Thursday, May 21, 2015

The TRUTH about Testosterone effects on Transmen/FTM (a series)

Due to underwhelming and overwhelming information on testosterone dangers in trans female subjects today and the high numbers of lesbian youth (being influenced to transition/being pressured to transition/being forcibly transitioned by an authority figure), I'm going to do a series of posts on changes from (high dosing) testosterone in females, all of which I'll later locate in full on a future post.

In female transition at this point in time, there is a general (standard) outline/timeline/possible issues of the effects of testosterone therapy on the female (brain) body (short term). These standards are used by general practitioners who may have never served a transgender patient or who've served hundreds. These standards are shared among GPs, endocrinologists, psychologists, therapists, gender specialists, academic etc. These standards are then shared by mental/medical professionals with female clients seeking transition or parents seeking to transition a child (or supposed to be shared).

These standards have come to be standards based on a combination of self reporting and various medical studies involving females treated with testosterone for GID/GD (gender identity disorder/gender dysphoria). Testosterone is the hormone that will chemically construct the female patient into her new transgender mind/body/life. So long as testosterone is maintained throughout the course of the female patient's lifetime, her mind/body will remain in an ongoing transitional state, with her natural brain/body fighting for control.

Females seeking transition or parents transitioning a female child/teen can expect to find a general outline of testosterone induced changes on (rarely in) the female brain/body. There is a perceived notion of changes based a basic/intimate knowledge of male bodies (as a comparison) as well as knowledge gleaned from already transitioned females in the form of friends/online acquaintances, online blogs/vlogs-videos of trans females.

This series of posts will remove perceived changes, call into serious question (when required) self reporting and place a magnifying glass on some of the more cited medical studies/journals used to sell transgender hormones as safe to patients, medical practitioners, psychologists, therapists, gender specialists and the general public.

Covered/dissected in the Testosterone Changes and Dangers in Female Transitioning will be as follows:
  • Mood/mental changes
  • Hair changes-head to toe
  • Body odor
  • Epidermis (skin) changes including acne
  • Voice changes (thicker vocal folds)
  • Breast changes
  • Vaginal/clitoris changes-including menstruation (periods)
  • Appetite/weight gain changes
  • Virilization of face/body-reordering of body fat/increase in visceral fat
  • Sex drive changes
  • Romantic attraction changes (not to be confused with core sexual orientation)
  • Aromatization of high testosterone dosage (on various organs)
  • Blood changes  
  • Endocrine system changes
  • Ovarian changes
  • Uterine/endometrium changes
  • Liver/pancreas changes
  • Heart/cardiovascular change

Monday, May 18, 2015

FTM Detransition-The Courage of Going Back in order to go Forward-A Reader Thanks Us

Hi! My name is________.

I emailed you almost two years ago and we had such a great conversation. I was really struggling de-transitioning and you calmed a lot of my fears and my hurting heart that was full of regret and ache. I didn't think it was ever going to be possible to de-transition and feel female again. I passed as male 100% of the time when I emailed you and reached out for support. I was dating a wonderful girl who was supportive and tried to help and understand as much as possible. It was a very hard time two years ago. I felt trapped...10x more trapped than I felt when I first decided to transition to male in the first place. I felt alone. Lost. Confused. And so much self hatred and regret and anger. I was approved for top surgery after seeing a therapist for 1.5 months. That time in my life was devastating. After you posted my email (with my consent) there were a lot of messages that the therapist who approved my surgery that quickly for such a permanent and radical surgery, was in the wrong and that that should have never happened. I didn't even have my bandages off from surgery before I felt such heavy remorse and complete devastation and regret.

After reading those comments, I felt that the therapist was indeed in the wrong. So, I decided to take legal action against him. For the damage emotionally, financially, and physically that I was caused. Almost a year later, after hiring two lawyers, my case goes to court this summer. My lawyers and I are taking legal action for medical malpractice. The outcome is looking very much in my favor. Thank you to you and all your readers for encouraging me to take action  for something that should have never happened in the first place.

