Monday, July 25, 2016

From Lesbian to Trans-A Step by Step

In this blogs ongoing unflinching documentation of the desecration/destruction of lesbians through medical conversion/transition, I'll be interspersing regular Trans Trending articles with picture posts detailing the breakdown from Lesbian to Trans Female.


Pictures are said to be worth a thousand words, but watching a seemingly proud dyke disappear through selfies leaves even pictures speechless.

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Saturday, July 23, 2016

Trans Males Coercing Lesbians into SEX with them? I dont think so!


A more recent ruse from STRAIGHTBIAN is declaring online trans males (autogynephiles) are coercing/pressuring (I've also seen the word forcing used) lesbians into having sex with them. There are several issues with that, the first being:
  • Why the hell are these women wasting a moments time on this?
and second and most important:
  • By identifying as Lesbians, STRAIGHTBIANS interacting with trans males (any males for that matter) are giving the false notion that dykes would give males the time of day and then some! 
My wife and I daily observe Lesbian IDd STRAIGHTBIANS playing school yard boy/girl games with trans males. Wasting both their own time and Lesbian time when Lesbians are being asked/expected/coerced into helping them defeat the Big Bad Wolves. And with each defeat, within a days time, these same Lesbian IDd STRAIGHTBIANS seek out/target a new set of trans males to engage with, and AROUND we go!

  • Dykes are not afraid of trans males!
  • Dykes do not date trans males!
  • Dykes do not fuck or get fucked by trans males!
  • Dykes are not feeling pressured into sexual relations with trans males!
  • Most dykes never heard of a cotton picking ceiling (many of us wear boxers!)
  • If confronted with a trans male, dykes deal with them directly and the convo ends there!
  • Its rare for the general dyke to ever give a thought let alone any of her time to trans males period!
  • Dykes date/fuck/love dykes we're attracted to, because they're dykes and we're attracted to them!
  • IF some group of trans males said to a dyke that she was being "transphobic" cuz she wont cuddle his cock, she is not going to feel pressured to please him in any way, including bantering with him under the guise of arguing. 
  •  Men do NOT fall on Lesbian Radar!
  • And lets be honest, when was the last time you saw a trans male at a softball game???!!!
While Lesbian gullibility and fierce protectiveness toward women may ensnare some dykes into arguing (FOR STRAIGHTBIANS) with trans males, heterosexuality keeps STRAIGHTBIANS going back to trans males for more.

To my LESBIAN sisters, if you run across ongoing arguments with trans males by STRAIGHTBIAN/RadFems that over some form of transwomen arent women, by golly RUN THE OTHER WAY! STRAIGHTBIANS brought transgender into the lesbian community, and now STRAIGHTBIANS are using Lesbianism/Lesbian resources/Lesbians themselves to fuel and fan hetero flames between themselves and the men they (pretend to) hate.

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Friday, July 22, 2016

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Thursday, July 21, 2016

Femininity and the Heart of Femme


I view the femininity held by Femme bodies in the same way I view the butchness born of Butch bodies. I see it in its rawest nakedness, stripped bare of all artifice. Femme femininity isn't about the clothes choices a Femme is sporting, it is how she occupies and moves in or out of those clothes. Femininity in the general has through patriarchy come to have more to do with performance (for the male gaze) than simply being female (feminine bodied), whereby clothes DO make the woman. It is clear this is a MALE driven ideology proven over and over by trans males who perform their (male) version of "female" through a SEXUALIZED caricature of constructed hyper femininity. Straight women derive a false notion that women can utilize femininity to capture the male gaze and in doing so achieve power along side patriarchy, nothing is further from the truth. There is a definitive difference in being feminine and performing femininity, one you do on your feet, the other on your knees.

There is a real power source in a Femme's femininity, even when playfully extending into performance for a Butch. Not that false sense of power men temporarily allow hetero women to believe they own, they own nothing. Every Butch knows the Femme is a woman in control even when she chooses to give that control up. I am not merely speaking sexually, there is a power in the way a Femme exercises her Femme femininity; whether comforting another woman, protecting another woman, loving another woman, needing another woman, wanting another woman, holding another woman, touching another woman or simply being herself as a woman (often a foreign concept to straight women, who give themselves up to be whoever everyone else needs/requires). Perhaps it is here that the greatest difference lies between Femme femininity and general (constructed) femininity.  FEMME femininity emanates from the lesbian body that Femme lesbians define/defy identity. While straight women, through a male sexualized created/controlled femininity, only lose themselves, never to be found their whole lives through.

Within Femme Femininity there lies an open field, a field of play, expression, living, often unknown or forbidden to male dictated femininity. While this field is not always free from patriarchy, it is none the less a field where how a Femme expresses her feminine body is not determined or dependent on the male gaze or male approval. Butch females are often viewed as rebels, their lives radical, because Butch females externally display a radical difference in how they appear/function as females. But the truth is Femme lesbians are every bit as rebellious and radical as Butch lesbians, maybe more so. Because they rebel through femininity (presume heterosexual norm). That thing men believe they hold in a vice for their own sweet cock's pleasure. Femme femininity is a kick in the balls of patriarchy.

