Friday, October 31, 2014

Listen to your GIRL Gut

I received this message a few days ago:
This woman spent less than 20 minutes on this blog, looking at only one post and the front page:
I highlight this as a typical example of hundreds of comments/emails etc this blog receives. Their visceral gut fear/anger precludes some readers from reading further, asking themselves why they had such a violent reaction or worse wanting to be violent toward me. The information here, the deep/wide concepts, the sociological histories, case histories, case studies, histories of mental illness/asylums and pseudo cures, systems of patriarchy and misogyny in specific forms and subtle, these arent subjects for the faint of heart anymore than they are subjects that can be devoured in twenty minutes no matter the appetite. Some of such subjects I have in one way or another studied for over forty years, others I have lived for at least forty seven. NONE have I spent the length of time it takes to bake a cake on, nor would I ever be so bold as to criticize something I had.

That gut feeling is something we all have, only as females from our earliest years we are taught, even pressured, NOT to listen. Ignore our fierce reactions, never asking why. Whether its seeing a man walking toward us on the street and our gut whispers 'cross the street, do not walk past this man'. Women have for centuries ignored their gut's keen advice, only for some of them to end up raped or worse, killed. All because we're conditioned to override our gut screaming at us, over possibly insulting a man.

We also have intense gut reactions to the things we read. Only in these instances females quickly cross the proverbial street, practically breaking their necks getting to the other side. It makes little difference whether females are on birth control hormones or testosterone, avoid the scary words like trick or treat children tonight are avoiding the scariest houses. Females are conditioned instead to listen to our hearts, there are a litany of songs sung to this notion. On this All Hallows Eve, I dare you to change your conditioned past by listening to your girl gut, for a far better future.

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Tuesday, October 28, 2014

FTM Transmen Get Raped Before AND After Transition

A trans female did a recent search hitting this blog:
A hurt desperate frightened raped trans female seeking some kind of help or information for her special rape circumstance.

I pray she found some help, told the police, a hospital, told a friend or family member.

But is her circumstance special because she is a trans female? A trans female on testosterone? A trans female on testosterone with her breast removed? A trans female on testosterone, breast removed and bottom surgery, maybe even her vagina sewn shut?

The terrible fact is, so long as females are born under patriarchy's violent masculinist misogynistic systems where rape IS a male privilege, ALL biological females of ALL ages living or dead are vulnerable to rape.

  • Passing as a male isnt a shield against male violence or rape and trans females entering male private spaces (men's rooms/locker rooms/public showers/gay only bars/sex clubs) may even be more vulnerable within the den of the lions. 
  • Testosterone along with boosting muscle growth also boosts confidence levels which can give trans females a false sense of security when they are feeling a heightened sense of power. 
  • Trans females generally by their female nature are smaller on all points to that of men. Even trans females who are workout fiends and measure in height similarly to men, will not possess the same muscle pound per pound that men posses due to shorter limbs.
If it is too difficult to think of yourself as female, then in those times your female gut tugs at you, think of yourself as Matthew Shepard who believed his shared maleness with his murderers would keep him safe. But Matthew didnt have the advantage trans females have, we learn from birth we're vulnerable to male physical/sexual violence, NEVER forget it! It doesnt make you weak, it keeps you alive to breath another day.

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Sunday, October 26, 2014

A History of Homophobia and the Transition Cure-A Parents Answer to their Worst Fear

Toward the end of the 19th century and into the beginning of the 20th there was a move by leading sexologists to view/treat homosexuality as a birth defect from which the male/female homosexual had no agency. He or she was simply born that way, like a mentally or physically retarded person for example. So while homosexuality continued to be pathologized as abnormal/deviant, by viewing homosexuality as not the fault/choice of the sufferer, homosexuality could be something pitied/sympathized with rather than something the sufferer was arrested/confined to a mental asylum or tortured for.

Sexologist Havelock Ellis believed homosexuality was the inverse of male personality/female sex or female personality/male sex, which he named inversion. According to Ellis the female invert was considered "masculine in her habits from her earliest years." This sympathetic approach to inverts was employed by the lesbian writer Radclyff Hall in her notorious novel The Well of Loneliness based on her own lesbianism and Havelock Ellis's cases studies. But despite this early progress, homosexuality remained a birth defect in need of a cure.

Between 1948 (male homosexuals) and 1953 (female homosexuals) Alfred Kinsey's famous Kinsey report reveled a chilling number of homosexuals in the United States. Not so coincidentally the American Psychiatric Association published "the first official manual of mental disorders" under the DSM I (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual: Mental Disorders) in 1952. Homosexuality remained a mental disorder within the DSM through several incarnations and wasnt removed until gay and lesbian political rights groups demanded and received its removal from the DSM II in 1973. BUT keep in mind, homosexuality was removed due to political pressure, NOT because psychiatry suddenly believed it was no longer abnormal/pathological or a threat to heterosexual norms. Immediately after the removal of homosexuality from DSM II, work began on the DSM III published 7 years later and where homosexuality had been removed, Gender Identity Disorder was put in its place. Where it remained through the DSM IV and continues in its current embodiment today in the DSM5 as Gender Dysphoria. 

