodies meet. And while her primary romantic attraction is to Butch, she is Femme with or without us. Femme is Femme alone!
She is the feminine outcast of all women. Her existence is a big FUCK YOU in face of patriarchy. Her femininity isn't a whoring performance for the male gaze, her femininity has a natural legitimacy, with lipstick or without! She has broken every chain men have tried to shackle her with. And each time she has broken free she ran as fast as her legs could carry her, back to woman, be that woman herself or the arms of her Butch woman! For this she remains an enigma to patriarchy, for this, she is loved by Femme and Butch alike!
The dollar sign on the forehead of femininity once caused her to loathe her own femininity, she has spent years trying to play it down, cover it up, donning baseball caps, flannel shirts and baggy jeans. In time she grew, matured and emerged from the costumed self she momentarily imprisoned herself in. She learned whether visibly invisible or invisibly invisible she not only OWNS her femininity, she IS her femininity and that's something a price-tag cannot be attached to.
Femme is proudly feminine, despite her invisibility, despite having to out herself with frequent regularity, she occasionally catches the approving nod of another Femme or the bashful eye of lonely Butch and that makes her smile.
Femme, many claim it, few occupy it. I for one am grateful for those that do.
dirt
Monday, July 28, 2008
dissociative disorder, BDD and a fucked up ME who doesnt give a fuck!
There exists dozens of "trans-multiple" communities all over the net with literally thousands of members. I say this to specify this woman's experience and "treatment" by the ME isnt some strange happenstance, it is if anything chillingly routine!
Men and women suffering from the dissociative disorder who reveal an "opposite" sexed personality are often then being labeled with the added diagnoses of (BDD/GID)trannyism and "treated" accordingly with drugs and mutilation.
The mentally ill (especially women) have ALWAYS been the largest group most exploited by the ME. As far as we've come in the last century and a half, this is an area that little has changed in the ME. If anything its carelessness and exploitation of the mentally ill have increased with the ME's consumeristic advances, more crazies equals more money, better vacations, larger houses.
The fact that some sufferers of the DD are being "treated" for the trannyism disorder (TD) as well clearly indicates the ME doesnt even take trannyism seriously. One merely has to claim to being "born in the wrong body" or having one of one's personalities being opposite sexed and bing, bang, boom, you're a tranny now make me rich with this lifetime script and make sure to have some MAJOR surgeries cuz they pay better!
Whether we like it or not, the ME has become a billion dollar corporate business and the big wigs running that business arent going to change their treatment of a small portion of mentally ill folks who are helping them to make their numbers and keep stock holders rich and happy. And the mentally disordered trannys who are suffering from a major mental disorder do not have the presence of mind to change the course which in their mind they believe they were "born" to be on.
That leaves us, the people, the general public; to think, question and demand fair and proper treatment of those not in a place to demand that proper treatment themselves! For people are not born in the wrong body, people are born in the wrong society!
dirt
Men and women suffering from the dissociative disorder who reveal an "opposite" sexed personality are often then being labeled with the added diagnoses of (BDD/GID)trannyism and "treated" accordingly with drugs and mutilation.
The mentally ill (especially women) have ALWAYS been the largest group most exploited by the ME. As far as we've come in the last century and a half, this is an area that little has changed in the ME. If anything its carelessness and exploitation of the mentally ill have increased with the ME's consumeristic advances, more crazies equals more money, better vacations, larger houses.
The fact that some sufferers of the DD are being "treated" for the trannyism disorder (TD) as well clearly indicates the ME doesnt even take trannyism seriously. One merely has to claim to being "born in the wrong body" or having one of one's personalities being opposite sexed and bing, bang, boom, you're a tranny now make me rich with this lifetime script and make sure to have some MAJOR surgeries cuz they pay better!
Whether we like it or not, the ME has become a billion dollar corporate business and the big wigs running that business arent going to change their treatment of a small portion of mentally ill folks who are helping them to make their numbers and keep stock holders rich and happy. And the mentally disordered trannys who are suffering from a major mental disorder do not have the presence of mind to change the course which in their mind they believe they were "born" to be on.
That leaves us, the people, the general public; to think, question and demand fair and proper treatment of those not in a place to demand that proper treatment themselves! For people are not born in the wrong body, people are born in the wrong society!
dirt
Mich Fest, male privilege, lezbophobia and women hating women
Ah Mich fest, it either inspires happiness or hatred. I ran across these couple of threads this morning while seeing whats up at straightpeopleactingbutchfemme.com.
(edit to add-you will now need a login at this site to read these links because they do not want lesbians reading how lezbophobic they are-email me if you cannot get a login I still have several-I've made several FAIR USE caps to highlight both links for those not interested in getting logins)
http://www.diigo.com/annotated/995e10bea22c0a6661b2e2d7a6d19944
http://www.diigo.com/annotated/b23ca81593e223d9b4f1fe1923a0a86c
Caps from the first link...
