Thursday, November 20, 2014

Trans Death Threats-THIS is your BRAIN on Testosterone

Ignorance, misogyny and hate.


Monday, November 17, 2014

Leslie Feinberg MURDERED

I recently posted about the very ill health of Leslie Feinberg in effort to start chronicling the demise of known, well known and once leading lesbians destroyed through/by transition, particularly the dangers and in Leslie's case mortal effects of short and long term testosterone use in females.

Leslie Feinberg is dead, murdered. But you wont hear that around the queer news water cooler, instead you will hear:

What you wont see published ANYWHERE except here is the fucking sick woman hating TRUTH! LESLIE FEINBERG WAS MURDERED!!!!

I wont grieve for the leslie feinberg in those news articles. I grieve for Diane Leslie Feinberg, Butch lesbian, whose fear and female shame never were resolved, seen through their worst so that she could later flower into full bloom, bringing every eye lain upon her Butch born beauty, to tears.

In a different life I could have been her, that thought frightens me down to the very marrow in my bones

In a different life, she could have been me, the thought that she for a myriad of reasons was never able to, angers me with such a rage only volcano's or oceans know.


Saturday, November 15, 2014

FTM Detransition and the Ugly Hidden Truths of Testosterone Use

These videos were emailed to me earlier in the week.

Detransition 1

Detransition 2

Brave videos documenting the drastic changes testosterone use creates for the female body AND brain.

Highlighted are:

  • Emotional disconnect from taking testosterone
  • Emotional deadness from taking testosterone
  • Emotional emptiness from taking testosterone
  • Suicidal thoughts from taking testosterone
  • Lack of empathy/compassion for others from taking testosterone
  • Heightened anger from taking testosterone
  • Rapid aging from taking testosterone
  • Inability to feel deeply from taking testosterone
  • Inability to FEEL beauty from taking testosterone
  • Inability to control anger/angry words from taking testosterone
  • Difficulty/inability to reach emotional heights/depths that lead to crying from taking testosterone
  • Loss of the core self from taking testosterone
  • Losing deep emotion without realizing losing it from taking testosterone
Testosterone doesnt merely hide femaleness, it kills it. And femaleness is much much more than, breasts, hips, wombs-it having the capacity to reach emotions mountains deep, yours, mine and ours.


Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Trans Nation-Gay/Lesbian Genocide and the Dangers of Political Correctness

Ironically while contemplating writing this post, an interesting thing happened at work. The office has a computer guy who comes in twice a week to deal with any computer/system issues. Thursday, they day he comes in, my computer decided to wig out straight away. He walked into the room right as I was having issues. He went to the managers desk and asked her how things were and she said something like "the lesbian's computer isnt working" while motioning to me. He looked at her and said her name in a tone of disapproval and reproach. She said "what?...she calls me a ho." To which I responded with "I do use 'my' in front of it."

For the sake of context, I work with all women, mostly black women, born, raised and living in the heart of Detroit and the manager who is middle eastern American-all of us pull-yourself-up-by-your-boot-straps working class gals. An average day consists of hearing THOT (that ho over there), nigger, lezbo, lezzie, lesbian, arab/rab, bitch, ho, husbitch and assorted other non PC words, all spoken to convey something specific or for sisterhood.

After the computer guy swapped out my computer and I was working, he came up after fixing something else and asked me very seriously "Are you okay?" I thought he was asking was the PC working properly. So he added "I'm really offended by what ______ said to you." "Its really bothering me." And it was obvious from the look on his face he wasnt kidding. I assured him we joke around with each other and I'm in no way offended. I actually was worried he might go to the company's owner and say something, so I totally stressed every thing was hunky dory. I later inform my manager just in case it escalated. While I did appreciate this man's concern, it raises issues I'll discuss further in this post, particularly part II.

Language is THE primary source of communication, not only with other people but also with ourselves. We think, reason and express ourselves with the gift of words. Language is so important, experts believe there to be an actual cut off with which to acquire language. There is interestingly a Darwinian survival of the fittest among languages. There are roughly 7,000 different languages today, with nearly half of those on the endangered language list and a great many more that are extinct already.

There are varying reasons languages go extinct, most reasons trace back to the colonization of one group over another. For example many Tribal Indian languages were replaced by English, French, Portuguese, Spanish, or Dutch. Along with Tribal Indian customs, language too was forbidden by whites to many Indian tribes. The odd poverty stricken reservation struggling to hold on to some semblance of past Indian culture is all that remains of the Indians in the US and Canada today. Tribal Indian (known better under the white liberal political (PC) correct dictatorship as Native Americans) colonization and co-option by white/Europeans (Americans) sadly is more the rule to why language/cultures disappear rather than the exception.

Along with eradicating a cultures language, dominant groups use language itself in the destruction of chosen groups. Language drained nearly dry of all meaning, then pumped full of artifice deceptively leading humans like lambs to a their slaughter. The Third Reich raised the bar on removing just enough meaning from words then smartly replacing the empty contents with with the blood of death itself. Suddenly words like liquidation, final solution, jewish question, Canada, selection, T4 etc held different meanings for the victims than they did the Nazis. That confusion helped Nazi Germany to systematically murder over 10 million humans.

Civil Rights activist Medgar Evers said "you can kill a man, but you cant kill an idea." Ideas are thought up, shared and enforced by language. Cultures can both be killed by the starvation of their language or killed with it. In the next part to this post I will discuss how Gay/Lesbian history, culture, dialects, sexuality, etc has been/is being colonized, co-opted, eradicated and replaced by the larger Queer sect and how PC Liberals are helping that process.