Long before Psychiatry was born, homosexuality was pathologized and punished, including biblically by God himself. Some methods of modern psychology employed to treat/cure homosexuality are: psychoanalysis, psychoanalytically-oriented psychotherapy, a multitude of behavioral therapies (cognitive/reparative/aversion), rational psychotherapy, exaggeration therapy, fixed-role therapy, and many other group psychotherapy approaches-all have failed to cure homosexuals of their being homosexual.

So while the American Psychiatric Association removed homosexuality from its mental health bible in 1973, mental health professionals continued to view homosexuality as abnormal and continued trying to find a treatment or cure for it. This unwavering societal/social/religious/medical belief that homosexuality equals wrong/abnormal/abominable continues today just as promises from psychologists/therapists exist today in trying to cure it, despite gay and lesbian human rights progresses. The simple fact is in 2014, NO parent truly wants or wishes to have a gay or lesbian child. The reasons for this vary, from fear for their child to fear of what would family/friends even neighbors think, to outright pure evil hatred.

Early sexologists such as Magnus Hirschfeld, Havelock Ellis, Harry Benjamin (all three today are associated with transgenderism) and all those influenced by them (past/present/future) associated homosexuality with inversion. The only homosexuals they believed who were truly gay or lesbian were the sissy fag and the mannish dyke. More than the same sex attraction factor was dress and behaviour. The sissy fag may have a swish in his walk, he may like things/clothes/objects society deems to be strictly girl/woman, he may even become a female impersonator. The mannish dyke may refuse to conform to the gender strict rules society has outlined for females. She may be rough and tumble in her play, she may prefer pants to dresses, she may even prefer the company of boys/men to girls/women. Male/Female homosexuals who do not easily/visually fit (or slide) into these out dated ignorant notions of who is gay/lesbian, were and continue to have their sexuality questioned and/or shock those they come out to. As a result society/psychiatry has and continues to focus its (negative) attention on those they feel can be identified as gay or lesbian visually/behaviourally (behaviour again having nothing to do with same sex attraction).


Given this historical, persistent threat of seemingly recognizable homosexuals, psychiatry was up in arms when forced to remove homosexuality from its subjective bible of mental illness. In its collective psychiatric mind it had for decades been experimenting on changing the sex of mostly men believed to be homosexual through narrow behavioural qualifiers rather than actual homosexual attraction. With homosexuality no longer a mental disorder the APA created a new diagnostic loophole based on sexologist/pro pedophile John Money's theory of Gender Identity, later Gender Identity Disorder.

Decades before GID was dreamed up and added to the DSM, psychiatry was treating male inverts (sissy fags), straight male cross dressers and the odd female invert (dykes/Butches) with a kinda of opposite sex transition. This involved high doses of synthetic male/female hormones and various (brutal) surgeries to physically force the patient to visually/behaviourally reflect current social/societal male/female norms. Transition, from a most cursory glance seemed to be the ONLY way to change the homosexual invert or cross dresser. Think of a child's puzzle game where the child learns to put a round wood peg through a round whole and the square peg through the square hole. Psychiatry, with the help of medical doctors shaved down the square till they could shove it through the round hole.

Psychiatry had for centuries tried changing the homosexual square peg into the heterosexual round peg without success. Through transition, it appeared by modifying the external with drugs/surgeries the homosexual could then appear heterosexual. But more importantly than the homosexual component was for example, the sissy fag who loved pink toys and playing house as a boy or any other stereotype befitting most girls/women, by altering his appearance to that of a woman in some sense, his behaviours suddenly fell in line like pearls on a dangling necklace.

It it from between the legs of homophobia and strict social gender norms that transgenderism as we know it today, was born.

No matter the person seeking transition and no matter the reason why they seek it, because GID/GD are intimately linked to homosexuality via psychiatry/society, there is a strong assumption that every transsexual is homosexual at worst, bisexual at least. This grave homophobia in both society and psychiatry opened the door for the APA to include a special addition in the DSM5 published last May. The addition is for children who do not conform to current consumer driven sex stereotypes to be diagnosed as Gender Dysphoria, despite dysphoria having no known occurrence in per-pubescent humans. In other words, children who would be suspect of growing up into healthy adult gay or lesbians.

The Gender Dysphoria label is a license for parents who have more fear/hatred at having a homosexual child/adult than they fear/hate having a child they can tell themselves and others has a birth defect that can be corrected with drugs/surgeries like any other dis/ease. Gender Dysphoria/Gender Incongruence is the ultimate Get-Out-Having-a-Gay-child free card. One doctor said: "I see between one and five new trans kids a week," said Dr. Olson. "So the growth is tremendous. We've had something like a 330 percent increase over the year of 2013. It's just phenomenal."

From centuries before psychiatry's mental illness bible to the three decades homosexuality lay between its pages in the DSM, all attempts/treatments to stop or cure homosexuality were unsuccessful. Mannish dykes and nancy boy fags persisted like a slap in the face of psychiatry and a challenge to gender norms for societies everywhere. But eradicating their blatant homosexual presence in childhood has become a triumph for modern psychiatry/medicine and a valid excuse for homophobic parents seeking a gay/lesbian cure before it gets out of hand or their child gets beyond the playground.

