Monday, September 1, 2014

Doing Woman Different: Annemarie Schwarzenbach

We forget that this is a process, that the earth is in constant motion and that we too are affected by ebbs and tides, earthquakes and events far beyond our visible and tangible spheres: beggars, kings, figures in the same great game. We forget it for our would-be peace of mind, which then is built on shifting sand. We forget it so as not to fear. And fear makes us stubborn: we call reality only what we can grasp with our hands and what affects us directly, denying the force of the fire that’s sweeping our neighbour’s house, but not yet ours.
Annemarie Schwarzenbach was born in Zurich in 1908, in her short life she became a notable writer, worldly photographer and journalist. From a very early age Annemarie acclimated in behaviour/dress more in line with typical boy behaviour/dress which at the time her parents didnt dissuade.

Annemarie came from a well to do family, yet despite natural brightness, academically worked hard earning her doctorate in history by age 23 and publishing her first novel (Bernhard's Circle) shortly there after.
Annemarie having studied and taken serious interest in German literature, history, music and night life became infatuated first with Erika Mann and friends with Erika's brother Klaus, both children of Thomas Mann. Annemarie quickly got caught up in Berlin's pre nazi night life of dance, drink and drugs. Once Hitler came to power in 1933 and Berlin's avant garde bohemianism was quashed, Annemarie's right wing parents urged her to drop the Mann's as friends and support Hitler's National Socialist German rebuild, all of which Annemarie refused outright.


Annemarie traveled a great deal, often accompanied with Klaus and in 1935 on a return trip to Persia obtained a lavender marriaged to French diplomat Claude Clerac. Annemarie enjoyed various lesbian romances with many famous society lesbians in her day, including being pursued by none other than Carson McCullers herself whom was quite mad for Annemarie, dedicating a later novel to her!

In 1942 Annemarie was in a bicycle accident where a brain injury from the fall was misdiagnosed. Her mother whom she had a long difficult relationship with wouldnt allow friends (or husband) to see Annemarie and she died in hospital about a month after this accident. Annemarie's mother destroyed many of her letters, including her diary after Annemarie's death. It is only through the help of friends who rescued many of her writings and photos that they remain with us today.
Annemarie did woman differently in how she wore woman, in how women wore her, in her play (as a child and adult), in her many travels, writings, photos and limitless ways she embodied woman.

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When Transmen get Raped

The other day this blog received this google search hit:
There are several things we can deduce from this basic search alone; where the search is from(Michigan), that they are likely a trans female (ftm) that they are likely young (using a Nintendo Wii) and that they have likely been raped (ftm gets raped).

This search doesnt at all impress me as being some pornofied trans fetishizing search, rather it impresses me as being quite serious, legitimate and someone in pain as well as need of proper information.

Before dispensing with that information, let me state clearly ANYONE can be a product of rape, females who transition arent exempt from rape. Rape is NEVER your fault. Being raped doesnt mean you're weak! Click links for more info:

National Sexual Assault Hotline - 1.800.656.HOPE

The Online Hotline

As always, I can be contacted (thedirtfromdirt@yahoo.com) anytime for anyone who needs to talk or needs help finding help.

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Friday, August 29, 2014

Femme Please! A NOT Femme List! (Queer Femme Trans Femme Femme FTM)

The NOT Femme companion post to the previous NOT Butch post....

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Thursday, August 28, 2014

Butch Please! A Sample of NOT Butch Lesbians

In lieu of the perpetual constant unceasing endless incorrect ideas of Butch, I'm going to do a post of a little of what (or who) Butch is NOT!

NOT Butch!
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Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Butch/Femme a RadFem Thierstory

There is a long negative ugly history that lingers today from (primarily) straight feminist whose ignorant understanding and malicious portrayal of Butch/Femme individuals and relationships that still dominate (academic) feminist thoughts/politics. There has also been an equally vicious unremitting lezbophobia by and behind this feminist onslaught of Butch/Femme lesbians. The majority of the feminist naysayers of Butch/Femme, self ID as Radical Feminist. I don't fault Radical Feminism per se, more the women Radical Feminism has/seems to attract. Think Russia and Communism. Communism didn't fail because it was a seriously flawed system, it failed because its most basic principles weren't upheld by those heading that system.

Butch/Femme lesbians predominantly, as has been documented in multiple B/F history anthologies by Joan Nestle and other B/F lesbians from the 40s/50s, were about thirty years ahead of organized feminism in both beliefs and practices. Since Butch lesbians and Femme lesbians were both female, irrespective of slight differences in manner/dress, as individual lesbians they held women and each other in high regard. And within B/F relationships there existed a general/exclusive mutual respect and mutual exchanges of power, unlike hetero driven patriarchal relationships.