Because Femme femininity isn't reliant upon male approval, (its very nature in complete opposition to this) Femmes determine for themselves what femininity is! And that determinant isn't based on what a Femme DOES, but who she is. If she is Femme, she is feminine, and what she does through her body creates her own Femme femininity. She is feminine whether changing a flat tire, feminine whether buying a new pair of heels, feminine as the CEO of a large corp, feminine when making love to a Butch, feminine when putting on make up, feminine when chopping wood with no make up, she is feminine when eating, sleeping, breathing, she knows this and anyone who crosses her path will know it!

The femininity owned by Femmes is both REAL and Powerful, because there is Power in the REAL! Unlike the costume of constructed heterosexual femininity, Femme femininity cannot be donned anymore than it can be strip teased off glove by glove. The fabric of a Femme's femininity lies at the very core and depth of her lesbian heart.

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Tuesday, July 19, 2016

DeTransition-An FTM Journeys Home-In HER Own Words

I've been given permission to share some recent correspondences with a trans female who is struggling to find her way back to who she was BEFORE transition:

  • Hi! I wanted to contact you, because I'm detransitioning (going from ftm, back to female). Yesterday, I made my intentions known to my doctors, and should be starting estrogen soon to revert back physically to female. It's what I need to do for myself, but I'm scared that I won't be happy with the end results. I've been injecting testosterone for around 3 and a half years, have had top surgery, and a hysterectomy. The hysterectomy is how I really ended up on testosterone in the first place. I needed the hysto for medical reasons, it was legit, but before I was even out of the hospital my doctors were telling me I had to be on one hormone or the other. My doctor knew that I was interested in testosterone, but I had previously called them crying (before my surgery) saying I didn't know if I wanted to transition. I feel like I never had a chance to discover what being a woman was like really, because of the "issues" I had going on pre-hysto...Now I am facing the task of going back, after years of synthetic hormones/top surgery, and I am scared shitless about it. I know I'll be able to have reconstructive surgery on my breasts eventually, there are many females who have had to do so after a mastectomy for cancer, with good results. I mainly worry about how people will treat me, until I can refeminize my face, body, and fix the thinning hair issue I have because of T (talking to my doctor about finasteride for it). I feel like a feminine woman, but fear it's going to take me forever to get my body to that point. To be honest, I used to hate you and your blog. I think I misjudged your intentions. You do shoot straight from the hip, but I think you do it out of genuine care for women (like myself) who are ruining our bodies just to have to take a long hard road back. I wish I would have listened to you years ago. 
  • I'm 30 years of age. I don't blame anyone else for my idiocy. I just wish I would have learned to love myself before completely turning my life upside down with all of this. I messaged you because I'm afraid.
  • I had started living as a male in society around 19 years of age (just binding & my name changed). Previously, I had come out in the mid 1990's (at 13) as a lesbian, which wasn't well received by my Southern Baptist family. As strange as it may sound, my mother could accept having a child who was "born in the wrong body" more than she could accept having a daughter who was gay. Even now I cringe at what she's going to say to me when I tell her I'm going back, it's not going to be a good day. I....had been online for years prior looking at transitioning videos, as well as talking to trans men about their experiences. It sounds stupid now, but at the time it seemed like a good answer to some of my problems. Become a male in society, don't have as much bullshit to deal with, etc. It really is night/day how people treat you when you're perceived as male than when you're female. 
I've edited out some health issues she doesnt want made public, for the purpose of clarity I'm only including that a hysterectomy was necessary.
  • I had spoken to my doctor previously that I was strongly considering taking T, and they were ready to provide it after my hysto. I started injections four days after my surgery, while I was still an impatient. I don't blame them. I should have waited awhile, a few months without hormones wouldn't have killed me. That is the only ill will I hold against the doctors, how persistent they were that I choose right away.
I asked her why she decided to cease transition. Again, for the sake of privacy I'm leaving out some of the healthy issues that arose from injecting testosterone and including others.
  • I'm stopping transition for multiple reasons. A big one is my health. My blood pressure stays high...The doctors aren't certain why...but I wasn't having the problems until I was on T. Another reason is I'm tired of feeling numb and emotionless. I just feel like I exist most of the time. I'm tired of injections, tired of paranoia about people finding out, tired of failed relationships, and other reasons. It sucks that I have to figure out how to reclaim my womanhood internally as well as externally. I know I won't be happy until I have breast reconstruction and laser hair removal (I'm soooo thankful I never had bottom surgery).
 I asked her a few questions regarding where she is right now in detransition and had she actually had Gender Dysphoria and how her family felt once she transitioned.
  • I'm already cold turkey, until the 26th (when I see my Endocrinologist). I told them my intentions and they said to not take anything right now. I have been weaning myself off in a sense, my shots have been very sporadic over the last year. I want chest reconstruction because I want my breasts back. I know that there are females with flat chests, which is fine, I just don't think I would be happy with that in the long run. As far as dysphoria... that is a tough one. I mean I've been uncomfortable with my body since puberty, but I think a lot of females feel that way. I think my transition started out as a way to blend into society, when I was binding & had short hair I didn't look like a dyke anymore. I found comfort in being invisible after being harassed for so long. Then it all just took off from there. As far as family, I never had much of one after coming out as gay so young. My mom is about all I have left and she has been 100% on board with my ftm transition. She is the one I worry about. Other than that I am currently taking a break from my 12 year relationship, the communication just went downhill after being on T. She and I do hope to reunite in the future as a lesbian couple, but for right now we're working on ourselves. It was a mutual decision and I think it's for the best.
I told her as I have told other dykes over the years who have come to me for help with detransitioning, its a process, but one they do not have to face alone. Most dykes are aware there is a Gender War going on and most of us know our lot is being drafted in great numbers. And many of us are willing to welcome back the walking wounded and willing to give them a hand to hold till they can once again stand proud.