Afew caps from the second link...
Its fucking amazing 30+ years on Mich fest still has to defend its right to preserve a space one paltry week out of the fucking year for women/lesbians only.
I dont know what I find more nauseating, the disordered men who seem shocked there exist spaces their male privilege doesnt give them complete access and a backstage pass to, or the privileged straight women who disguise their fucking lezbophobia by claiming they wont go because the menz arent allowed in!
Equally loathsome in this case is both parties are spewing their misogynistic bile from the occupancy of LESBIAN web space, since this site misleadingly claims to being a butch/femme site as their name (butchfemmedance) implies! Yet even if we combine every comment between these two posts, last I checked out of 27 total comments only 2 of the commentors were actual lesbian women! INCREDIBLE!
THIS is why it is SO important to have lesbian spaces and to diligently fight to maintain those spaces with fierceness as well as stringency! Lesbian net spaces have already become eroded since their invasion by straight privileged women, many whom are married. Invaded by women who "love" women because they love their men and their men "love" them "loving" women, especially for their viewing/masturbatory pleasures.
Lesbian sites all over the net are brim filled with non lesbians, with lesbians fucking taking it, and fucking taking it either sitting down or ignorantly holding open fucking doors or handing out fucking keys! Have we become so conditioned by the patriarchy to play nice we're going to lay ourselves down naked, legs spread and let our spaces be raped and fucked over by any passers by who claims to be a fucking "queer"???
In the last ten years this trend has even spilled over into butch/femme areas! Which as a very small sub community of the larger lesbian community has nearly been erased due to the influx of non butch/non femme men and women squatters. Butch/femme spaces everywhere net and RT alike are now occupied predominantly by disordered males, disordered females, damaged straight women masquerading as femme, softball dykes masquerading as butches and only a slight dusting of actual butch/femme lesbians.
Mich Fest fortunately still remains a small space for lesbians and a larger space for womankind, lets keep it that way, and use it as the inspiration it is to reclaim the oceans of ground we've let slip from our capable fingers.
dirt
ps mouse over blue highlights for dirt comments.
(edit to add-you will now need a login at this site to read these links because they do not want lesbians reading how lezbophobic they are-email me if you cannot get a login I still have several-I've made several FAIR USE caps to highlight both links for those not interested in getting logins)
http://www.diigo.com/annotated/995e10bea22c0a6661b2e2d7a6d19944
http://www.diigo.com/annotated/b23ca81593e223d9b4f1fe1923a0a86c
Caps from the first link...
Afew caps from the second link...
Its fucking amazing 30+ years on Mich fest still has to defend its right to preserve a space one paltry week out of the fucking year for women/lesbians only.
I dont know what I find more nauseating, the disordered men who seem shocked there exist spaces their male privilege doesnt give them complete access and a backstage pass to, or the privileged straight women who disguise their fucking lezbophobia by claiming they wont go because the menz arent allowed in!
Equally loathsome in this case is both parties are spewing their misogynistic bile from the occupancy of LESBIAN web space, since this site misleadingly claims to being a butch/femme site as their name (butchfemmedance) implies! Yet even if we combine every comment between these two posts, last I checked out of 27 total comments only 2 of the commentors were actual lesbian women! INCREDIBLE!
THIS is why it is SO important to have lesbian spaces and to diligently fight to maintain those spaces with fierceness as well as stringency! Lesbian net spaces have already become eroded since their invasion by straight privileged women, many whom are married. Invaded by women who "love" women because they love their men and their men "love" them "loving" women, especially for their viewing/masturbatory pleasures.
Lesbian sites all over the net are brim filled with non lesbians, with lesbians fucking taking it, and fucking taking it either sitting down or ignorantly holding open fucking doors or handing out fucking keys! Have we become so conditioned by the patriarchy to play nice we're going to lay ourselves down naked, legs spread and let our spaces be raped and fucked over by any passers by who claims to be a fucking "queer"???
In the last ten years this trend has even spilled over into butch/femme areas! Which as a very small sub community of the larger lesbian community has nearly been erased due to the influx of non butch/non femme men and women squatters. Butch/femme spaces everywhere net and RT alike are now occupied predominantly by disordered males, disordered females, damaged straight women masquerading as femme, softball dykes masquerading as butches and only a slight dusting of actual butch/femme lesbians.
Mich Fest fortunately still remains a small space for lesbians and a larger space for womankind, lets keep it that way, and use it as the inspiration it is to reclaim the oceans of ground we've let slip from our capable fingers.
dirt
ps mouse over blue highlights for dirt comments.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
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