But outside the comfort of private B/F spaces, B/F's were often treated with suspicion/ostracized in the least and violence/raped/killed in the worst. Society wasn't/isn't ready for lesbian couples to exist as women loving women rather than fodder for the masturbatory fantasies of men. Butch lesbians threatened (threaten) hetero patriarchy first by carrying female so far out of the realm of female as its defined by men they compromised available descriptive language and hetero female confines. And second by giving/sharing/exchanging their power/bodies with other women only. Femme lesbians threatened hetero patriarchy by passing as straight then in turn, partnering with Butch lesbians (women). In doing so Femmes resisted male controlled pornofied lesbian titillation (Butch lesbians were viewed by hetero patriarchy as repugnant) replacing that male titillation with male fear. Fear for several reasons; fear because Femme's passed as straight causing males to worry their wives/girlfriends could potentially leave them for a woman (and a Butch woman at that) and fear because as a straight looking females, males couldn't control Femme desire or change the Butch direction Femme desires took. This radical way of femaleness put Femmes squarely in the crossfire of hetero male threats and violence.

Both Butches and Femmes routinely wore trousers long before it was acceptable by societal standards for women, both also were routinely harassed for doing so. Because Butch lesbians wore theirs with pulled back or cropped hair, they were presumed by hetero patriarchy as acting like men or worse trying to be men (get what men have). Butch lesbians were often stopped/questioned/searched by beat cops implementing the three articles of clothing law. This was an illegal made up law that allowed police to harass/arrest Butch lesbians who didn't conform to female dress codes outlined by men. If a (Butch) lesbian didn't have on at least three articles of women's clothing, she could be arrested/fined. There are many horror stories of B/F lesbians from the 40s/50s/60s being raped when in police custody, similar to South Africa's corrective rape practices today. These rapes were a way for male authority to shove their superiority as men, down the throats/vaginas (literally/figuratively) of Butch women whom they perceived as threats to their manhood and ownership of straight/straight appearing women. But regardless of the pressure/threat/violence of hetero patriarchy, Butch/Femme lesbians resisted hetero patriarchal conformity and in small pockets everywhere blazed trails of non organized feminism, lighting the way for the near future.

When the future did arrive, several decades later in the form of the Women's Liberation Movement, B/F lesbians enlisted in droves at their nearest Women's Lib Orgs ready to fight a war many had long been fighting alone. But were elite Women's Libber as enthused to induct B/F lesbians in their cause? The answer to that is a resounding NO! B/f (working class) Lesbian were quickly discouraged from joining/participating in Women's Lib Orgs by predominately straight classist leaders. Leaders who were much more invested in not offending mainstream society/men than revolutionizing the sexist Gender Straight Jacket keeping all women in check. Even the so called radical feminist (white middle class/academic) elite, many of which with straight privilege colonized lesbian identity while ousting actual lesbians who didn't fit their STRAIGHT criteria for lesbian right down to the kinds of sex THEY defined as lesbian sex! It was the straight white radical lesbian feminist way or the highway,  B/F's took the highway, lesbian pride, love and dignity being more important to them than another closet.

In the forty years since then, little has changed in a faithful B/F representation or understanding by feminists/ radical feminist/the lesbian community as a whole and general society.  In fact post Queer/Trans Theory/Politic were copious amounts of queer/trans have collectively mythologized B/F for their own personal identities/perversions, Butch/Femme has little or visible no accurate representation. Therefore current RadFem groups, like their predecessors have formulated their notions of B/F based on past lezbophobic ignorance (hetero mimicry assumptions) or assume the visible B/F queer/trans IS invariably Butch/Femme. Interestingly current Radfems and the like, are heavily invested in demythologizing trans male portrayals of woman, feeling (rightly so) that these portrayals of women are based on woman as object for the male masturbatory gaze. Yet in their long negative relationship with Butch/Femme lesbians who are authentically female and misrepresented, RadFems etc base whole theories precisely on a willful perversion of facts. At this point in time they cannot claim ignorance when the internet can bring authentic Butch/Femme history/lesbians right into the comfort of their living rooms.

Butch/Femme lesbians in varying individual/collective ways continue to challenge the Gender Straight Jacket and hetero patriarchal relationship unequal structures and as such we challenge both the old and new RadFems and the convenient (often comfortable) feminism they practice. As a result we remain a target in their narrow crosshairs.

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Monday, August 25, 2014

Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning


DT-Age 15

JH-Age 16

JB-Age 18

BMB-Age 17

JM-Age 18

MM-Age 15

TT-Age 17

K-Age 16

R-Age 14

An angry response to posts just like these:
Ironically while hoping something bad happens to me, she says I'm "supporting" a world that harms children, apparently she's okay with someone/thing harming me. As this is all she wrote, I have no explanation for how according to her I support a terrible world that is hurting kids. I can only surmise she presumes my advocating a non Gender Straight Jacketed world where life's possibilities based on sex, experience NO frontiers! I can only presume that world scares the fuck of her as much as it frightens the fuck out of the rest of the trans community! Because in that world, they wouldnt exist. 

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Sunday, August 24, 2014

FTM Shoots Cum?

A recent question that found my blog:
ALL women can ejaculate. Trans females however may lose the ability to ejaculate if they've had any type of bottom surgery that involves their urethra/clitoris/vagina.
Females can ejaculate without G Spot penetration, but ejaculating strictly from clitoral stimulation isnt as common.

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