I applaud this lesbian for braving her way back to her lesbian roots and paving the way by example for other unhappy trans females to find their way back.

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Sunday, July 17, 2016

Doing Woman Different: Anna Mae Aquash

Anna Mae Aquash was a Mi'kmaq Indian born on a Reservation in Nova Scotia in 1945.  Every facet of her early life informed her later activism. As is still typical of Indian Reservations today, Anna Mae was surrounded by poverty so extreme its rarely seen outside of Reservations in Canada or the US; polluted/lack of water/proper sanitation, sub level education, heavy alcohol and drug use, constant struggle to retain cultural history and integrity and an ever shrinking ownership of Tribal lands. Where many Indian people self destructed, Anna Mae slowly blossomed into an Indian HERo.

While still in her teens, Anna Mae married and moved from Canada to Boston, Mass. where she later bore two daughters in the mid 60's. She later divorced and Anna Mae married Nogeeshik Aquash in a traditional Indian ceremony. It was in Boston that Anna Mae met and quickly got involved in AIM-American Indian Movement. Anna Mae passionately shared AIM members suspicion of the Federal government's BIA- Bureau of Indian Affairs to support Indian well being/needs/culture. She also shared AIM's endeavors for US government to:

 Some of Anna Mae's initial work centered around teaching young Indians about their history, but she quickly began to be more involved in AIM actions/protests. Some of the earlier AIM initiatives that Anna Mae either supported or was directly involved in were:

Through Anna Mae's rising status within AIM, and her militant savvy challenging US government and FBI officials, bringing Indian genocide/Racism/police brutality and rape of Indian Reservationists etc to the attention of US public, Anna Mae quickly found herself on the wrong side of the law.
CIA/FBI officials in effort to keep tabs on AIM activities, placed informants within AIM ranks, some were ferreted out, but paranoia among AIM leaders grew. Despite the worry over informants, AIM continued their work and protests to growing AIM membership and bringing their needs to a greater US audience. The US government's hopes of fracturing AIM leadership through well placed informants and paranoia didnt work to its full potential until US government put the word LIE out that Anna Mae Aquash was herself an informant. It was this LIE that lead to Anna Mae's disappearance in December of 1975. 

A female body was found by a Lakota rancher in Wanblee, South Dakota near the corner of a reservation in February 1976. Her hands was cut off and sent to the FBI (purportedly) for identification. She (purportedly) appeared to the coroner to have died from exposure. The body was buried as a Jane Doe. Later the body was identified as Anna Mae Aquash. Her family had her body exhumed and enlisted another autopsy, where is was discovered the cause of death was a bullet (execution style) to the back of her head. Her US government sanctioned murder caused a riff so deep within the American Indian Movement it never fully recovered.

Anna Mae Aquash did woman so different, she threatened the entire United States government, and for that she was murdered. She was a leader among women and men! She skillfully balanced, empathy and militancy. She dared to right wrongs that didnt merely befall the people of her time or her country, but Indians everywhere long since slaughtered by White supremacy and Indian history long removed/ignored by Whites. Despite her murder, the spirit of her passion for justice still exists in Indians today. And her singled minded fierceness for whats right exists as an example to all women.

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Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Off Topic Comments or Just Plain Off

In effort to keep the pedestrian, the ignorance, the hate filled, the off topic and the truly bizarre comments from impeding/side tracking or misleading the posts from this blog, I've decided to hold such comments and regularly publish them in a separate post. Each comment will be labeled to make it easier to comment on a specific comment:
Bear in mind, these comments come from those who have transitioned, are considering transition or are pro transition.

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