Update on my life: I am scheduled for a reversal surgery at the beginning of fall 2015 (2.5 years after my double mastectomy.) the girl I was once dating when I first wrote you, is now my legal wife! As of six months ago :) we were engaged in June and married in October 2014. We have been building a house the last 7 months and it is finally done! We move in on Monday! I am happier, healthier, and more confident than ever before in my entire life. It was really hard coming off T hormones, and took almost a full year for reversal effects to show up, but I was very lucky and they did reverse. To the stranger on the street, I am a female who is more masculine with a deeper raspy voice (which my wife thinks is very sexy :) ) I am so happy with my body and my curves coming back and my smooth female face and my lack of body hair and getting my soft feminine features back that T had robbed me of.

 My wife and I have found a sperm donor and will try and get pregnant next August! My wife will carry our first baby, and I will carry the second. My heart is full and tears filled my eyes writing that. I am able to carry a baby still! After many OB and fertility appointments, my female born reproductive system is back to fully functioning and fertile! I am happier than words will ever describe, that I didn't do anything to take away my ability to carry our baby. I thank god everyday that I didn't damage that gift. I am so proud to be female and to be married to my very best friend. I love life and have healed almost completely from the pain and regret of once deciding to alter my body and transition to male. I am not male. I am a masculine female who is madly in love, so happy, a strong feminist, self compassionate with the thick scars on my chest from a surgery that should never have happened, and gentle and patient and kind with myself and owning my story and my life. Thank you for all you and your blog and your readers and their comments did for me. Truly. It was the catalyst that changed everything.

No dear fellow lesbian, THANK YOU! For looking back, and having the guts and courage to fight and find your way back. I also want to thank the lovely smart, feminist, lesbian readers, you too make a difference! 


Friday, May 15, 2015

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Doing Woman Different: Chrissie Hynde

Chrissie Hynde was born in 1951 in Arkon Ohio.
Hynde grew up a misfit in working class Arkon with few possibilities for women. Somewhere between rock and roll and radio a door opened beyond wifedom, waitressing or working the line. Hynde leapt through, traveling from art school all the way to London where she still resides today.

Her first several years in England, the young Chrissie Hynde tried her hand at joining various rock/punk bands and writing for the rock paper NME. Eventually Hynde got fed up and with connections she had established in the London music scene, formed her own band The Pretenders.
The Pretenders proved successful from the start with notable still popular songs like:

The Pretenders went through some difficult changes in the early 80's from the deaths of two of its members within a year of each other. Crushed, grief stricken but determined, Hynde put the band back together and in effort to keep the memories/talents of her fallen comrades alive Hynde/the Pretenders continued on.

The constant in all of Chrissie Hynde's lives, be it rocker/song writer/singer/actress/mother/animal rights activist is Hynde's no apologetic toughness. Hynde's (necessary?) tough girl attitude has even gotten her guff from purported feminists who were/are more invested in talking the talk unlike Hynde who consciously chose to walk the walk. Chrissie Hynde did woman differently when she failed to twist herself in the shape of female familiar to most. She did woman different by listening to her talents instead of listening to the limited talents acceptable to women. She did woman different when she showed us female toughness is every bit as attractive as male toughness and more so because it is couched in tenderness rather than coldness. Chrissie Hynde does woman different because she continues she show us female beyond the limits placed on us by society's sexist and ageist systems.


Saturday, May 9, 2015

Resolution on Gender and Sexual Orientation Diversity in Children and Adolescents in Schools-Official Policy on all things Trans Kids-Teens Part 2

In Part 1 of this post I did a little digging and with a few turns of the spade unearthed a fertilizer of fetishizers, garden variety academics, misogynists, lezbo/homo-phobics and queer theorists behind the APA's latest weapon in the arsenal to straighten out (eradicate) gay, lesbian and other non conformist youth. Arming both the school system and school professionals with wider and wider nets, for the sole purpose of bringing gay and lesbian youth to the attention of APA officials as early as possible. In this post I will delve into this Orwellian monstrosity, ferreting out the true conversionist aims, front/back/sides and behind its policy.