Monday, November 10, 2014

Femme Charms

Femme Charms.
They do their harm.
They smile, woo, then ruin.

Yours sing a different tune.

I'm not one to promise the moon.
How soon is soon?

Femme Charms.
Oh how Yours warms.
The warning bells are silent.

My ears deafen to the voices in lament.

Your heart reaches beyond my chest.
Your hand is stopped by each others flesh.

Femme Charms.
Will there be times you roll your eyes and throw up your arms?
Nobody knows.

We all deal differently with life's woes.

From their head tops to their toes.
Your Charms hold I find, not merely love-but hope.


Sunday, November 9, 2014

Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning


DT-Age 19

BS-Age 18

EA-Age 21

AD-Age 21

TS-Age 19

DA-Age 20

HJ-Age (young woman)

NDT-Age (youth)

No Butch lesbians were harmed in the making of this post.


Saturday, November 8, 2014

The Butch/Dyke Divide-Never the Twain Shall Meet-Nor Do They Have To

The Dyke population is not only the LARGEST population of lesbians in the world, they are also the most visible in both TV/Film/News and the general public/lesbian events. A few of the more popular examples of dyke:

Dykes range like the dyke collage above, from smart, attractive, sporty, intelligent, passionate, prideful, talented, musical to name but a few positives gracing dyke populations everywhere. For all intents and purposes our most well known dykes and many in our home dyke communities are something to aspire to. It has long been in admiration myself for many of these dykes that has long puzzled me in seeing so very many dykes through the years desperately trying to reach for some imagined attainable Butch-hood always beyond their reach. Not satisfied with their own uniqueness, dykes have a continued history of innocently mislabeling themselves as Butch or labeling themselves as Butch with Malice Aforethought.

I can remember as a baby Butch (pre internet) with hope in my heart trying to find any information I could about Butch lesbians after I had first heard the word and felt for the first time there were other girls like me. I can also remember the disappointment each time I hunted down a butch artist or actor or writer. Disappointed because their experiences, stories and lives outside of female attraction I shared nothing in common with. I can acutely recall after running across Lee Lynch's name, a "butch author writing about butch lives and loves." I couldnt wait to read her!

 Imagine my surprise (am I channeling Holly Near) and shock opening the two Lee Lynch novels I had purchased at my local Lesbian bookstore? (Yes, once upon a time not only did bookstores exist, so to did lesbian/feminist owned and operated ones.) But I digress, instead of a shiny mirror where I expected to see myself through other women like me, what I saw was a story of men and women where the men had been replaced by some unrecognizable thing called butch. The situations, actions, interactions and romances between the female characters mirrored that of straight society right down to the little ladies and darlins tossed from the lips of butches where they treated delicate femmes like China dolls.

This butch dyke world no matter what direction I looked, history/book/music/pridefest or sport, none reflected my Butch interior/exterior, life, loves or desires. Transitioning from the written word to the real only proved more troublesome. Dykes either looked straight through me, sir'd me or wanted to be "butch buddies." In the decades since I've learned that as a Butch my observations/experiences with dykes were the norm rather than the exception.

But it wasnt until the internet age that I realized just how prevalent dyke envy and their colonization of Butch identity was. I also realized how misconstrued, misunderstood and misconceived dykes were portraying Butch. The butch that dykes were acting out on the big screen of their lives resembled biological men more than they ever resembled Butch women. But worse than these gross caricatures of Butch by dykes using our name, were these B movie renditions of Butch sold to willing movie goers as Hollywood true stories!

But the REAL story is:
  • Butch lesbians do not look like men.
  • Butch lesbians do not act like men.
  • Butch lesbians do not want to be men.
  • Butch lesbians are not the most visible lesbians.
  • Butch and Femme lesbian relationships do not mimic male/female ones.
  • Butch lesbians arent men.
  • Femmes lesbians arent straight women.
  • Butch lesbians havent all transitioned.
  • Butch lesbians rarely transition.
  • Butch lesbians are maternal.
  • Butch lesbians make great homemakers.
  • Butch lesbians dont in the majority play softball.
  • Butch lesbians arent all mr fix its.
  • Butch lesbians cant all read maps.
  • Butch lesbians can and do cook.
  • Butch lesbians do not use male pronouns.
  • Butch lesbians have girl names.
  • Butch lesbians are invisible to straight AND lesbian society.
  • Butch lesbians are attracted to Femme lesbians.
  • Butch lesbians ALL suffered from/through body dysphoria.
  • Butch lesbians arent all protective.
  • Butch lesbians sometimes need protecting.
  • Butch lesbians arent always in control.
  • Butch lesbians in the majority shave unwanted body hair.
  • Butch lesbians do not wear mens clothes, they wear clothes they are comfortable in.
  • Butch lesbians are Earth Mothers, NATURAL!
  • Butch Lesbians are butch without anyone noticing.
And FAR too many other subtle erred Butch depictions, portrayals and presumptions to list.
Chances are if you see a lesbian performing male, she isnt Butch, she's a DYKE! Dykes imitating men dont a Butch make! Say it with me...

Dykes imitating men don't a Butch make!

Not being a Butch lesbian isnt an insult. Being a dyke of any variety isnt an insult. All are nuances of nature. But not being true to your own unique nuance is a crime against nature, yourself and us all. It is normal in childhood to pretend to be someone you admire, in adulthood it is dysfunctional.