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Friday, October 24, 2014

The Curious Case of Gender Dysphoria

Gender Dysphoria is a disorder created and used by the American Psychiatric Association (DSM5) to diagnose patients for whom physical/mental/social transition is the ONLY treatment offered. Currently there is no known cure.

There are over 300 disorders in the DSM5, but only ONE (gender dysphoria) disorder where:
  • Individuals will self ID before a diagnosis, with the TREATMENT for the disorder, rather than the disorder itself. (Think-not knowing you had cancer but claiming you are a chemo patient)
  • Individuals appear happy in their self diagnosis of this disorder and excited to receive an official medical diagnosis of GD. 
  • Individuals with a GD diagnosis will "come out" (in the way gays/lesbians have/do) to parents/peers/co workers etc.
  • Healthy functioning non brain body parts are removed and/or rearranged in bizarre ill functioning fashions.
  • Treatment can literally change sexual desire/attraction. 
  • A complete change/shift in social experience/strata is expected/desired once treatment begins.
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Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Trans Trending-Who is Transitioning


TS-Age 19

BM-Age 21

TF-Age-17

EZ-Age 16

Ash-Age (youth)

CS-Age 15

CT-Age 20

Kin-Age (youth)

RC-Age 22

What these young women have to look forward to in the next coming years: Transgender Stealth Anxiety Disorder for starters.

The Primary Symptoms of Transgender Stealth Anxiety Disorder are as follows:

  • Hypervigilance
  • Anxiety
  • Paranoia 
  • Hypersensitivity (to perceived criticism)
  • ‏Narcissism/Egocentrism
Secondary Symptoms
  • Mood swings/Moodiness
  • Depression
  • Relationship difficulties (with peers/partners/families)
  • Anger/Hostility
  • Defensiveness
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Sunday, October 19, 2014

Another Fallen Transman: Karlyn Lotney-Health Woe's & Money Pleas


Like the once popular successful ex lesbian Pat Califia, another seemingly successful ex lesbian now trans female Kinky Karlyn Lotney is also in ill health and seeking donation funds from strangers online for personal financial support.

Lotney was a college graduate, had a book published, spoke and has written about lesbian and trans female sex in many different media (some well known) venues.

Then Lotney began her transition (testosterone injections) around 2001, by 2005 she suffered a cardiac event, a year later breast cancer.



She had a double mastectomy, beating breast cancer and continued with the ongoing process of transition where her mental and physical health continued downhill along with her previous successes.
Now on state assistance, Lotney recently found a doctor who would take her tax paid insurance so that she could receive surgical weight loss surgery for her debilitating obesity.
But like the instant gratification she sought transition for and its failure to deliver, instead mentally/medically compromising her life, the weight loss surgery has nearly killed her as well.

 
 The latest update was posted two weeks ago:
Sadly in our post queer theory, post Trans Trending lesbian nation, this story of the once successful lesbian ball breaking the glass ceiling who then transitions, only to flounder later on in health, finance and opportunity, is fast becoming the norm. Dare we ask "who's next?" Testosterone not only isnt living up to the long term expectation of trans females, it is killing their past lucrative careers and killing them as well.

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Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Transgender Stealth Anxiety Disorder

With inept diagnoses, unthought-out monstrous treatment, no forethought or care for post treatment day to day living, tragic though it is, we shouldn't be at all surprised that the treatment for Gender Dysphoria (GID repackaged by the DSM) creates other disorders while claiming to cure the original (GD).

After the first small wave of early Trans Trending females (post queer theory) and the massive transition of trans females (mostly lesbian youths) in the last five years, one such NEW disorder has arisen to stalk/plague the Trans female community-Transgender Stealth Anxiety Disorder.

The primary goal the female who transitions aspires to, is passing as the biological sex they were not naturally born. Relieving dysphoria is a by product of the primary goal, despite it being the primary goal the Mental Health Community outlines in the DSM. Great care, study, and effort goes into passing not merely before transition but years and years into the life long treatment that is transition.

Like an actor researching for an Oscar worthy role, the trans female patient studies the males around her, on television, in the street and wherever she encounters them for clues on how to be a something she knows intimately that she isn't-a man. Once she begins passing as a biological man to the general public/strangers etc, with lightening speed her mind darts between men and herself, herself and men.  This ceaseless, sizing, measuring, quantifying herself against a male backdrop creates an endless pathological inner hyper distressing dialogue. The question at the end of each of these inner conversations is something like can they tell I'm not a real man? There is a deep pathological fear of being found out for who SHE truly is once she begins passing.

The Primary Symptoms of Transgender Stealth Anxiety Disorder are as follows:

  • Hypervigilance
  • Anxiety
  • Paranoia 
  • Hypersensitivity (to perceived criticism)
  • ‏Narcissism/Egocentrism
Secondary Symptoms
  • Mood swings/Moodiness
  • Depression
  • Relationship difficulties (with peers/partners/families)
  • Anger/Hostility
  • Defensiveness

Currently this disorder has no known treatment or cure.

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