 What some children do not identify with are the roles assigned to their SEX via centuries of patriarchy and an ever shrinking Gender Straight Jacket not fitting all children. And in case you forgot who Rachel Pepper is, follow link-not exactly an unbiased opinion.
Bear in mind, unless cross sex hormones are administered, NO person be it child-adolescent or adult is transgender. Bear equally in mind whether parent or school, it IS child abuse to psychologically bully/shame a child's natural inclinations simply because they do not reflect yours/the masses. It IS child maltreatment to suppress a child's natural physiology, it IS child murder to mutilate a child/teen's natural healthy body/mind because they make the parent/school/society uncomfortable!
Intersex children are pulled into the mix because intersex rights groups have made some serious gains in the last few decades. Intersex rights groups have encouraged parents of intersex to allow the child to decide for itself later on regarding its sex, stopping doctors from playing God. This hasnt been a popular position in the medical community, who continue to support the likes of  the John Gender Identity Money's of the world. By adding the intersex to policies on transgender children, intersex children can once again be roped back in to requiring surgeries/hormones to fix their condition simply by putting them in the same category as transgender. The transgender and trans apologists dictating these policies also reap the benefits of aligning themselves with the intersex. By drawing constructed similarities between transgender paraphilia/social issues and the intersex's biological differences, it gives the notion to the casual observer that transgenderism is a biological disease/illness. Which clearly spells out that the Transgender Politic/Community view intersex people as wrong/ill/diseased/in need of fixing. But just for good measure, this was added (as we street smart autodidacts say) to cover thy ass!
The Trans Politic/Community/Trans supporters/enablers are NOT allies of the intersex, they are obviously enemies.
Gender and sexual orientation diverse children? I know, sounds like something shit out of the arse of a gender studies classroom, not something we expect to see written from the American Psychiatric Association, especially cocked, aimed and fired at school children. 
In the DSM5, the APA made a conscious effort to move away from Gender Identity Disorder, while at the same time using the very same criteria to continue diagnosing transgenderism in children/adolescents and adults via a diagnosis of Gender Incongruence. It is obvious from this gem alone the APA crew remains fond of Gender Identity, using it in various states of dress throughout the document. The APA crew does not however credit the father of Gender Identity, John Money; to which they surely are heavily indebted. And for whom without, transgender progresses in general society, schools, policies/laws, locker rooms, showers, dressing areas, TV shows/films/documentaries, newspapers/magazines and other assorted areas where gays and lesbians (not yet transitioned) clearly lag decades behind, would not yet be. John Money-the Mengele of the Intersexed, murderer of David Reimer and darling of pedophile groups everywhere, when John Money so elegantly stated with pride in PAIDIKA-The Journal of Paedophilia:

I'm rarely one to throw the baby out with the bathwater, but in the case of John Money's theories, be it Love Mapping, Gender Identity or Consensual Pedophilia, none were/are worthy of saving, preserving or using.  
The APA very casually slips into this document for school officials to "COLLECT DATA ON SEXUAL ORIENTATION" a term associated predominantly with Gays and Lesbians using AIDS as a scare tactic. Were this APA crew invested in teen STDs, this would read teen and NOT sexual orientation. They then repeat the importance of school officials to collect data on sexual orientation (gay/lesbians) for the added purpose of effective interventions. Meaning, effectively transitioning as many gay and lesbian youths school officials can effectively identify.
Interesting wording here, because our APA crew states it is recommending school officials "support affirmative interventions with transgender and gender diverse children and adolescents that encourages self exploration and self acceptance..." Self acceptance and transgender in the same sentence is oxymoronic. By accepting one's self as carrying their maleness or femaleness differently and feeling good about it, one clearly wouldnt feel good and then transition into a chemically created hybrid of male or female.

The APA crew doesnt say how the binary-male/female/intersex "limit all children from realizing their full potential" because they cannot. Because simply being a male or female or intersex human isnt encumbered by our sex, BUT by the stringent social roles/rules and expectations placed on the sexes by tradition, religion, parents, society and the APA themselves!
The APA using the school system/school officials to ferret out/collect data on gay and lesbian children/teens and encourage them to accept that the/ir binary sex/orientation is not normal and limiting their potentials is no fucking ally! It is the same erstwhile psychiatric homophobic mumbo jumbo with a few new technological twists, that for centuries has been used to incarcerate, drug and torture gays and lesbians all for our own good.

The writer and victim of John Money, Janet Frame once wrote: "'For your own good' is a persuasive argument that will eventually make a man agree to his own destruction." Think what it will make a child agree to.


Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Transgender Breast Cancer Risks-Truth from Peddled Fiction

Recently an article was published claiming that transgender males/females do not suffer anymore risks for breast cancer than the general population. Bear in mind:
  • About 1 in 8 U.S. women (about 12%) will develop invasive breast cancer over the course of her lifetime.
  • In 2014, an estimated 232,670 new cases of invasive breast cancer were expected to be diagnosed in women in the U.S., along with 62,570 new cases of non-invasive (in situ) breast cancer.
  • About 2,360 new cases of invasive breast cancer were expected to be diagnosed in men in 2014. A man’s lifetime risk of breast cancer is about 1 in 1,000.
  • Breast cancer incidence rates in the U.S. began decreasing in the year 2000, after increasing for the previous two decades. They dropped by 7% from 2002 to 2003 alone. One theory is that this decrease was partially due to the reduced use of hormone replacement therapy (HRT) by women after the results of a large study called the Women’s Health Initiative were published in 2002. These results suggested a connection between HRT and increased breast cancer risk. 
Now from the article:
So according to the study, medical records of veterans were used to document breast cancer in trans males/females from 1998-2013. Although on it is ONLY since 2011 that the VA began documenting/evaluating/treating transgender vets.
The article then, in oxymoron fashion concludes:
So which is it? Hormones will not raise the risk of breast cancer in transgender patients OR breast cancer among the transgendered (male or female) is RARELY reported and when it is, the breast cancer is directly related to HRT???!!!!

Unfortunately and unprofessionally there remains no master data base where cancer and other  hormonally related transgender maladies/deaths are collected. And it isnt until cases like these make headlines that a hint of what is truly going on with the precarious health of many transgender patients is known.


Monday, May 4, 2015

Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning

In lieu of repeated comments/arguments and temper tantrums regarding this blog's documentation of the recent phenomena I call Trans Trending-massive numbers of lesbian youth (now some heterosexual as well) who are transitioning, I will head each Who is Transitioning post with this simple guide to Fair Use in order to quell any/all comments on the subject of images used (and rightfully linked) for these posts. By adding a clearer understanding of image use, that can easily be corroborated with a split second Google search, I intend to squelch these childish squabbles in order for us to zero in on the real issues surrounding Trans Trending, its proliferation, propaganda and bigoted reaction to critique regardless of intelligence, merit or scientific proof.

Kage-Age 23

Nemo-Age 22

Ari-Age 18

Mark-Age ?

Brazil-Age ?

Ben-Age 18

Blake-Age 18

Syd-Age 21

Ben-Age 16

-Patti Smith 

"The empty hand of innocence
Transfusing street of the sorrows
And children of the wood
Hounded, shredding all veils
And winding all sheets of the dead world droning
Overturning tables laden with silver sacrificial birds
Beating goat-skin drums
Advancing with hands out-stretched
And we keep filling them with mercury nitrate, asbestos
Baby bombs blasting blue
Scavengers picking through the ashes
Children of the mills!
Children of the junkyards!
Sleepy, illiterate, fuzzy little rats
Haunted, paint-sniffin',
Stoned out of their shaved heads
Forgotten, foraging, mystical children
Foul-mouthed, glassy eyed, hallucinating"